Major hurt/comfort simp. ... more>>

Been hurting all my life with no one to comfort me so reading a hurt/sickly MC being worried/doted/cared for/loved on really soothes my soul or something twisted like that. I'm trying to find meaning behind all the suffering. Hmnn yeah that sounds about right, I wanna read meaningful suffering.

SSSSE (Self Sacrifice= sacrificing themselves for others/a greater good) (Self Suffering= is hurting/carrying burden/enduring hardship on their own) (Exposed= other people find out leading in increased positive action/attention towards them and or it affects other people in some way so there is meaning to the suffering)

Absolutely love the vomiting blood and everybody worries trope. MC in pain? It's okay baby it's all worth it there will be people that will take care of you or make up for it. Fluff stuff. Spurting blood is fun and all but psychological hurt also rubs me right, stuff like taking blame then the other party regretting and making up for it? Angst stuff. Mmm working too hard or getting hurt in place of others is also nice.

Romance. No romance. Straight. BL. Some I read using mtl.

tl;dr I just wanna talk about the novels I've read but highlight the heart abuse scenes :)

*Recommendations are welcomed but not always accepted to the list ∠( ᐛ 」∠)＿

If you decide to follow, I'll warmly say; Welcome to the cult  <( ⓛ ω ⓛ *)> <<less

hhh so difficult to find good ones QAQ... more>>

here we have the rare delicacy of high-quality harem bl novels. may have subtle harems and/or (usually) 1v1 endings. kind-of, sort-of ranked?? adding descriptions as i go!

comment your thoughts and/or suggestions~

update: I'm back and ready to update the list! harem bl seems to have gotten more common/popular in general, wow! <<less

Novels that I have been following for quite some time. The crème de la crème of BL. I sifted through numerous novels to find these... more>> diamonds in the- okay enough analogies... <<less

NOTE: Some comments do not reflect the complete novel. I will try to update them as I read.... more>>

List of BL novels with an obsessive/possessive/yandere male lead that I enjoyed.
Sorted roughly from most obsessive to least obsessive (I used to have a bias for QT novels, though). Favorite to least favorite where I couldn't decide. Numbers 60~75 are mostly just there to fill the lower ranks, and numbers 76~91 are novels that need more updates or that I'm planning to read. <<less

Some need to be in a jail-room, others need to be in a therapy room, and the MC needs to be in a courtroom to get a restraining order against them... Unless he's into it, in which case, who am I to complain? ... more>>

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Edit: Woa, I never expected that many users to like obsessive MLs, feels great to see those with the same 'guilty pleasures' as mine (I don't feel guilty though, not because my taste is good but because I lack shame). We're out here bonding over unhinged guys lmao. Also, what's your ideal obsessive ML? I'm quite curious, so feel free to comment it below. 

Personally, I prefer MLs who are usually ruthless and somewhat cruel to everyone but the MC, whom they treat with utmost love, care and respect, of course they're still 'toxic' in a way they wouldn't leave the MC alone or ever separate from him, but to make him stay, they'd rather pamper him to the hell and back than use torture or abuse. A big plus if they're paired with sly and morally grey MCs.

Edit 2: if you see random words censored, it ain't me. NU just recently started doing that out of nowhere :/ <<less

Danmei with the main couple as master and disciple pair. We really need more on this list.... more>>

You can recommend more novels in the comments below.

[disciple x master cultivation novels] <<less

Here comes a longass list because I like harem. It's something I've seen many people dislike since they prefer 1-1 couples. However, I like it because even if I hate a ML or two, there's bound to be at least one other ML in the harem who might be likeable. So I'll rather see the MC get chased by the entire gay town™ than read about just one ML who could be insufferable.... more>>

For example, 'I Rely on Beauty to Stabilize the Country' has a somewhat annoying ML but because it's not a harem, you're supposed to suffer through all the paragraphs brimming with his a$$holery, and can only root for him and the MC because no other guy can ever end up with the MC. 

On the other hand, 'The Cruel Tyrant' has a similar theme — a modern dude transmigrating and carrying the responsibility of restoring a kingdom on his shoulders, but it's a harem with different kind of MLs so even if you skip the parts of some MLs you dislike, there's still around 2-3 MLs left you can enjoy reading about. That's not to say I like every harem novel or dislike every non-harem novel though, it's just that I'll like anything as long as it won't have those insufferable characters I'm forced to sit and watch. <<less

all the novels that have a special place in my heart - in no particular order. Keep in mind that I am a very very... more>> picky reader but I often go back and reread these wayyy too many times to be healthy. These are all just gems and must-reads you have to know- there’s angst (hardcore and softcore along with stuff that made me ugly sob with hiccups), there’s downright fluff(some of them literally bleed fluff), there’s some that I read just for the plot( YES PLOT IS A TANGIBLE THING IN MOST OF THESE) and some that are just orgasmically dopamine filled. Disclaimer- like 4-5 of these are pretty hardcore so if you’re uncomfortable with yandere, dubcon, kinda~in*est, bd*m (READ THE TAGS ALWAYS) etc Just take it with a grain of salt but like it’s only a few out of this huge list. I hope you enjoy! <<less

Mostly BLs I've readNot a list for a high rating novel, just for killing time purpose.... more>>

Honorable mention (cuz they're not listed in NU hehe):

- 双面荡夫（双性，黄暴粗口肉合集！）by 大樱桃 ==>collection of inters*x yellow book
- she婬美人（短篇双xrou）by 你家的白月光  ==> all variants inters*x story
- Father's Debt and Son's Repayment 父债子偿(H) by 空凉的城  ==> (inters*x) boy forced to pay his father's debt using his body
- Grandpa's beauty 爷爷的美人(双性)(H) by 吃肉小熊猫 ==>  Grandpa imp**gnated his adoptive grandson
- Humiliated Beauty 受辱的美人们 Public beauty 公用的美人 Stepson's wife 继子的人妻 by 吃肉小熊猫 meat-eating red panda (I must say, this author works are my cup of tea)
-After Public R*pe of Bis*xual Master 当众强暴双性师尊后 by 当众强暴双性师尊后
- 媚骨天成(双性)(H by 伊弥 ==> Arrogant beautiful young master X savage butcher
-Elder brother! Save Me 哥！救我 by 乌蒙小燕==>younger brother's plan to accuse of his big bro's company rival as homo but backfire
-These straight guys are more gay than me 这群直男比我还基 by 懒得动 Part 7 https://yushuwuy.com/read/23741.html

keyword for f**anari (sorry I have particular taste for this genre)==> 双性 MTL Website @ rourouwu.com or yushuwui.com 玩物 <<less

Exactly as the name entails, BL.... more>>

Consists of transmigration, reborn etc. If it's BL it's here.

Have to add that I have a preference for transmigration and usually avoid slowburn romance, so if you want a slow paced novel, it's not here sweetie

Ranking based on:

Plot- Whether plot makes sense, and foreshadowing is given closure. All around just entertaining, and doesn't feel like a chore to read.

Characters- If the characters are fu cking tr*sh, the novel is tr*sh, 'nough said.

Translation quality- Many idioms in chinese novels tend to fly over people's head. And if the translator doesn't have an apt website, I will also find it a hassle to read. <<less

Exactly as the name says; this is a collection of shamelessly terrible main cast characters. Mentions of what tr*sh can be found within in the descriptions.... more>>

(Please note that the use of language such as “tr*sh”, “scum” and “slag” are meant in a positive way, unless otherwise stated.) <<less

My favorite Novels where mc is being loved by one or many yandere chracters
?! QAQ

我把你们当哥们[快穿]  - quick transmigration, system novel

where the mc / ml (or both) is the shizun...... more>>

(no specific order) <<less

BL Cultivation... more>>

These heartless Shizuns! Oblivious to romantic feelings because they're too focused on cultivating! These evil and sinful disciples! Harboring unpure feelings towards their Shizuns!!! >A<

What the "smut" part means: If there is a "yes," that means there is at least one detailed/moderately described love scene.

Just a list because I need to get my sh*t together. Most importantly, I need to get my BL cultivation obsession sorted out.
Transmigration included, but no world hopping/quick transmigration. <<less

(╯°□°)╯︵ ┻━┻... more>>

hehe what it says in the title but going off what i can remember
THE OPPOSITE: you raised me and now you want to eat my tofu??? i’m not rlly into this bc of ~dynamics-! but i include it since i remember quite a few stories like that

if you have any recs pls let me know in the comments too! <<less

I'm a sucker for Protagonists with gorgeous faces. So here are some recommendations for face-cons like me :D... more>>

Edit: Who knew it would be hard finding pretty-faced MCs where their beauty is either heavily related to the plot or frequently mentioned? <<less

Welcome one, welcome all! We got yanderes galore over here - possessive ones, obsessive ones, clingy ones, two-faced ones, (blood)thirsty ones, and even the bat-sh*t crazy psychos. Do you like 'em spicy or sweet? Tell ya what, I'll even throw in a tragic backstory and a sprinkle of angst, just for you. *wink**wink*... more>>

Like what you see, you can take them home! But be careful, they're very hard to tame~

[Strict no returns, refunds, or exchanges policy. All sales are final. Waiver required. We are not liable for any injury, death, confinement, or torture resulting from the adoption of your yandere.] <<less

What's better than a possessive ML?  A possessive, obsessive, thirsty gay ML!
Re: thirsty and protective tags - for novels I've read only. Please feel free to suggest more.... more>>

BG list of possessive MLs - https://www.novelupdates.com/viewlist/7256/?ft=yes <<less

A compilation of Chrysanthemum Garden BL novels I've read or am currently reading.

All safe books (I'm a very sensitive reader lol). Dual virg*ns, first love! 
No themes like cheating, love triangles, weird creepy casanovas etc. (Some books MAY have some unsafe themes but not enough for me to quit reading so it shouldn't be too bad I guess? ill mention them if I remember)... more>>

If you have similar safe books, pleaseeee do recommend them down below!!

These are all the books I've read since May of 2021 ;] <<less

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Master x Disciple / Elder disciple(shixiong) x Younger disciple(shidi)... more>>

I have a preference for MCs raising a bun thinking it's a white rabbit when it's actually a h**ny wolf-pup gong who just wanna push them down and "cultivate" feelings~ 

But this contain 4or5 older gongs/seme MCs too (mostly cause my lazyass can't bother to sort it all out and make another list)~

Very very incomplete list cause I've only added novels that I've read/am reading... Will update as i find new ones.

⚠️ be warned. Most of the MLs need therapy, of varying degrees, but unfortunately that's a non-existent concept in cultivation worlds.. So we've got a lotta Yanderes in here and all their associated red flags!⚠️ <<less

This is my favorite trope so this list is mainly for myself to keep track of the ones I've read with this trope or the... more>> ones I'm planning to read. This list will also include teacher/student or just those where the MC is some sort of guardian of the ML. There are some I've come across that I'm not really interested in so I'll omit those~ <<less

List of favorite BL novels (*´ω｀*)