Boys love angst~~... more>>

*TW* Some/most of these stories will contain ABUSE, INVOLUNTARY CONFINEMENT, r*pe, and other graphic descriptions of violence. Some of these are seriously tragedic and may cause tears or elongated periods of agony .

I was probably sobbing over this at 2am at one point, , and I will update summaries as I go.

Please let me know if you have any novel recommendations you think fit this list! Happy reading ^^ <<less

This list is kinda like "lovers reunited" where FL runs away or breaks up or asks for a divorce and FL wants to stay away from ML ... more>>

but then ML realizes his mistakes. He grieves, suffers, and repents before FL loves him again. 

Some of these are like " I got pregnant so I'll run away from him to protect my child"

This list contains both modern and european ambience. <<less

She said we are good friends, so I resisted the desire to hold her hand. But when she raised her head and looked at me with bright round eyes, I felt that my heart was no longer beating.... more>>

Childhood friends to lovers is definitely the sweetest trope. And I'm also curious. How does it feel to grow up and see a handsome face almost everyday?

Please follow the list if you like the novels listed and do tell if you have recommendations.

I like how they take the risk, follow their heart and confess. How the relationship change from friends-ambiguous relationship-lovers.

Recommended novels not linked to NU (title and synopsis in the comment section, mtl'ed but decipherable) <<less

Well, you know it already ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°). Compilation of completed ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) novels, it can be CN, KR or JP. Read at your own risk. ... more>>

Most stories that I put are no more than 80 chapters probably (as long as it won't hit 100???)

P.S: Every story I put are already read by me and can guarantee that it is completed. Yes, there are still plenty of short smutty stories that I have yet to read but I am very reluctant to read it (because I think my brains will go poof, not leaving one single half braincell alive). However, if you have something that you can recommend, then please comment the name and reason why I should read it and I will with open arms, put it in this list once I finished reading it. And also, I already put the description and my rating review so you don't have to click each one of them to see the description.  <<less

Favorite couples of all time - from sizzling chemistry with passionate romance, to bickering and bantering couples. Check out my Carrd if you want to... more>> see more quotes: https://allmydanmei.carrd.co/ <<less

Secret love. For some people, it is war and chaos; for others, it is a warm spring with flowers blooming.... more>>

list of novels with either MLs/FLs having a onesided love who were given a second chance by meeting again after a few years or through rebirth.

MLs with unrequited love is what I preferred. Esp when they do have cold and indifferent demeanor yet they become patient and considerate with anything that has to do with her.
 

If it's meant to be, then its meant to be. Afterall, none can steal the love one is born to find.

please do tell if you have recommendation.

***Sorry. I'm boring so NO Yaoi, Yuri nor harem. 

Recommended novels not linked to NU. Most are less than 100 chapters including extras.. (titles and synopsis in the comment section, mtl'ed but decipherable) <<less

Due to misunderstandings ML causes MC's death and then ML realizes his mistakes and grieves for MC. Later MC rebirthes and ML start to pursue... more>> MC against constant rejections. <<less

For the nights where we lay down the bed, seeking solace in angst stories.

Tragedies. Stories when you need something sad or want something to make you cry. All completed stories.... more>>

*sorted by rating <<less

The book said, I will take 99 steps towards you and you only need to take the remaining one step. But no need. I will run all one hundred steps and you don't have to do anything, just stand there and wait for me. ... more>>

I guess with age, our taste turns weirder. I no longer dream of the prince charming on a white horse, but rather, I've set my target on the cold and indifferent villain. So here is the list of my favorite, flawed yet amazing MLs. 

This is purely subjective and please follow the list if you have the same weird taste as mine and do tell if you have other recommendations.

 The list contains:

Him/her with his/her unrequited love;

Couples who were separated for a very long time and unsure of the other person's feeling, but stayed true and loyal to his woman;

Or an ML who caused misery/grievance to his woman at first but turned st*pidly sweet after the redemption arc.

With that being said, Im into MLs with emotional issues and social barriers so you may not like them at first. I dont like perfect and very good mannered MLs, I like them flawed!

***Sorry. I'm boring so NO Yaoi, Yuri nor harem.

Recommended novels not linked to NU. Most are less than 100 chapters including extras.. (titles and synopsis in the comment section, mtl'ed but decipherable) <<less

Tragedies that leave an empty feeling after reading.... more>>

Some makes you cry your heart. 
Some makes your feel sad
 Some just leaves a void 

Comment below if you know such novels.     <<less

Before reading this novels make sure to grab a tissue!this novel will gonna make u angry,cry,sad!it also contains misunderstandings!

Regretful male leads, some crying and begging, but not super toxic relationships. The best juicy regret.... more>>

For manga/comics:

Married for 120 Days, Flowers may wither but you remain, Tonari No Stella (ch.10-???), <<less

just your typical dog blood novel where the gong treats the shou unkindly and only realized his feelings after the shou left /died. ... more>>

You can check out Shui Qian Cheng's works, her novels are really well-written. However, all the gongs are absolute sh*ts. Each one is worse than the other but I love it *chef's kiss*

Not in order

⚠️ Please do check the tags before reading. <<less

If you don't have a home, then I'll give you a home. If you don't have any relatives, then I'll give you plenty of children. We'll have lots of kids and when they grow up and have family of their own, we'll have even more children. That way, you'll have a big family and plenty of loved ones.... more>>

Novels wherein I fell inlove with the FLs.

These FLs are (somewhat) decisive, stay true to their character, and have backbones all throughout or gained one after twists and turns.

You will see a lot of Jiu Yue Xi works. Damn, I love all of her female lead characters and of course, the novels itself.

There are recommended MTL'ed novels in the comment section.

Please do tell if you have recommendations. <<less

Tragedies that leave an empty feeling after reading.... more>>

Some makes you cry your heart 
Some makes your feel sad
Some just leaves a void

Comment below, if you know such more novels  <<less

Novels that I have been following for quite some time. The crème de la crème of BL. I sifted through numerous novels to find these... more>> diamonds in the- okay enough analogies... <<less

This list includes possessive lovers that weren’t able to together with mc at first, including mls/fls that had unrequited love toward the mc, were neglected... more>> by mc, or misunderstood by mc and thought to be scary and dangerous. This list involves partners who aren’t each others firsts. It involves mls or fls with unconditional or hidden love that get their chance eventually, after the mc gains some clarity.  <<less

Mostly "toxic" relationships and primarly that of a romantic nature.... more>>

Although the ML's are usually the one described of such acting, the FL's can be too.

Ussually the FL has the upper hand and the ML is a puppy, this also being the preference, but there can be exceptions in the list.

Also novels where the ML's burning affection is not reciprocated by the FL. This can be changed as the plot evolves, or until the end the love won't be reciprocated.

Fantastic realm/ Royalty/Modern world/Ancient times - doesn't matter as long as the FL is not treated miserably, even if there is angst, mixed emotions, bursts of anger, sad and tense moments. The ML lead definitely can not be a total scum and the FL a weak, emotional damsel. This being said, I gladly accept new suggestions that match this genre. <<less

《 BL》Looking for a list on ml's pursuing the mc?... more>>

Based on all types of ML's that I am just quite fond of :)

Randomly ordered  <<less

I've always loved how the chasing turns 360, and I'm fond of light, fluffy stories. But I may throw some depressing or sad novels in there. Just yaknow BE AWARE. probably gonna put some heads-up or nah. I write sh8tty descriptions, but yeah hope this helps. ... more>>

P.S. And before I forgot I might mix some Yaoi in there, not too much but I'll put smthn to make you aware of it MWA <<less

all the novels that have a special place in my heart - in no particular order. Keep in mind that I am a very very... more>> picky reader but I often go back and reread these wayyy too many times to be healthy. These are all just gems and must-reads you have to know- there’s angst (hardcore and softcore along with stuff that made me ugly sob with hiccups), there’s downright fluff(some of them literally bleed fluff), there’s some that I read just for the plot( YES PLOT IS A TANGIBLE THING IN MOST OF THESE) and some that are just orgasmically dopamine filled. Disclaimer- like 4-5 of these are pretty hardcore so if you’re uncomfortable with yandere, dubcon, kinda~in*est, bd*m (READ THE TAGS ALWAYS) etc Just take it with a grain of salt but like it’s only a few out of this huge list. I hope you enjoy! <<less