all the novels that have a special place in my heart - in no particular order. Keep in mind that I am a very very... more>> picky reader but I often go back and reread these wayyy too many times to be healthy. These are all just gems and must-reads you have to know- there’s angst (hardcore and softcore along with stuff that made me ugly sob with hiccups), there’s downright fluff(some of them literally bleed fluff), there’s some that I read just for the plot( YES PLOT IS A TANGIBLE THING IN MOST OF THESE) and some that are just orgasmically dopamine filled. Disclaimer- like 4-5 of these are pretty hardcore so if you’re uncomfortable with yandere, dubcon, kinda~in*est, bd*m (READ THE TAGS ALWAYS) etc Just take it with a grain of salt but like it’s only a few out of this huge list. I hope you enjoy! <<less

a list of crematorium/wife-chasing/gong regret/scum gong novels ft. some with misunderstandings! i wanted an angst tag but there isn't one ;; if you have any suggestions, i'd love to hear them in the comments! included are also some novels that aren't necessarily crematorium but may still make your heart hurt (in a good way) from the misunderstandings and relationships!... more>>

the wife-chasing novels follow a general pattern of: MC loves ML but ML treats MC badly and/or does not reciprocate > something happens to MC, such as death, amnesia, sickness, or he falls out of love with ML > ML belatedly realizes his feelings > ML tries to chase the MC and win him back

please do mind the tags of some of the novels, as some of them are BE! <<less

What's better than a possessive ML?  A possessive, obsessive, thirsty gay ML!
Re: thirsty and protective tags - for novels I've read only. Please feel free to suggest more.... more>>

BG list of possessive MLs - https://www.novelupdates.com/viewlist/7256/?ft=yes <<less

Prt 2: https://www.novelupdates.com/viewlist/37919/?st=1... more>>

High Quality BL (slightly more serious) reads set in modern/futuristic setting--or perhaps jumps between time through transmigration. This list is a part of a series classified by genre (because I have too many novel to fit otherwise) ; other lists of this series include Thriller/Action, Fluff, and Ancient Setting novels. I tried to include both known and unknown novels to give more diversity to the reading list. 

So what is my subjective version of a quality BL of this list?

-No/little plot holes & well developed plot

-Capable MC and ML  (not aggravatingly s*upid and knows when to respect each other but also put their foot down at the right moments). If not capable, at least not s*upid. 

-Lasting impression. I made this list by memory so if it's not on here...Chances are it's not worth remembering for the list.

 ****I have also included BL novels that have high expectations from me. The higher the expectations, the higher the stars (purely subjective, take it with a grain of salt). Hence, "***, **, *."

PS. Novels I've read are the only ones rated according to number. The rest (unread) are just listed randomly. 

PSS. There are always exceptions on this list that don't fit the requirements (most likely the unread ones). But it's not bad to explore out of your comfort zone. 

PSSS. Though not fluff, there will be some Feel Good (have more of a plot) novels here. <<less

some novels will contain r*pe, bd*m, non-con, or anything that may appear uncomfortable. you have been warned.... more>>

in no particular order <<less

Aka (ex)scum gongs chasing wife to crematorium collection OR a collection of knives cause... I love abusing my heart ಥ‿ಥ... more>>

The usual recipe(variations may occur) for delicious dogblood plot is: Be a scum, Break a heart, Late realisation, Regrets, +/-Rebirth/Second chances, +++Chase wife to crematorium. 

Includes tragedies.

⚠️ Warning ⚠️: Som-*cough* Most of em contains 'Rape' and 'r*pe victim becomes lover' tags. And few include 'su*cide' tag so please read the tags before you proceed. <<less

These are my personal favourite BL novels. Possessive and dominating Gong is totally my all time fave. List also includes, r*pe, revenge and abuse seme which is kinky. haha. ... more>>

Hope this would be helpful for some of ya'll with the same taste. Enjoy!! <<less

Perfect for us masochistic fools who just wants to experience pain 'cause thus is living *sigh*

A series of novels that revolves around angsty beginning stages, followed by regrets (gong/shou suffering from his actions) and the long awaited “Happy Ending”. (Some may end in tragedy)... more>>

Do seriously recommend reading if you are into these types of plots or purely wanted to read the wife chasing parts (cuz why not) <<less

if you know you know

just your typical dog blood novel where the gong treats the shou unkindly and only realized his feelings after the shou left /died. ... more>>

You can check out Shui Qian Cheng's works, her novels are really well-written. However, all the gongs are absolute sh*ts. Each one is worse than the other but I love it *chef's kiss*

Not in order

⚠️ Please do check the tags before reading. <<less

A bunch of quick short BL stories, perfect for reading on the plane or even if you're just in the mood for something light.... more>>

Mostly Cnovels. <<less

Spoilers in description.... more>>

Not a comprehensive list - only novels I enjoyed <<less

Tragedies that leave an empty feeling after reading.... more>>

Some makes you cry your heart. 
Some makes your feel sad
 Some just leaves a void 

Comment below if you know such novels.     <<less

Tragedies. Stories when you need something sad or want something to make you cry. All completed stories.... more>>

*sorted by rating <<less

The tags are unreliable, so no need to pay attention to it. However, there are few that’s angsty. Anyway, did it for my own. ^+^ 

my favorite bl novels, including QT, Transmigration, Modern BL, Historical, Interstellar, ABO, Apocalypse, tragedy, etc ....... more>>

almost all are completed and fully translated

*novels are not arranged in any order. some novels can be added or removed. <<less

This list range from the best of the best to the most corny and cliche type of shit(my type of corny) to traumatic and to comedy etc etc. From the most wholesome to the smuts. You know the usual Sugar, spice and  everything nice. 10 on 10 would totally recommend. Give these bls a chance. ... more>>

I dont think ive forgotten anything. Might update later. Enjoyyyy <<less

Boys love angst~~... more>>

*TW* Some/most of these stories will contain ABUSE, INVOLUNTARY CONFINEMENT, r*pe, and other graphic descriptions of violence. Some of these are seriously tragedic and may cause tears or elongated periods of agony .

I was probably sobbing over this at 2am at one point, , and I will update summaries as I go.

Please let me know if you have any novel recommendations you think fit this list! Happy reading ^^ <<less

Angsty and sad webnovels because I'm a sucker for angsty stories. Yes, I really really love abusing myself so join me in this self-abuse-by-angst cult... more>>

(ErHa, look what you made me do. You made me a masochist (⁠༎ຶ⁠ ⁠෴⁠ ⁠༎ຶ⁠) )

Most of these webnovels are completed. They may have BE/HE. I have Maladaptive Daydreaming Disorder, so while some of these novels may not be pure angst but they have fair share of heart-clenching moments that leave lots of room for more sad imaginations. <<less

this list will consists of the ff:... more>>

boss-sub relationship, teacher-student relationship, entertainment industry, transmigration/reincarnation, any elements related to modern settings. <<less

Angsty BL in no particular order.... more>>

Feel free to recommend me similar reads fellow sadomasochists. Enjoy~ <<less

Novels that have regretful ML, family’s, etc. I love novels like these since they tug my heart strings.

90%read. They are here 'cause I found the synopsis angsty or some chapters in the novels i've read made me cry and sad. Anyway sadness is there.... more>>

Includes: psychological, tragedy, abuse, unrequited love, depression, complex family relations, hated protagonist, child abuse, sickly characters, i-love-you-and-so-if-you-use-me-i-don't-mind type, etc... among others

Most of then are really short (<100) and though many of them have tragedy, many have happy endings too.  <<less

If you ever need to just read and cry. It