These novels are a bit deranged, but in a very realistic sense. The main CP has either believable coping mechanisms, or mental illnesses based on... more>> their past. There isn't an ML or MC who was abused that got revenge "all according to plan" with no mental issues (basically the MC or ML pays a price from the beginning and only gets their just rewards after fighting tooth and nail for it). There is fluff but its an angsty fluff and a oof-ouch-pain feeling when they need to support each other. <<less

These are some of my favvvv korean novels since i cant stop reading the isekai/historical genre.

Danmeis that has absent prents, abadoned theme, shitty, abusive family and or relatives, complex family relationship and any other trauma inflicting roles on the book... more>> characters because i love pain. <<less

Is it just me or there is someone out there who is relatable? I just love collecting tragedies and washing my face with my tears.... more>> <D PS: rated and ranked on the level of tears I shed. <<less

Characters in BL novels that I can’t help but absolutely hate 

Quality BL romance stories with some dramatic plots involved (not action or adventure oriented, those titles I saved in the Action BL rec list I made). Be prepared with Kleenex! (╥﹏╥) ... more>>

Some of these I read several times because even though I don't like tragic plots, sometimes I like a story with heartbreak... I removed the action and adventure titles and put them in my Action BL rec list instead.

Modern settings only. Includes shounen ai, yaoi, and BL with smut. Too many titles to sort in order of personal preference, so I sorted them alphabetically.

I tried my best to leave some trigger warnings on this list where I think some readers might find objectionable content (there seems to be more of that in dramatic and action oriented novels). I hope that people can take the genres labeled Adult and Mature as well as tags like R*pe, R*pist Becomes Lover, S*xual Abuse etc seriously. I think it's always a good idea for people to check tags and reviews of a novel before starting out, otherwise you can end up wasting time because halfway through (or even further on), you read something that is upsetting and then drop the novel. That's a habit I picked up after reading a ton of manga and webtoons. It's also very useful with novels! If you want to do that with Western novels, I would check out the website/app Goodreads (which also has Asian web novels, mangas and more listed there along with reader tags and reviews). <<less

Novels whereby:-... more>>

- MC decides to finally let go of their abusive family after trying relentlessly to gain their love/attention/recognition

- MC stops seeking out familial love after trying and failing again and again

- MC stops fighting (greentea)/(white lotus) sibling for parents love/attention

- Often there is an element of Rebirth

- MC's sibling usually has some sort of protagonist halo that causes their parents and those around to act as though their braincells are off line

Ongoing list <<less

When pampering adorable kids is FL's sole life mission ❤️... more>>

In no particular order, enjoy~ <<less