Stories with scenes of mcs screaming in pain, gasping for air, watching their life drain away.... and then being loved by the ml hehe. Please add recs.... more>>

Psychological meltdowns>>>

 Hurt/comfort = best genre 

Yes, I have a problem. <<less

Tragedies, abuse, and bloody drama ....
With no hope for redemption.... more>>

BL for those who love to be tortured. <<less

Hahahahahahaahahhagaahahsh...❤️... more>>

Treasure your f*cking life. <<less

Romances that will make you brawl your eyes out 

a list of my fav angst / grovel novels

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Sad story with or maybe without sad ending... more>>

Story that tells us about revenge and maybe there is forgiveness

Story that tells us about unending struggle <<less

Author god's hand involvement in story is very little. Basically no plot armor.
NOT UNLUCKY or DELIBERATELY TRAGIC, BUT ONLY NATURAL. ... more>>

Mc can be defeated, betrayed, disabled, fooled. Teammates can die. Females can be r*ped.  <<less

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Works that I've read that are dark, very dark. I don't consider these romances, even with the romance tag attached. 

Buff yourself and prepare some tissue, enjoy the feels!

sad sh*t... T^T... more>>

Some aren't as sad as other's <<less

This list is for the masochists out there who enjoy suffering and torturing themselves. (no tag excluded so you must carefully check the novel tags )... more>>

These bittersweet novels may have heavy angsty events but it all get solved in the end.happy ending assured 

PS: Tissues are a must <<less

[BxG] Tragedy/Psychological Romance - for masochistic readers that love crying ... more>>

 Complete opposite of a fluffy wholesome read. Please pay attention to tags before reading  <<less

Compilation of BL novels that I have read that contain angst, but they range from just making your heart twinge from the pain to making your heart bleed, heal it, then proceed to cut it open again, and heal it again. I'll arrange it from easy to nightmare mode according to MY perspective. My heart is quite puny, so what makes my heart twinge may not inflict anything to you. This is based on MY perspective. 
Mostly HE, but some are BE. I'll write a note on BE so that you don't fall into the trap of never ending heartache and suffering.... more>>

WARNING: Some will contain 'Rape', 'r*pe victim becomes lover', and 'su*cide' tags, so please read the tags and proceed at your own discretion. <<less

with the male leads just cause they are called a villain in the blurb or by others- they don't actually seem like villains or the author skims over it and doesn't  write much... more>>

 so I wanted to dedicate this list partly to those EVIL ML's who are involved with killing a lot, borderline mad, are constantly doing bad things and there's is a bit more description of such things

Usually you can see this where the male lead is sometimes genuinely mean to the MC and we see MC struggle being around them
also I'm including torture, cruelty, or just kinda both are evil lets-take-over-the-world-together kind of romances 

lets burn in hell together .... <<less

Not for the faint-hearted! These are books that either makes you cry like a mf or makes you want to start a revolution against the... more>> crumbling morality of this world. If you want to thoroughly enjoy a healthy fluffy BL you must first go through with these novels. Fluff? Dog food? Love? What are those? In here is a collection of books purposed to train your mentality (know the cruelties of life). Please read books that are fluffy afterwards! <<less

pain and just pain only

*sigh* here we go again

Therapy costs more than these novels.... more>>

**A better name for this list would be Tragic Romance Novels (18+) but I wanted to emphasize on the process of grief I regularly experience while reading this stuff. 

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I'll still be implementing a rating system from **1-5 with 1 being just sad at some parts to 5 being downright horrific**

**In addition, rather than the summaries I put short explanations for the rating. In all honesty, it's better for you to ignore them. Protect your mental well-being from my inane babbling and mild spoilers. <<less

A collection of series and one-shots that include horror and s*xual themes for those of us that enjoy many kinds of thrilling reads. Note! The s*xual theme doesn't automatically refer to smut. Any form of s*xual behaviour (including on- and off-screen interc**rse, s**tty thoughts, s*xual tension, etc.) counts and appears on this list.... more>>

WARNING: some novels include themes of r*pe and have non-con acts. Make sure to read the tags carefully in case these things make you feel uncomfortable. 

If you have any suggestions for novels that could be on this list, then please, let me know. Happy reading! <<less

Ecchi

A lot of good dog blood is buried below the ratings bcos it's an unfortunate fact that a lot of NU users only rate novels according to fluff amount w/c made it harder for drama fans to look for good angst.  Common tropes: #wife/husband-chasing crematorium#angst #drama #torture #regret #character development #grovelling #(some)redemption  #(some)tragedy and other triggering issues. ... more>>

#REAL Crematorium. Just search around for full explanation but impt. point is: THEY ENDED UP WITH ANOTHER PERSON. For those who had a sadistic liking seeing a scum ML grovelling but still fail to take MC back, THIS IS FOR YOU.

 Warning: Most stories here are only for the strong-hearted. However, those I regard as "bad (or messily-written) dog blood" that I really cannot tolerate will not be included here  

I will indicate if it's bad ending. If it doesn't have the #BE tag, it's automatically a happy ending.
If you wanted to cleanse your tear duct every now and then, check the ones tagged with #tearjerker. You're welcome.

PM me for raw/MTL links <<less