a bit of pain, a whole lot of heartbreak; bl

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Tragedies, abuse, and bloody drama ....
With no hope for redemption.... more>>

BL for those who love to be tortured. <<less

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Get your napkins ready.

if you know you know

This list is for readers who want to read about a time limited lead that makes everyone worried and spoiled them to death or it's simply tragic and they hide it pretty well.... more>>

■ They may or may not heal.

□ There are BG/BL, cnovels and knovels.

■ Do recommend me if you find good ones. <<less

completed readings!

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mix of modern ones and historical~ mostly bl, enjoy yourself hehe :>

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Novels that squeeze my heart
I've read/ reading all these novels and give my reviews,
Please kindly give suggestions

Finished Books mostly BL

Angsty and sad webnovels because I'm a sucker for angsty stories. Yes, I really really love abusing myself so join me in this self-abuse-by-angst cult... more>>

(ErHa, look what you made me do. You made me a masochist (⁠༎ຶ⁠ ⁠෴⁠ ⁠༎ຶ⁠) )

Most of these webnovels are completed. They may have BE/HE. I have Maladaptive Daydreaming Disorder, so while some of these novels may not be pure angst but they have fair share of heart-clenching moments that leave lots of room for more sad imaginations. <<less

CN novels where the MC has disabilities or sickly characters, or past trauma. Novels for MLs are in a different list. Contains spoiler. ... more>>

BG/BL. Not much world hopping or historical novels. 

Feel free to recommend any others :D <<less

You know how the minute you see the “tragedy” “drama” “unrequited love” tags you’re like, NO this is not a novel I should read. ... more>>

BUT somehow you end up reading it anyways?

This is a list of novels that will make you get the feels, the heartache and also not want to put it down.

You have been warned.
Read at your own discretion. 

I repeat you have been warned.

Also READ the TAGS

Mostly BLs <<less

All about dum Gong wasting their Shou

I reached the maximum on pt 2.

why do you even look for knife bro. treasure your life more. treasure your kokoro more. QAQ... more>>

Warning:
- I don't read BE (some might be BE-ish tho :haroldface:)
- I only add titles where I've experienced the knife, or know there would be knife for sure (ex: mudaoli's novel)
- degree of knife sharpness varies for each person. you might agree with this list, you might not. 
- I have low pain tolerance :haroldface: 

my scale of pain, ranged from 'not really hurts' to 'it haunts me every time I see kite': 
1-3: wooden rice spoon (getting hit by one hurts okay)
4-6: paper cut (hidden but suddenly you feel pain)
7-8: knife. be wary. 
9: you're almost ascending via 刀道
10: machete. you've already reached godhood of 刀道. congratulations.  <<less

just your typical dog blood novel where the gong treats the shou unkindly and only realized his feelings after the shou left /died. ... more>>

You can check out Shui Qian Cheng's works, her novels are really well-written. However, all the gongs are absolute sh*ts. Each one is worse than the other but I love it *chef's kiss*

Not in order

⚠️ Please do check the tags before reading. <<less

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