Perfect for us masochistic fools who just wants to experience pain 'cause thus is living *sigh*

Angsty BL in no particular order.... more>>

Feel free to recommend me similar reads fellow sadomasochists. Enjoy~ <<less

all the novels that have a special place in my heart - in no particular order. Keep in mind that I am a very very... more>> picky reader but I often go back and reread these wayyy too many times to be healthy. These are all just gems and must-reads you have to know- there’s angst (hardcore and softcore along with stuff that made me ugly sob with hiccups), there’s downright fluff(some of them literally bleed fluff), there’s some that I read just for the plot( YES PLOT IS A TANGIBLE THING IN MOST OF THESE) and some that are just orgasmically dopamine filled. Disclaimer- like 4-5 of these are pretty hardcore so if you’re uncomfortable with yandere, dubcon, kinda~in*est, bd*m (READ THE TAGS ALWAYS) etc Just take it with a grain of salt but like it’s only a few out of this huge list. I hope you enjoy! <<less

Its not a perfect list with particular bl story or particular genre, it's just the best I have read in the past few months. I... more>> don't have a peculiar taste in novels as long as it has a decent story, and a bl I could read it. So the following stories vary in genre from fluff to angst, historical to interstellar, sci-fi to fantasy, slice of life to action, comedy to horror, thriller.  <<less

These are my personal favourite BL novels. Possessive and dominating Gong is totally my all time fave. List also includes, r*pe, revenge and abuse seme which is kinky. haha. ... more>>

Hope this would be helpful for some of ya'll with the same taste. Enjoy!! <<less

Therapy costs more than these novels.... more>>

**A better name for this list would be Tragic Romance Novels (18+) but I wanted to emphasize on the process of grief I regularly experience while reading this stuff. 

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I'll still be implementing a rating system from **1-5 with 1 being just sad at some parts to 5 being downright horrific**

**In addition, rather than the summaries I put short explanations for the rating. In all honesty, it's better for you to ignore them. Protect your mental well-being from my inane babbling and mild spoilers. <<less

tr*sh Top who's a hotshot × Sacrificing Shou who's drowing in love. Wrapped in a dog blooded plot thats enjoyable to read. ... more>>

Cause watching scum semes grovel for love is satisfying  <<less

Aka (ex)scum gongs chasing wife to crematorium collection OR a collection of knives cause... I love abusing my heart ಥ‿ಥ... more>>

The usual recipe(variations may occur) for delicious dogblood plot is: Be a scum, Break a heart, Late realisation, Regrets, +/-Rebirth/Second chances, +++Chase wife to crematorium. 

Includes tragedies.

⚠️ Warning ⚠️: Som-*cough* Most of em contains 'Rape' and 'r*pe victim becomes lover' tags. And few include 'su*cide' tag so please read the tags before you proceed. <<less

hurts 

This list is Yaoi/BL set on modern times. ... more>>

Randomly sorted; not by rankings. 

This will be continuously updated.

Check out my other BL recommendation lists:

The following lists are sorted by GENRES

APOCALYPSE/SURVIVAL GAMES: https://www.novelupdates.com/viewlist/19710/?ft=yes
MATURE/ANGST/TRAGEDY: https://www.novelupdates.com/viewlist/19708/
TRANSMIGRATION: https://www.novelupdates.com/viewlist/19707/
CULTIVATION/XIANXIA/WUXIA: https://www.novelupdates.com/viewlist/19706/
E-SPORTS/ONLINE GAMES: https://www.novelupdates.com/viewlist/19705/
MODERN/FANTASY: https://www.novelupdates.com/viewlist/19704/ <<less

What's better than a possessive ML?  A possessive, obsessive, thirsty gay ML!
Re: thirsty and protective tags - for novels I've read only. Please feel free to suggest more.... more>>

BG list of possessive MLs - https://www.novelupdates.com/viewlist/7256/?ft=yes <<less

All BL stories with extreme amount of angst. You know, just in case you woke up today and was like “I feel like hurting and crying over fictional characters”. ... more>>

AND BEWARE 

Some are HE and some are BE. But like a villain, I’m not going to tell you which is which  <<less

Warning : Spoiler & Bad English ... more>>

I use the comments section to review novels that I read raw (uh, which are still in Chinese, if you don't understand → _ →) <<less

Cream of the crop novels I've finished (translations and mlts) with modern day, interstellar, survival, world hopping, some rare xinxia, and comedic school life BL's... more>> with quality characters and plots. (No slow moving boring novels) (rated out of 5 stars) (ordered by date read and which had the strongest impression on me) (7 or up - EPICCC, 6 - pure gold, 5 - chef's kiss, 4 - good) <<less

Completely Translated Boys Love Stories those which I love and appreciate ~~~~~~ there is no actual numberings, I love all of them.... more>>

1. Quickly wear the face of the devil.

2. Hako no naka.

3. Gaze at the scenes of debauchery.

4. Brother.

5. I have Amnesia, don't be noisy.

6. Contract marriage.
7. Social outcast. 

8. Rebirth of Mc. 

9. War prisoner. 

10. Python starter guide. 

11. Screen partner.

12. Rebirth of a movie star. 

13. Rebirth of a supermodel. 

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If you ever need to just read and cry. It

a list of crematorium/wife-chasing/gong regret/scum gong novels ft. some with misunderstandings! i wanted an angst tag but there isn't one ;; if you have any suggestions, i'd love to hear them in the comments! included are also some novels that aren't necessarily crematorium but may still make your heart hurt (in a good way) from the misunderstandings and relationships!... more>>

the wife-chasing novels follow a general pattern of: MC loves ML but ML treats MC badly and/or does not reciprocate > something happens to MC, such as death, amnesia, sickness, or he falls out of love with ML > ML belatedly realizes his feelings > ML tries to chase the MC and win him back

please do mind the tags of some of the novels, as some of them are BE! <<less

my favorite bl novels, including QT, Transmigration, Modern BL, Historical, Interstellar, ABO, Apocalypse, tragedy, etc ....... more>>

almost all are completed and fully translated

*novels are not arranged in any order. some novels can be added or removed. <<less

*in no particular order*... more>>

-pain

-BE or HE is fine but there must be obstacles in the middle...., angsty

-crematorium

-ML doesn't care about the MC from the start (or ML does care but doesn't know how to express it) but once MC is gone from their grasp (death/ coma/ near-death experience/ breakup?) they finally realize what they let slip from their fingertips. 

-or after all the disappointment and hurt, MC doesn't care anymore and it's the emotionally constipated ML's turn to chase.

*recommendations are appreciated (very) <<less

When the gong has to chase his little wife back... more>>

Extremely dog blood  <<less

90%read. They are here 'cause I found the synopsis angsty or some chapters in the novels i've read made me cry and sad. Anyway sadness is there.... more>>

Includes: psychological, tragedy, abuse, unrequited love, depression, complex family relations, hated protagonist, child abuse, sickly characters, i-love-you-and-so-if-you-use-me-i-don't-mind type, etc... among others

Most of then are really short (<100) and though many of them have tragedy, many have happy endings too.  <<less

Some bl novels that I already read. ... more>>

HERE ARE SOME MIX BL

There are omegaverse, cultivation, university/college romance, world hopping, horror/thriller stories, tragedy, and many more. I hope you enjoy my list. READ WELL!!! <<less

Prt 2: https://www.novelupdates.com/viewlist/37919/?st=1... more>>

High Quality BL (slightly more serious) reads set in modern/futuristic setting--or perhaps jumps between time through transmigration. This list is a part of a series classified by genre (because I have too many novel to fit otherwise) ; other lists of this series include Thriller/Action, Fluff, and Ancient Setting novels. I tried to include both known and unknown novels to give more diversity to the reading list. 

So what is my subjective version of a quality BL of this list?

-No/little plot holes & well developed plot

-Capable MC and ML  (not aggravatingly s*upid and knows when to respect each other but also put their foot down at the right moments). If not capable, at least not s*upid. 

-Lasting impression. I made this list by memory so if it's not on here...Chances are it's not worth remembering for the list.

 ****I have also included BL novels that have high expectations from me. The higher the expectations, the higher the stars (purely subjective, take it with a grain of salt). Hence, "***, **, *."

PS. Novels I've read are the only ones rated according to number. The rest (unread) are just listed randomly. 

PSS. There are always exceptions on this list that don't fit the requirements (most likely the unread ones). But it's not bad to explore out of your comfort zone. 

PSSS. Though not fluff, there will be some Feel Good (have more of a plot) novels here. <<less

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BG, BL, doesn't matter. It's based on the excitement and impression that is imprinted on me. ALL COMPLETED NOVELS (WELL QUALIFIED TRANSLATION). After finished reading every novel in this list, I had SEVERE WITHDRAWAL SYNDROME.... more>>

Now you know my taste. I will be grateful if you recommend novels like these  <<less