The FL's actually her, aka their souls are the same (so the plotwist she is that the character herself) because it's her destiny with ML. So god came to take FL in the modern world to her third fate.

in the first life FL cursed ML because they were a couple but ML betrayed & killed her just for power. The curse said "in the next life he will never care about ML again" and if she did then the curse would make FL die in his hands. Yeah because he loved her, he regretted killing her in this first life.

this is repeated in the 2nd life as in the novel where it is written,

3rd life: FL in modern life gets into the novel but in the end she dies too in his hands. In this life the ML & child really love her. Ofc he's crazy obsessed with her too, but it's cute because FL knows how to tame his personality🥰.

4th life: ML gets memories of his past and after that the god appears then explains to him too. So in this life he loves her more and he doesn't care whether she loves him back or not. It's okay as long as FL life and always with him. (Be a part of his life to build a family)

of their past lives

For the shippers, there is vague conformation that she kinda liked him but was ''blessed'' with indifference by the Daoist so she wouldn't have to live through hardship, yet he for some reason, got her back to the ancient times?? There's ample lovey dovey scenes and ML gets an obedient tho indifferent wife by the end of it. For the ML haters there's the definite indifference by the MC, the ML's awareness of it, his guilt -tho that's not enough for him to let her go- but it's a joke when you actually consider that he got the best part of the deal, she doesn't even pull any passive aggressive action or ignores him completely, but lets herself be completely controlled and allows him to do w/e he wants. Doesn't even go like, you can have a wife in name alone, and bans him from being within touching distance.

ML is really a psychopath but MC won't fall in love so I guess it's actually ok.

you have to accept somethings in life and go along with them.

HOLY FRICK THE MALE LEAD IS A NASTY SCUMBAG. He basically locks her up and ignores her right to live as an independent person. She doesn't love him and she will never love him because over 3 lifetimes, he has continuously killed her. This guy freaking sucks. The only reason why she's with them and "content" is for her mental health. If you are locked up by a super possessive stalkerish man who won't even let other people see you, realistically, you can't run and will either 1. Go insane and potentially commit su*cide (in the past, su*cide rates in China were one of the highest in the world. There has been more reform but it wasn't until around the 1950s or so that a marriage law was introduced to protect women who were forced into marriages who wished to divorce. Ex. Tongyanxi aka child brides were very common in rural areas, they were essentially cheap labor for the families that purchased them.) or 2. Bear with it (which she does by forcing her current mindset because there's literally no other solution). They are married, but he continuously r*pes her (s*x without consent is r*pe, and yes, marital r*pe exists). The ML honestly only cares for himself, his love for her is also a selfish one. If he truly loved her, he would have let her go and not force her to death like he did.

Character personality-wise, I like how ZN is changing himself slowly for the better, especially since he did it for SL. Although he doesn't 'unblacken', he's not as ruthless as he was in the past and can even be seen to have more humanity in him.

**Many readers don't like him, based on the number of reviews I just read but looking at the tags on the novel, most readers should've known what they were getting into. The ML is no saint nor is he like most normal people, he was written in the 'novel' that he had a twisted personality and is ruthless.

As for SL, I really enjoyed her character for the first 10-15 chapters. But that was it. Afterward, she just seemed to be very ignorant and scared to the point of being blind. I know the author is abusing ZN so that he'll be redeemable later, but there's a lot of unnecessary bashing and drama between the two lead's relationship, solely because of SL. It even ruins the fluff from Xiao Zhao, their son. Overall, don't expect the FML in the novel to be much different from the other novels' weak FMLs.

I cried when the little bun learned his mom was dying and when he finally meet her again (ಥ﹏ಥ)