all the novels that have a special place in my heart - in no particular order. Keep in mind that I am a very very... more>> picky reader but I often go back and reread these wayyy too many times to be healthy. These are all just gems and must-reads you have to know- there’s angst (hardcore and softcore along with stuff that made me ugly sob with hiccups), there’s downright fluff(some of them literally bleed fluff), there’s some that I read just for the plot( YES PLOT IS A TANGIBLE THING IN MOST OF THESE) and some that are just orgasmically dopamine filled. Disclaimer- like 4-5 of these are pretty hardcore so if you’re uncomfortable with yandere, dubcon, kinda~in*est, bd*m (READ THE TAGS ALWAYS) etc Just take it with a grain of salt but like it’s only a few out of this huge list. I hope you enjoy! <<less

NOTE: Some comments do not reflect the complete novel. I will try to update them as I read.... more>>

List of BL novels with an obsessive/possessive/yandere male lead that I enjoyed.
Sorted roughly from most obsessive to least obsessive (I used to have a bias for QT novels, though). Favorite to least favorite where I couldn't decide. Numbers 60~75 are mostly just there to fill the lower ranks, and numbers 76~91 are novels that need more updates or that I'm planning to read. <<less

a list of crematorium/wife-chasing/gong regret/scum gong novels ft. some with misunderstandings! i wanted an angst tag but there isn't one ;; if you have any suggestions, i'd love to hear them in the comments! included are also some novels that aren't necessarily crematorium but may still make your heart hurt (in a good way) from the misunderstandings and relationships!... more>>

the wife-chasing novels follow a general pattern of: MC loves ML but ML treats MC badly and/or does not reciprocate > something happens to MC, such as death, amnesia, sickness, or he falls out of love with ML > ML belatedly realizes his feelings > ML tries to chase the MC and win him back

please do mind the tags of some of the novels, as some of them are BE! <<less

What's better than a possessive ML?  A possessive, obsessive, thirsty gay ML!
Re: thirsty and protective tags - for novels I've read only. Please feel free to suggest more.... more>>

BG list of possessive MLs - https://www.novelupdates.com/viewlist/7256/?ft=yes <<less

ML wrongs the MC in some way, then regrets when the MC has already lost his love for him. Cue the chase!... more>>

(MC may or may not end up with ML) <<less

A lot of good dog blood is buried below the ratings bcos it's an unfortunate fact that a lot of NU users only rate novels according to fluff amount w/c made it harder for drama fans to look for good angst.  Common tropes: #wife/husband-chasing crematorium#angst #drama #torture #regret #character development #grovelling #(some)redemption  #(some)tragedy and other triggering issues. ... more>>

#REAL Crematorium. Just search around for full explanation but impt. point is: THEY ENDED UP WITH ANOTHER PERSON. For those who had a sadistic liking seeing a scum ML grovelling but still fail to take MC back, THIS IS FOR YOU.

 Warning: Most stories here are only for the strong-hearted. However, those I regard as "bad (or messily-written) dog blood" that I really cannot tolerate will not be included here  

I will indicate if it's bad ending. If it doesn't have the #BE tag, it's automatically a happy ending.
If you wanted to cleanse your tear duct every now and then, check the ones tagged with #tearjerker. You're welcome.

PM me for raw/MTL links <<less

CN novels where the MC has disabilities or sickly characters, or past trauma. Novels for MLs are in a different list. Contains spoiler. ... more>>

BG/BL. Not much world hopping or historical novels. 

Feel free to recommend any others :D <<less

As it says on the tin.... more>>

My personal 'Best of BL'. It is in order. <<less

Aka (ex)scum gongs chasing wife to crematorium collection OR a collection of knives cause... I love abusing my heart ಥ‿ಥ... more>>

The usual recipe(variations may occur) for delicious dogblood plot is: Be a scum, Break a heart, Late realisation, Regrets, +/-Rebirth/Second chances, +++Chase wife to crematorium. 

Includes tragedies.

⚠️ Warning ⚠️: Som-*cough* Most of em contains 'Rape' and 'r*pe victim becomes lover' tags. And few include 'su*cide' tag so please read the tags before you proceed. <<less

For all the grovel lovers, who want a good (and maybe angsty) novel where the male characters suffers tons of regrets... more>>

BG/BL/GL <<less

why do you even look for knife bro. treasure your life more. treasure your kokoro more. QAQ... more>>

Warning:
- I don't read BE (some might be BE-ish tho :haroldface:)
- I only add titles where I've experienced the knife, or know there would be knife for sure (ex: mudaoli's novel)
- degree of knife sharpness varies for each person. you might agree with this list, you might not. 
- I have low pain tolerance :haroldface: 

my scale of pain, ranged from 'not really hurts' to 'it haunts me every time I see kite': 
1-3: wooden rice spoon (getting hit by one hurts okay)
4-6: paper cut (hidden but suddenly you feel pain)
7-8: knife. be wary. 
9: you're almost ascending via 刀道
10: machete. you've already reached godhood of 刀道. congratulations.  <<less

MC(Shou)s with sickly bodies or disability
Who wouldn't love sickly, weak beauties... more>>

Please be aware of SPOILERS in description <<less

A compilation of Manhua from Kuaikan and Bilibili Comics (_ _).｡o○
This list isn’t created in any chronological order, I am merely adding the ones that came to mind _(:з」∠)_... more>>

Any new Manhua recommendations will be welcomed and greatly appreciated ^-^ <<less

Perfect for us masochistic fools who just wants to experience pain 'cause thus is living *sigh*

A series of novels that revolves around angsty beginning stages, followed by regrets (gong/shou suffering from his actions) and the long awaited “Happy Ending”. (Some may end in tragedy)... more>>

Do seriously recommend reading if you are into these types of plots or purely wanted to read the wife chasing parts (cuz why not) <<less

if you know you know

just your typical dog blood novel where the gong treats the shou unkindly and only realized his feelings after the shou left /died. ... more>>

You can check out Shui Qian Cheng's works, her novels are really well-written. However, all the gongs are absolute sh*ts. Each one is worse than the other but I love it *chef's kiss*

Not in order

⚠️ Please do check the tags before reading. <<less

A list to keep track of the novels that hurt my heart... and/or hurt the MC/ML hehehehehe the more suffering, the better. Self sacrifice (SS) is always welcome. Recs appreciated! Some novels have not been read yet and are added due to the recommendations of others.... more>>

Includes novels with empty protagonists, broken protagonists, and sick protagonists

Stories differentiated by my own terms:

[Apathetic], [Sick], [Tragedy], [SS] [Depressed], [Transmigration], [Revenge]

Also: [Unread], [Reread-> read multiple times]

Organized so my favorites (tragic quick transmigrations where MC breaks ML's heart repeatedly) are at the top, then all the death craving characters, then the mistreated and sick villainesses, then the apathetic and SS children appear <<less

Spoilers in description.... more>>

Not a comprehensive list - only novels I enjoyed <<less

Tragedies that leave an empty feeling after reading.... more>>

Some makes you cry your heart. 
Some makes your feel sad
 Some just leaves a void 

Comment below if you know such novels.     <<less

Danmei adapted to manhuas that have official English translations (completed/ongoing/discontinued) + where to read them (status included: ongoing unless stated otherwise). Most manhuas are R15 even when the novel's genre is yaoi.... more>>

Novels/manhuas that are printed or announced to be printed are put on the first page of the list. Works written by the same author are put together. Novels are sorted by their popularity.

Since the list reached 1oo positions, I created its second part, however they will be _both_ updated if and when new titles appear or get licensed, with new title's place based on the novel's popularity and/or whether the author's other works are on the list already. If you know danmeis with official English translations of their manhua adaptations that are here on novelupdates but not yet on my list, please let me know in the comments.

Part 2 of this list: https://www.novelupdates.com/viewlist/74508/

Check out my other lists for Korean BL novels adapted to manhwas: https://www.novelupdates.com/viewlist/74463/ and danmei being printed in English: https://www.novelupdates.com/viewlist/73620/ <<less

Corrupted novels for corrupted readers  AHHAHAHAH Pay attention to tags, some novels contain in*est. Get your eyes here if you're into kinky shit. Stan JENNIE... more>> from BP. Mwah! <<less

A Collection of Chinese yaoi and shounen-ai in various genres. All of them are in Alphabet orders not ranked. ... more>>

Transmigration, Reincarnation, Reborn, Rebirth..etc.

Drama, Comedy, Sci-fi, Slice-of-life, Mature, Horror, Romance..etc.

Modern Day, Entertainment. Apocalypse, Sports, Xianxia..etc

Novels, Games, Systems, Another world, Multiple Realms,...etc

Cunning, Calm, Cold, Clever, Confident protagonist...etc

Possessive, Obsessive, Arrogant, Shameless, Yandere...etc

Demons, Gods, Monsters, Beasts, Zombies, Dragons...etc

Enemies to Lovers, Weak to strong, Poor to Rich...etc.

Some of the links are dead so just copy the website link that I commented on and search on google/chrome or somewhere that you prefer. I hope you guys find something that suits your taste in this list. Anyways Happy Reading guys!! <<less

These are the BL novels that i've finished! 
I will rate them according to how much i like it and will also review them ... more>>

✓✓✓✓✓ - loved it                                        ✓✓✓✓- like it                                                      ✓✓✓- its okay                                                      ✓✓- meh           <<less

This list contains the novels that i whole-heartedly enjoyed, which isn´t easy to find since I´m a very picky reader. I love novels that wrecks... more>> my emotions. Not a fan of dumb, weak, naive MC´s and prefer novels with  3-dimensional characters. I abhor paper-thin cannon fodders and shallow romance with uneven relationships.  Hope you like my list! <<less