I have hardcore tastes. If any of the sisters and brothers out there have a similar liking...feel free to visit~

Putting together a list to include authors I've read and enjoyed multiple books from. Some of these authors have written a lot more, but I'm only including ones I've read so far.... more>>

Not listing the authors in any order & trying to pretty much only include novels with complete English translations <<less

this is my list of lists

ML (Top) hurts MC (Bottom) either physically or emotionally then when MC left ML, ML chase MC to get back together. I won't tag if they will end up together again or not.
I actually read a lot of Wife Chasing Crematorium Novels but most of them are not translated so they don't have a page in NU.... more>>

**MIGHT CONTAINS SPOILER** <<less

Angsty and sad webnovels because I'm a sucker for angsty stories. Yes, I really really love abusing myself so join me in this self-abuse-by-angst cult... more>>

(ErHa, look what you made me do. You made me a masochist (⁠༎ຶ⁠ ⁠෴⁠ ⁠༎ຶ⁠) )

Most of these webnovels are completed. They may have BE/HE. I have Maladaptive Daydreaming Disorder, so while some of these novels may not be pure angst but they have fair share of heart-clenching moments that leave lots of room for more sad imaginations. <<less

A list of everything I’ve read in 2023 that’s worth a record ... more>>

⭐️ ☆ To recommend you   <<less

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Planning to read yaoi and shounen ai novels. Haven’t started any of these yet because it’s either not completely translated or I’m still on the... more>> fence about it. <<less

All novels I've completed reading (no particular order).

Novels adapted to manhuas with as many links as i can find :)

escuchando/por escuchar

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A list of the novels I've read 

Books I want to read

My fav (BL & het) that are complete. Just fyi, I like tropes. Might be a masterpiece but might just be a really fun read.

Complete BL that I haven't read

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list of danmei novels i’ve read and plan to read. 

All about dum Gong wasting their Shou

This list has both BL and BG novels. ... more>>

Beware that not all novels have the satisfying groveling scenes from ML. 

I included some BE novels where I felt that the decisions MC took was very fitting even if there is no groveling from the ML or if the MC is dead to see that part. 

You’ll find most of Shui Qian Cheng’s novels who is well known for her 188cm group of novels featuring angsty novels about scum going groveling for their mistakes.

I only included the novels I was satisfied with.

Caution: Enjoy these novels, but avoid romanticizing the ML or fantasizing them as great lovers. Most of the MLs are just awful people, except for my beloved Lan Zhan, who is the epitome of kindness, Justice & all the good things. Remember, in real life, those who treat others poorly are likely to treat you the same way or mistreat you repeatedly will continue to mistreat you. Those who are controlling, manipulative, and obsessive never end with happy endings. Change in adults is difficult, even with love. Look into real-life cases of abusive partners to get a reality check.

Do keep that in mind. Hope you enjoy the novels below. <<less

why do you even look for knife bro. treasure your life more. treasure your kokoro more. QAQ... more>>

Warning:
- I don't read BE (some might be BE-ish tho :haroldface:)
- I only add titles where I've experienced the knife, or know there would be knife for sure (ex: mudaoli's novel)
- degree of knife sharpness varies for each person. you might agree with this list, you might not. 
- I have low pain tolerance :haroldface: 

my scale of pain, ranged from 'not really hurts' to 'it haunts me every time I see kite': 
1-3: wooden rice spoon (getting hit by one hurts okay)
4-6: paper cut (hidden but suddenly you feel pain)
7-8: knife. be wary. 
9: you're almost ascending via 刀道
10: machete. you've already reached godhood of 刀道. congratulations.  <<less

*Danmei/ Chinese BL. *Listed in the order of which I finished reading them, tho I'm not sure about the ones in between TGCF and Copper... more>> coins, I don't remember anymore :')   <<less

all completed !! i rarely initiate to read novels with a tag like this and i usually just find these gems accidentally (i don't read tags sometimes yknow so i wouldn't spoil myself). as always, feel free to recommend me some!! i'll make sure to try it out.... more>>

p.s. a yandere is someone who is crazily in love or extremely obsessed resulting in abnormal behavior if not violence. <<less

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