It is said that ML is not a human, but a kind of god, who is the core of the universe.

Even though this is indeed connected with several plot points in the story, like the reason why the MC and his family have overlapping memories and more.

It still doesn't change the fact that these things really didn't match the concept of the story that has been told so far, it's like the author was changing the whole story concept just for this twist.

To be honest it would be better if the author used reincarnation theory or alternative universe for the twist.

100 chapters.

MC sent messages to MLs number every day like a diary. When ML opened his spare phone he found MCs messages. The message starts as hopeful then it became depressing. ML could actually see MC falling into the abyss just by reading the messages.

ML thought that the person he married to was a gold digger who only like money so he didnt bother knowing. When he realize it was MC, he regretted it. He realize that MC is also a victim like him. A young man who supposed to be studying and enjoying life of a teenager was abandoned by his so called family.

MC attempted su*cide but was saved by ML.

It was found out that MC was taken from his real family thats why his so called mother arrange a marriage for him.

His real family is actually nice. His real mom love him so much. They help him overcome his depression along side with ML.

i saw some comment said that the MC should be happy and it was illogical to be depressed despite the condition he was in. I edited my review cause I wanted to touch a bit on that comment. I dont really remember what this novel was all about since I review this on 2021 and now I am 2024? So my memory abt this novel might be distorted. But one of the reviewer mentioned the MC should be happy living alone since he still got tv and all the other accommodation. And I was like what??? Does that mean people who have tv cant get sick or depressed. Someone who are rich shouldnt be sad? I already finish my psychiatric posting and mind you that mental illness can happen to all sort of people. Not just poor people but also rich people and who are we to judge. Something might not affect you but affect other people. Sure the novel might be a bit ridiculous (im saying this cause I cant remember whats it all abt). But why compare yourself to the people who are sick. This MC goes from being love by other people, having a loving family to someone who cant even be remembered by his neigbour. And it occured for a long period of time. You might not see him showing obvious symptoms until he attempted but that does not mean he was not sick previously. He might have precipitating factors that cause him to get worsen. And this depression does not simply goes away. What the novel trying to convey is that depression is an illness of mind. It is the thought that need to be change and it is not easy. Its not only draining your life but also the people around you. Your life is not the same as other people. You might have gotten it easier or harder than other people. Its hard for us normal people to truly understand but what we can do is offer even a tiniest help to those around us that are in need instead of judging them.

The world consciousness wouldn't let MC do anything to influence the plot, hence for the two years that the main plot was occuring, no one he ever interacted were able to retain memory of him. In those two years, the only thing that wouldn't be erased or wiped from remembrance or existence in relation to MC was his point of contact with ML. For two years, MC kept sending messages to ML that ML deliberately ignored and left unread until near the end of the story.

Dude literally beat up a guy who rear-ended his car by accident and the police even hot involved.

I had to pause because I kept getting more and more uncomfortable with the hints of alcohol abuse that slowly ramp up to obvious addictive behavior. The story sounds pretty lighthearted overall but maaaan MC is obviously unwell.

This is beautifully translated but I kept coming back to check for warnings besides the su*cide one.

I know we're supposed to get a happy ending. And this is mostly about recovery. I just wasn't expecting to get hit by realistic depictions of depression and addiction used to cope. I've read worse tragedy but it's usually done in an unrealistic setting that makes a few TWs negligible for me most of the time.

I'm also used to proactive and healthy MC's. I loved the MC here but I really wasn't enjoying myself reading him abuse himself and his health. No fault of the author or the story. Just that I'm not in the right mindspace I guess.

Instead, everything that happened in the beginning is wrapped up with a crazy line that the "god" of the universe fell in love with the MC and caused it all to happen... uh yeah, very deux-ex-machina.

depression, getting help, su*cide attempts, medication, recovery, etc.

I REALLY liked that the depressed MC couldn't find it in him to return the ML's feelings and had to get a lot more help before he recovered. No bullsh*t of "power of love" curing depression and medication/psych/counseling is treated respect instead of disdain.

You don't know how unwoke China tends to be around issues of depression... so big kudos to author for making it realistic.

system transmigration, physical objects phasing out from the MC's sphere of influence, horror-like torture the MC suffered through as if it was truly a fictional world erased from existence, dark vibes.

Author could have used normal "transmigration" like rebirth, kept the amnesia, and just had the MC suffer (MC could have still gotten all the same after-effects without such extreme experiences) in the beginning before getting out of the place. Even a kidnapping could have given the same effect.

Then the reader wouldn't have been waiting for a non-existent shoe to drop throughout the plot.

The fact that the ML supposedly is some kind of god of the universe is very very very very very bad wrap-up to put in the epilogue.