BL that made me cry but it was worth it

These are collection of tragic novels associated with unrequited love, betrayal, tragic fate, abusive character, and inhuman treatment. Most novels is about MC who find their misery is enough, want to get away from toxicity, and cherish what their tattered soul left. Not an easy journey ofc, since these worlds were created for MC to suffer. However, MC's spirit to be free is what highly valued. ... more>>

The other novels are purely angst that hurting the heart and shivering the bone.

There are many more heart wrenching novels i've read but not listed in here. I can't stand humiliation without victim ability to prevail it over and preperator's redemption. So this type of angst not listed in this list.

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 make sure to check my first list ;)

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yep you read it right... this is a list of steamy stories that I've read

If you’re into dark themes and want a list of dubcon and noncon - this is the list for you. This list isn’t for everybody,... more>> if you’re uncomfortable with the subject that’s probably a good thing. Sometimes you just want a dark read through at least I sure do. <<less

Not for the Weak. The Male Lead will be Bossy, Hot, and uncontrollable. The Uke must accept all the love given.  XD

pain and just pain only

BL novels with good plot and heavy smut. I mean...smut is exponentially hotter when the plot, characters and relationships are well-written. Tried to put mostly fully translated novels in this list.... more>>

Please check warning tags. As long as you understand how to consume problematic fiction responsibly (understanding right from wrong, fiction from reality), there's no need to feel guilty about enjoying these novels. :) <<less

If you're looking for something that will make you cry. Here it is. I don't discriminate novels, so there's both bl and straight romance. 

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Spray holy water on me as much as you like, you can't stop me from reading these. ... more>>

(Please check warning tags. As long as you, the reader, responsibly understand the difference between fiction and reality, there's no reason to feel guilty about reading these at all. Fiction is fiction. Explore your own dark tastes freely in the space that is fiction.) <<less

Stories where the main character attempts to run away, but, inevitably get caught; desperation dripping from toxic wounds caused by the male lead.  ... more>>

Trigger warning, red flags up! <<less

in*est smut plays.... more>>

You have been warned

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Gwanggong type ML. Obsessive Love. Possessive. Yandere. May contain r*pe/s*xual abuse. May contain confinement. May contain coercive relationship. This list doesn't contain mentally weak shou/uke (crybaby/overly devoted to the point of s*upid). Absolutely need seme/gong to be powerful (money & strength) for it to be fearsome gwanggong/obsessive. ... more>>

Non-Novelupdates Gwanggong/Obsessive (mostly from ridibooks)

1. Passion series by Yuuji (ridibooks. adapted to webtoon. Novel is more graphic in R19)

2. Did it Work? (Novel Adapted to webtoon. Obsessive but sweet seme. R19)

3. How the Guide gets out of the arms of the obsessive gwanggong (ridibooks. There's R15 & R19 type)

4. Cozy Obsession (ridibooks. R19. Full of hate seme)

5. Possession of Gloomy SubGong (ridibooks. R15. Obsessive scary and crazy crown prince seme)

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Relationships that focus heavily on couple bickering, going from enemies to loves, and overall have a lot of s*xual chemistry even if it takes a... more>> while to act on it for some. There will be stories where ML forces himself on MC or coerce her into stuff. Even if they get together later and the ML is kinder there is usually some type of pain to reach happiness. Not for ppl who want only fluff. <<less

Warning! Not for underage!... more>>

Super hot, sexy, dirty, smutty, and NSFW <<less

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In no way i support r*pe but these are fictional stories and some of them have good plot. In real life, rapists should be hanged... more>> till death. <<less

Just a bunch of pe*verted stuff that pe*verted me like to read

Therapy costs more than these novels.... more>>

**A better name for this list would be Tragic Romance Novels (18+) but I wanted to emphasize on the process of grief I regularly experience while reading this stuff. 

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I'll still be implementing a rating system from **1-5 with 1 being just sad at some parts to 5 being downright horrific**

**In addition, rather than the summaries I put short explanations for the rating. In all honesty, it's better for you to ignore them. Protect your mental well-being from my inane babbling and mild spoilers. <<less

smut, snusnu.  For all my pervs out there and for all the h**ny virg*ns.... more>>

BxB only, but there will be inter**x.

Most of them are smut with negligible plot heh <<less

Mostly Chinese Novels, some Japanese, most have clearly unhealthy relationships, extreme content(s*xual to abusive)

If you're reading this...you need holy water.....