Perfect for us masochistic fools who just wants to experience pain 'cause thus is living *sigh*

Angsty BL in no particular order.... more>>

Feel free to recommend me similar reads fellow sadomasochists. Enjoy~ <<less

Its not a perfect list with particular bl story or particular genre, it's just the best I have read in the past few months. I... more>> don't have a peculiar taste in novels as long as it has a decent story, and a bl I could read it. So the following stories vary in genre from fluff to angst, historical to interstellar, sci-fi to fantasy, slice of life to action, comedy to horror, thriller.  <<less

ML wrongs the MC in some way, then regrets when the MC has already lost his love for him. Cue the chase!... more>>

(MC may or may not end up with ML) <<less

novels that irritate the sh*t out of me bc of the mc. ... more>>

and where the love interest needs to find someone else or die 

bg, bl, and gl <<less

A lot of good dog blood is buried below the ratings bcos it's an unfortunate fact that a lot of NU users only rate novels according to fluff amount w/c made it harder for drama fans to look for good angst.  Common tropes: #wife/husband-chasing crematorium#angst #drama #torture #regret #character development #grovelling #(some)redemption  #(some)tragedy and other triggering issues. ... more>>

#REAL Crematorium. Just search around for full explanation but impt. point is: THEY ENDED UP WITH ANOTHER PERSON. For those who had a sadistic liking seeing a scum ML grovelling but still fail to take MC back, THIS IS FOR YOU.

 Warning: Most stories here are only for the strong-hearted. However, those I regard as "bad (or messily-written) dog blood" that I really cannot tolerate will not be included here  

I will indicate if it's bad ending. If it doesn't have the #BE tag, it's automatically a happy ending.
If you wanted to cleanse your tear duct every now and then, check the ones tagged with #tearjerker. You're welcome.

PM me for raw/MTL links <<less

Aka (ex)scum gongs chasing wife to crematorium collection OR a collection of knives cause... I love abusing my heart ಥ‿ಥ... more>>

The usual recipe(variations may occur) for delicious dogblood plot is: Be a scum, Break a heart, Late realisation, Regrets, +/-Rebirth/Second chances, +++Chase wife to crematorium. 

Includes tragedies.

⚠️ Warning ⚠️: Som-*cough* Most of em contains 'Rape' and 'r*pe victim becomes lover' tags. And few include 'su*cide' tag so please read the tags before you proceed. <<less

For all the grovel lovers, who want a good (and maybe angsty) novel where the male characters suffers tons of regrets... more>>

BG/BL/GL <<less

hurts 

Here's my daily reading novel so i can read it anytime if i forget the tittle, i'll coming back here :3... more>>

Fluff, fluff, fluff mwehehehehehe....................

I'll leave some notes for each novel, to remind myself................... <<less

All BL stories with extreme amount of angst. You know, just in case you woke up today and was like “I feel like hurting and crying over fictional characters”. ... more>>

AND BEWARE 

Some are HE and some are BE. But like a villain, I’m not going to tell you which is which  <<less

 It's too wide of a range to specify a particular type, just that they are all BL's. Most are completely translated, some aren't.

These are collection of tragic novels associated with unrequited love, betrayal, tragic fate, abusive character, and inhuman treatment. Most novels is about MC who find their misery is enough, want to get away from toxicity, and cherish what their tattered soul left. Not an easy journey ofc, since these worlds were created for MC to suffer. However, MC's spirit to be free is what highly valued. ... more>>

The other novels are purely angst that hurting the heart and shivering the bone.

There are many more heart wrenching novels i've read but not listed in here. I can't stand humiliation without victim ability to prevail it over and preperator's redemption. So this type of angst not listed in this list.

ATTENTION
⚠️Descriptions cointain spoilers⚠️ <<less

MC's sick! Deadly illnesses galore! Inherited via genetics, acquired by poisoning? Possible death, definite death, time travel, and hopefully angst!

Mostly completed novels because cliffhanger in angst wont ever let me live my life in peace... more>>

Tw: Many of these novels may contain mention of self harm, depression, bullying, abuse, r*pe and su*cide. So, please please read reviews and tags properly before picking up a novel.  <<less

This list contains all the bl novels I have read and or still reading.
The stories are not rank in order so some GEMS could still be found at the lower list.
Most of the novels are COMPLETELY translated or either ALMOST COMPLETE and can be mtled.... more>>

All novels are rank 4.0 and up in novelupdates.

Enjoy reading! <3 <<less

A list to keep track of the novels that hurt my heart... and/or hurt the MC/ML hehehehehe the more suffering, the better. Self sacrifice (SS) is always welcome. Recs appreciated! Some novels have not been read yet and are added due to the recommendations of others.... more>>

Includes novels with empty protagonists, broken protagonists, and sick protagonists

Stories differentiated by my own terms:

[Apathetic], [Sick], [Tragedy], [SS] [Depressed], [Transmigration], [Revenge]

Also: [Unread], [Reread-> read multiple times]

Organized so my favorites (tragic quick transmigrations where MC breaks ML's heart repeatedly) are at the top, then all the death craving characters, then the mistreated and sick villainesses, then the apathetic and SS children appear <<less

a list of crematorium/wife-chasing/gong regret/scum gong novels ft. some with misunderstandings! i wanted an angst tag but there isn't one ;; if you have any suggestions, i'd love to hear them in the comments! included are also some novels that aren't necessarily crematorium but may still make your heart hurt (in a good way) from the misunderstandings and relationships!... more>>

the wife-chasing novels follow a general pattern of: MC loves ML but ML treats MC badly and/or does not reciprocate > something happens to MC, such as death, amnesia, sickness, or he falls out of love with ML > ML belatedly realizes his feelings > ML tries to chase the MC and win him back

please do mind the tags of some of the novels, as some of them are BE! <<less

*in no particular order*... more>>

-pain

-BE or HE is fine but there must be obstacles in the middle...., angsty

-crematorium

-ML doesn't care about the MC from the start (or ML does care but doesn't know how to express it) but once MC is gone from their grasp (death/ coma/ near-death experience/ breakup?) they finally realize what they let slip from their fingertips. 

-or after all the disappointment and hurt, MC doesn't care anymore and it's the emotionally constipated ML's turn to chase.

*recommendations are appreciated (very) <<less

When the gong has to chase his little wife back... more>>

Extremely dog blood  <<less

90%read. They are here 'cause I found the synopsis angsty or some chapters in the novels i've read made me cry and sad. Anyway sadness is there.... more>>

Includes: psychological, tragedy, abuse, unrequited love, depression, complex family relations, hated protagonist, child abuse, sickly characters, i-love-you-and-so-if-you-use-me-i-don't-mind type, etc... among others

Most of then are really short (<100) and though many of them have tragedy, many have happy endings too.  <<less

Some bl novels that I already read. ... more>>

HERE ARE SOME MIX BL

There are omegaverse, cultivation, university/college romance, world hopping, horror/thriller stories, tragedy, and many more. I hope you enjoy my list. READ WELL!!! <<less

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I have included all the BL novels that are on my reading list .I found the descriptions interesting ... more>>

Warning: Most of them are with dark plots. <<less

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