Perfect for us masochistic fools who just wants to experience pain 'cause thus is living *sigh*

These are my personal favourite BL novels. Possessive and dominating Gong is totally my all time fave. List also includes, r*pe, revenge and abuse seme which is kinky. haha. ... more>>

Hope this would be helpful for some of ya'll with the same taste. Enjoy!! <<less

Therapy costs more than these novels.... more>>

**A better name for this list would be Tragic Romance Novels (18+) but I wanted to emphasize on the process of grief I regularly experience while reading this stuff. 

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I'll still be implementing a rating system from **1-5 with 1 being just sad at some parts to 5 being downright horrific**

**In addition, rather than the summaries I put short explanations for the rating. In all honesty, it's better for you to ignore them. Protect your mental well-being from my inane babbling and mild spoilers. <<less

basically yandere..yandere..yandere..yandere..yandere..yandere..yandere..yandere..yandere..yandere..yandere..yandere.... more>>

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Read all of them and they have all similar type of yandere that I like lol. <<less

What's better than a possessive ML?  A possessive, obsessive, thirsty gay ML!
Re: thirsty and protective tags - for novels I've read only. Please feel free to suggest more.... more>>

BG list of possessive MLs - https://www.novelupdates.com/viewlist/7256/?ft=yes <<less

*in no particular order*... more>>

-pain

-BE or HE is fine but there must be obstacles in the middle...., angsty

-crematorium

-ML doesn't care about the MC from the start (or ML does care but doesn't know how to express it) but once MC is gone from their grasp (death/ coma/ near-death experience/ breakup?) they finally realize what they let slip from their fingertips. 

-or after all the disappointment and hurt, MC doesn't care anymore and it's the emotionally constipated ML's turn to chase.

*recommendations are appreciated (very) <<less

Novels originally published on sites other than JJWXC. Not sure of the current status of some works, i.e. whether they are locked/may be locked in the future.... more>>

Part 2 here: https://www.novelupdates.com/viewlist/50284/ <<less

These are the list of novels that I can say is highly recommended. We have different  taste so I am not sure if all of these novels are to your liking. ... more>>

Anyways, this list is not sorted because I hate sorting, so yah,  just keep on scrolling because some novels that is rated 10 are at the bottom,  so yah. 

P. S.  : This list only contains YAOI novels because I don't read any other genre except YAOI. You have been warned. 

- em genne cry,  I had finished writing my thoughts in  every novel.  Huhuhuhu <<less

The tags are unreliable, so no need to pay attention to it. However, there are few that’s angsty. Anyway, did it for my own. ^+^ 

Recommend if you like the tropes tagged. ... more>>

Not sorted from best to worst! <<less

Novels/stories around 60 chapters

done / drop / hold

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Making a list for little black room

Waiting list~ till i got the mood and the translation done~

This list has both BL and BG novels. ... more>>

Beware that not all novels have the satisfying groveling scenes from ML. 

I included some BE novels where I felt that the decisions MC took was very fitting even if there is no groveling from the ML or if the MC is dead to see that part. 

You’ll find most of Shui Qian Cheng’s novels who is well known for her 188cm group of novels featuring angsty novels about scum going groveling for their mistakes.

I only included the novels I was satisfied with.

Caution: Enjoy these novels, but avoid romanticizing the ML or fantasizing them as great lovers. Most of the MLs are just awful people, except for my beloved Lan Zhan, who is the epitome of kindness, Justice & all the good things. Remember, in real life, those who treat others poorly are likely to treat you the same way or mistreat you repeatedly will continue to mistreat you. Those who are controlling, manipulative, and obsessive never end with happy endings. Change in adults is difficult, even with love. Look into real-life cases of abusive partners to get a reality check.

Do keep that in mind. Hope you enjoy the novels below. <<less

reading/want to read list

List of bl that I want to read or have already read

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A list where I listed all of danmeis I've read. 

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I love sm*tty ya*i. And i love sm*tty ya*i that makes me cry more. Life is a tragedy after all. It's always as if we're... more>> just some actors in someone else' jokes. <<less