the title is what this list about :')... more>>

only BG  <<less

:: some r-19 webnovels. some are just snu snu with no deep plot. read at your own risk!

Love myself some hardcore, preferably abusive, smuts with lots of banging. I'm new here so will slowly add more to the list.... more>>

I write a review for every one of my recs, divided into S*x scenes, Story, Characters and Note. I try to give you an overall look into the novel to see if it suits your taste while try not to spoil too much.

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Angst, sad, depressing, tear jerking, heartbreaking, read in the middle of the night with a box of tissues next to you novels. (asterisk if i... more>> cried) <<less

Guilty pleasure of seeing scum gongs grovel. Some stories are real crematoriums. Mix of BE and HE.... more>>

Crematorium: MC loves ML -> ML is scum -> MC has enough and leaves -> ML regrets and tries to get MC back. <<less

Collection of sad bls. No particular order. 

For the drama loving b*tches 

If you're looking for something that will make you cry. Here it is. I don't discriminate novels, so there's both bl and straight romance. 

pain and just pain only

List of novels that have a toxic relationship with the fl,ml hate the fl while the fl fell in love at the ml for the... more>> first time and beg for the ml attention.But in the end the ml had a character development and still ended up with the female lead <<less

This list contains everything from unrequired love to death of loved ones to sadistic tendencies, violence, r*pe, betrayal, love-hate and any other possible way to... more>> make your heart bleed. Trauma and psychological conditions included.  <<less

I would pretend as if I'm color blind to the red 

mostly contains harassment on MC who although born rich but he was exposed to the light of misfortune in life before meeting ML.MC and ML... more>> both come from rich families, or one of them was rich and another one is poor.  <<less

There are tragedy, abuse, or death of the loves one in some stories bellow that make you sad and your heart hurt, but that is... more>> the part of the story and make the story complete. <<less

These are collection of tragic novels associated with unrequited love, betrayal, tragic fate, abusive character, and inhuman treatment. Most novels is about MC who find their misery is enough, want to get away from toxicity, and cherish what their tattered soul left. Not an easy journey ofc, since these worlds were created for MC to suffer. However, MC's spirit to be free is what highly valued. ... more>>

The other novels are purely angst that hurting the heart and shivering the bone.

There are many more heart wrenching novels i've read but not listed in here. I can't stand humiliation without victim ability to prevail it over and preperator's redemption. So this type of angst not listed in this list.

ATTENTION
⚠️Descriptions cointain spoilers⚠️ <<less

Gonna put them here for now and slowly, one by one read them when I feel it to read :D I've been seeing a lot of interesting novels that I can't choose which one should I read first gosh... more>>

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Others:

R18 (some smutty ones) 1, 2, 3

Cutie babies~ Kiddos~ young ones 1, 2

Will this make lost cry??

Just some nobles stuff

Nom nom BL 

Interested (Chinese novels edition) <<less

The Scum Male - an egocentric, manipulative, and overbearing character, especially to their romantic partner. Also known as a slag man.... more>>

Sometimes, these characters with tr*shy personalities just need to meet their match. 

This is for readers who like schadenfreude - those whose heart sings when the scum male gets emotionally abused and get their just deserts. 

*Taking recommendations, because I genuinely want this list to be longer*  <<less

A list of novels I go back to, to feel some pain. Possibly a mix of BE and HE.

All the danmei that I've finished, without any definite ranking. All genres;all type of quality

Not for the faint-hearted! These are books that either makes you cry like a mf or makes you want to start a revolution against the... more>> crumbling morality of this world. If you want to thoroughly enjoy a healthy fluffy BL you must first go through with these novels. Fluff? Dog food? Love? What are those? In here is a collection of books purposed to train your mentality (know the cruelties of life). Please read books that are fluffy afterwards! <<less

the couples might be hella toxic, but you can't say they have no chemistry ... more>>

tw: s*xual assualt <<less

I created this list for fellow danmei lovers who are scum gong addicts like me.

Bloody drama, angst, and tragedies ... ... more>>

With a little hope of getting better.

A BL list. <<less

Not all people like a yandere male lead because they could be abusive and creepy. I seldom read the novel with yandere as a lead... more>> but when I read one, I'll put it in this list. <<less

Sharing my favorite tear jerking list- Yeah, normal people won't understand this lol