Gonna put them here for now and slowly, one by one read them when I feel it to read :D I've been seeing a lot of interesting novels that I can't choose which one should I read first gosh... more>>

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R18 (some smutty ones) 1, 2, 3

Cutie babies~ Kiddos~ young ones 1, 2

Will this make lost cry??

Just some nobles stuff

Nom nom BL 

Interested (Chinese novels edition) <<less

The Scum Male - an egocentric, manipulative, and overbearing character, especially to their romantic partner. Also known as a slag man.... more>>

Sometimes, these characters with tr*shy personalities just need to meet their match. 

This is for readers who like schadenfreude - those whose heart sings when the scum male gets emotionally abused and get their just deserts. 

*Taking recommendations, because I genuinely want this list to be longer*  <<less

These are collection of tragic novels associated with unrequited love, betrayal, tragic fate, abusive character, and inhuman treatment. Most novels is about MC who find their misery is enough, want to get away from toxicity, and cherish what their tattered soul left. Not an easy journey ofc, since these worlds were created for MC to suffer. However, MC's spirit to be free is what highly valued. ... more>>

The other novels are purely angst that hurting the heart and shivering the bone.

There are many more heart wrenching novels i've read but not listed in here. I can't stand humiliation without victim ability to prevail it over and preperator's redemption. So this type of angst not listed in this list.

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mostly contains harassment on MC who although born rich but he was exposed to the light of misfortune in life before meeting ML.MC and ML... more>> both come from rich families, or one of them was rich and another one is poor.  <<less

There are tragedy, abuse, or death of the loves one in some stories bellow that make you sad and your heart hurt, but that is... more>> the part of the story and make the story complete. <<less

I would pretend as if I'm color blind to the red 

List of novels that have a toxic relationship with the fl,ml hate the fl while the fl fell in love at the ml for the... more>> first time and beg for the ml attention.But in the end the ml had a character development and still ended up with the female lead <<less

This list contains everything from unrequired love to death of loved ones to sadistic tendencies, violence, r*pe, betrayal, love-hate and any other possible way to... more>> make your heart bleed. Trauma and psychological conditions included.  <<less

pain and just pain only

For the drama loving b*tches 

If you're looking for something that will make you cry. Here it is. I don't discriminate novels, so there's both bl and straight romance. 

Collection of sad bls. No particular order. 

Guilty pleasure of seeing scum gongs grovel. Some stories are real crematoriums. Mix of BE and HE.... more>>

Crematorium: MC loves ML -> ML is scum -> MC has enough and leaves -> ML regrets and tries to get MC back. <<less

Angst, sad, depressing, tear jerking, heartbreaking, read in the middle of the night with a box of tissues next to you novels. (asterisk if i... more>> cried) <<less

Love myself some hardcore, preferably abusive, smuts with lots of banging. I'm new here so will slowly add more to the list.... more>>

I write a review for every one of my recs, divided into S*x scenes, Story, Characters and Note. I try to give you an overall look into the novel to see if it suits your taste while try not to spoil too much.

Pls check tags <<less

Therapy costs more than these novels.... more>>

**A better name for this list would be Tragic Romance Novels (18+) but I wanted to emphasize on the process of grief I regularly experience while reading this stuff. 

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I'll still be implementing a rating system from **1-5 with 1 being just sad at some parts to 5 being downright horrific**

**In addition, rather than the summaries I put short explanations for the rating. In all honesty, it's better for you to ignore them. Protect your mental well-being from my inane babbling and mild spoilers. <<less

:: some r-19 webnovels. some are just snu snu with no deep plot. read at your own risk!

the title is what this list about :')... more>>

only BG  <<less

-Korean and Japan edition... more>>

-Gift for Masochist

-Usually weak,suffering and non vengeful FL

WARNING : some include abuse,too much cruelty,s*xual assault,r*pe etc <<less

I love love LOVE the part where ML regret what they've done to MC or just realize their true feelings for MC and start to chase MC like their life depends on  it. The redemption/chasing arc is just *chefkiss*... more>>

Caution: Most of the story is TOXIC *.* Avoid if it's not your cup of tea!!! <<less

It’s a list of tragedy novels with bad / happy endings ( Although most of it is BL / Yaoi )  which is all my... more>> favourite that made my heart ache and feel like crying. But I don’t know how you will react so be prepared!!   <<less

Bl storys that can’t be counted as puppy love (these story’s are with barely any comedy and are more deemed as adult stories) so if... more>> your looking for puppy love this isn’t the right list :) <<less

MC or ML’s families being unreasonable, frustrating, disgusting, and makes you want to hit them ... more>>

Some regret how they treated the MC/ML some don’t  <<less

angst you asked? some characters meant for prison?... more>>

bxg <<less

Everything i like and be warned i like messed up things. So always check the tags cause i know what i like isn't for everyone... more>> else. <<less