Bloody drama, angst, and tragedies ... ... more>>

With a little hope of getting better.

A BL list. <<less

Actually reading novels 

Omegaverse/ Mpreg

List of BL novels with systems :DD... more>>

*Side note: There's also some novels without systems but they're still transmigration so similar enough let's roll with it  <<less

CN novels where the MC has disabilities or sickly characters, or past trauma. Novels for MLs are in a different list. Contains spoiler. ... more>>

BG/BL. Not much world hopping or historical novels. 

Feel free to recommend any others :D <<less

A list to keep track of the novels that hurt my heart... and/or hurt the MC/ML hehehehehe the more suffering, the better. Self sacrifice (SS) is always welcome. Recs appreciated! Some novels have not been read yet and are added due to the recommendations of others.... more>>

Includes novels with empty protagonists, broken protagonists, and sick protagonists

Stories differentiated by my own terms:

[Apathetic], [Sick], [Tragedy], [SS] [Depressed], [Transmigration], [Revenge]

Also: [Unread], [Reread-> read multiple times]

Organized so my favorites (tragic quick transmigrations where MC breaks ML's heart repeatedly) are at the top, then all the death craving characters, then the mistreated and sick villainesses, then the apathetic and SS children appear <<less

MC(Shou)s with sickly bodies or disability
Who wouldn't love sickly, weak beauties... more>>

Please be aware of SPOILERS in description <<less

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Major hurt/comfort simp. ... more>>

Been hurting all my life with no one to comfort me so reading a hurt/sickly MC being worried/doted/cared for/loved on really soothes my soul or something twisted like that. I'm trying to find meaning behind all the suffering. Hmnn yeah that sounds about right, I wanna read meaningful suffering.

SSSSE (Self Sacrifice= sacrificing themselves for others/a greater good) (Self Suffering= is hurting/carrying burden/enduring hardship on their own) (Exposed= other people find out leading in increased positive action/attention towards them and or it affects other people in some way so there is meaning to the suffering)

Absolutely love the vomiting blood and everybody worries trope. MC in pain? It's okay baby it's all worth it there will be people that will take care of you or make up for it. Fluff stuff. Spurting blood is fun and all but psychological hurt also rubs me right, stuff like taking blame then the other party regretting and making up for it? Angst stuff. Mmm working too hard or getting hurt in place of others is also nice.

Romance. No romance. Straight. BL. Some I read using mtl.

tl;dr I just wanna talk about the novels I've read but highlight the heart abuse scenes :)

*Recommendations are welcomed but not always accepted to the list ∠( ᐛ 」∠)＿

If you decide to follow, I'll warmly say; Welcome to the cult  <( ⓛ ω ⓛ *)> <<less

I really LOVE this. Taboo. Sibling. Romantically involved. Yess!!!! I'm sick sorry not sorry lol! I finally get around creating list after so long. If you like it as well, please take a look at the list. It might suits your taste too.... more>>

It contains (unless revised): brother x sister, brother x brother, sister x sister ~ sibling only.

Category: in*est (blood-related), pseudo-in*est (not blood-related but few knew about it so the pairing assumes they are until revealed/remains ignorant of it yet still choose this route anyway), step-sibling romance (not blood-related, they know, are living together since they are family, and somehow catch feelings).

If you have any recommendations, feel free to drop comments. Mutuals will be appreciated!

P.S.: (1) please bear in mind that my remarks on each entry may not be spoiler-free since it serves as a reminder of what kind of story it is for me. (2) English is not my first language. (3) so far, I have yet to include GL. I still haven't found any to rec; I'm sorry to disappoint you if you are looking for it here. <<less

3rd part

Novels with FL that have systems.