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Cutie babies~ Kiddos~ young ones 1, 2

Will this make lost cry??

Lost seems to be interested

Just some nobles stuff

Nom nom BL

Interested (Chinese novels edition) <<less

Boys love angst~~... more>>

*TW* Some/most of these stories will contain ABUSE, INVOLUNTARY CONFINEMENT, r*pe, and other graphic descriptions of violence. Some of these are seriously tragedic and may cause tears or elongated periods of agony .

I was probably sobbing over this at 2am at one point, , and I will update summaries as I go.

Please let me know if you have any novel recommendations you think fit this list! Happy reading ^^ <<less

I don't enjoy r*pe, I find it gruesome. However, I enjoy a s**tty character who pretends to be innocent and gets banged, so don't let the r*pe tag scare you. There's non-con, dub-con, plot, MEAT!... more>>

Both BG and BL.

p.s. As I read, I'll continue to update the list. <<less

One way trip to hell... more>>

Yaoi smut p*rn w/ or w/o plot.

Note that I will only put novels that I'm currently reading and have already finished reading.

#1-#10 stories I am emotionally heavily invested on

#11 and so on, based on the degree of how much I wan't to re-read it again (subjected to changes)

Tags do not apply to everything. <<less

A list of novel that i read because i hate myself, my weird fetish and my unsuccessful romantic life

Series with Yandere, Possessive and/or Obsessive MLs.... more>>

Shou/Uke/Bottom Protagonist for all of these!

Novels closer to #1 are ones ive personally finished and enjoyed. Only includes novels I have read, but not necessarily liked (ie. the latter novels might not be as good)

Recommendations are welcome! <<less

↷ ·˚ ༘ s e t t i n g : historical and modern times .°୭ ˎˊ˗↷... more>>

novels with personal rating - already read : some are dropped

novels without PR -  still haven't read - proceed with caution

NOT ALL NOVELS LISTED HERE HAD A HAPPY ENDING! <<less

If you’re into dark themes and want a list of dubcon and noncon - this is the list for you. This list isn’t for everybody,... more>> if you’re uncomfortable with the subject that’s probably a good thing. Sometimes you just want a dark read through at least I sure do. <<less

To satisfy my rotten heart....
Including those books which doesn't have smut tag but contain NSFW scenes..

Mc who are Chad, f*ck their harem, do s*xual abuse

Compilation of BL novels that I have read that contain angst, but they range from just making your heart twinge from the pain to making your heart bleed, heal it, then proceed to cut it open again, and heal it again. I'll arrange it from easy to nightmare mode according to MY perspective. My heart is quite puny, so what makes my heart twinge may not inflict anything to you. This is based on MY perspective. 
Mostly HE, but some are BE. I'll write a note on BE so that you don't fall into the trap of never ending heartache and suffering.... more>>

WARNING: Some will contain 'Rape', 'r*pe victim becomes lover', and 'su*cide' tags, so please read the tags and proceed at your own discretion. <<less

Not for the Weak. The Male Lead will be Bossy, Hot, and uncontrollable. The Uke must accept all the love given.  XD

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↷ ·˚ ༘ s e t t i n g : historical and modern times .°୭ ˎˊ˗↷... more>>

HARDCORE : BD*M : THREESOME : GANGBANG : FOURSOME : SMUT : TOYS

EVERYDAY WE STRAY FATHER FROM GOD,  BUT WHO f*ckING CARES!! This is some good shit! 

- enjoy, sluts <<less

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just your typical dog blood novel where the gong treats the shou unkindly and only realized his feelings after the shou left /died. ... more>>

You can check out Shui Qian Cheng's works, her novels are really well-written. However, all the gongs are absolute sh*ts. Each one is worse than the other but I love it *chef's kiss*

Not in order

⚠️ Please do check the tags before reading. <<less

This list has both BL and BG novels. ... more>>

Beware that not all novels have the satisfying groveling scenes from ML. 

I included some BE novels where I felt that the decisions MC took was very fitting even if there is no groveling from the ML or if the MC is dead to see that part. 

You’ll find most of Shui Qian Cheng’s novels who is well known for her 188cm group of novels featuring angsty novels about scum going groveling for their mistakes.

I only included the novels I was satisfied with.

Caution: Enjoy these novels, but avoid romanticizing the ML or fantasizing them as great lovers. Most of the MLs are just awful people, except for my beloved Lan Zhan, who is the epitome of kindness, Justice & all the good things. Remember, in real life, those who treat others poorly are likely to treat you the same way or mistreat you repeatedly will continue to mistreat you. Those who are controlling, manipulative, and obsessive never end with happy endings. Change in adults is difficult, even with love. Look into real-life cases of abusive partners to get a reality check.

Do keep that in mind. Hope you enjoy the novels below. <<less

ml's here are all SCUMS

Stories that I have no interest in whatsoever due to tags, reviews, or synopsis that I want to get out of the way and remind... more>> myself that I don’t want to read <<less

You're all going to hell, goodbye~!

You're all going to hell with me :D.

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Angsty    Hateful/s*upid Lead

doesnt have a proper plot / just for smut  /thrilling

If you're triggered by the tags then this list is not for you:)... more>>

in*est might be between the main co or side cp.

There are some that i haven't read yet. <<less