Guilty pleasure of seeing scum gongs grovel. Some stories are real crematoriums. Mix of BE and HE.... more>>

Crematorium: MC loves ML -> ML is scum -> MC has enough and leaves -> ML regrets and tries to get MC back. <<less

The stories that I had to drop because I was sure to die from anger and frustration

list of danmei novels i’ve read and plan to read. 

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This list has both BL and BG novels. ... more>>

Beware that not all novels have the satisfying groveling scenes from ML. 

I included some BE novels where I felt that the decisions MC took was very fitting even if there is no groveling from the ML or if the MC is dead to see that part. 

You’ll find most of Shui Qian Cheng’s novels who is well known for her 188cm group of novels featuring angsty novels about scum going groveling for their mistakes.

I only included the novels I was satisfied with.

Caution: Enjoy these novels, but avoid romanticizing the ML or fantasizing them as great lovers. Most of the MLs are just awful people, except for my beloved Lan Zhan, who is the epitome of kindness, Justice & all the good things. Remember, in real life, those who treat others poorly are likely to treat you the same way or mistreat you repeatedly will continue to mistreat you. Those who are controlling, manipulative, and obsessive never end with happy endings. Change in adults is difficult, even with love. Look into real-life cases of abusive partners to get a reality check.

Do keep that in mind. Hope you enjoy the novels below. <<less

Stories adapted to manhua - specifically for those looking for good manhua reads. Most stories on the list are among my favorites or written by... more>> my favorite authors, so worth checking out both original story and manhua adaptation. <<less

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*Danmei/ Chinese BL. *Listed in the order of which I finished reading them, tho I'm not sure about the ones in between TGCF and Copper... more>> coins, I don't remember anymore :')   <<less

just your typical dog blood novel where the gong treats the shou unkindly and only realized his feelings after the shou left /died. ... more>>

You can check out Shui Qian Cheng's works, her novels are really well-written. However, all the gongs are absolute sh*ts. Each one is worse than the other but I love it *chef's kiss*

Not in order

⚠️ Please do check the tags before reading. <<less

all completed !! i rarely initiate to read novels with a tag like this and i usually just find these gems accidentally (i don't read tags sometimes yknow so i wouldn't spoil myself). as always, feel free to recommend me some!! i'll make sure to try it out.... more>>

p.s. a yandere is someone who is crazily in love or extremely obsessed resulting in abnormal behavior if not violence. <<less

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reading/want to read list

i didnt read any of these.... more>>

1st part: https://www.novelupdates.com/viewlist/42111/

2nd part: https://www.novelupdates.com/viewlist/53215/ <<less

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I'm slowly working through these recs.... more>>

Please leave any recommendations if you have any :)

PS. These aren't arranged in any particular order

PPS. check trigger warnings as some are a bit heavy <<less

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BL novels that make me a crybaby every time I read them. I love reading those novels that I know I will sob nonstop later... more>> and for some reason, I can't stop myself from reading them XD. This list includes novels with some heavy topics and mostly angst and kinda tragic. BUT, I'm not a fan of BE novels so I did not include them here. I want a satisfying ending like the MC or ML didn't die or what. Anyway, prepare your tissues guys.  <<less

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Novels that have regretful ML, family’s, etc. I love novels like these since they tug my heart strings.

novels that look interesting based on the synopsis and reviews

For people who likes pain and want themselves to  suffer by reading angst novels like me:) 

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