When I first read this story, my first thought was MC gives more of a top vibes than the ML. I mean, he just exceeds so much of a ML vibes. Especially since the blatant difference between their characters and personality is seen.

And when I just realized that personality of him isn't his actual personality but actually the build up fragile ness over the years of being lock up by the 'world's system', two years might not be long enough but it's enough for someone's mentality to crumble with the compiling burden of not knowing anyone and not being remember by anyone.

Additionally, his attempt quite shocked me. I mean, I do expected it to happened, it's just that everything seems to be going well. Also, maybe because I'm amazed by how he actually persisted so long to attempt. Not that I want him to do so.

I actually come off hating the author somehow, cause the MC used to be so bubbly, innocent, and sunny. Also, the fact that MC even started to doubt his own existence, where he felt that he exists and at the same not, it's just so sad. At first, thinking how he had gone bad just for the plot is infuriating but knowing the reason is much more heart wrenching.

Speaking of heart wrenching, I was actually happy that he atleast got his family back. It's so touching that a mother's love is really so great. But despite having them all back, it's so sad to read how he act so unfamiliar with the place he used to be so familiar with, A. K. A his home, good thing it all ends well.

Xie Luyu being the ML come off quite controversial, mainly because of the years of neglect of his marriage with MC. Personally, my take in this is that he isn't to be blamed. It's not like he knew when they were married he was just informed that he got married and that's it. Even I would be selfish enough to think only about myself in this scenario. No one likes to be forced on something you didn't want especially something crucial as marriage.

Anyways, I was actually doubting whether he's the ML or not. Cause the way his character is simple come off as a side character one. I mean, maybe because most of the MLs I read aren't as full of emotions as he was. Actually, Cheng Ke (the first person who made MC realized that his existence is real) gives more the ML vibes for me haha!

Also, I actually expected them to be back with each other after ML knowing that they were married. But it's actually more fitting for MC to have the reason to live the most. Cause if they do actually get back together in that part, it's more of MC being dependant on ML's company and might not even be a love in the first place.

Next is the key part, where ML's existence itself is the reason for MC's 'transmigration.' I actually interpret it as somehow the universe doing a favor for ML not to meet his downfall again after what happened in the OG world. I mean, as far as I understand it. When MC died in his world he was still in school and ML was still building up his career. The same timeline MC 'transmigrated' to, where MC was cut off his studies to be married off to ML that was on the peak of building career. It's seem to me that the world is compensating the ML for his grief when MC died in the real world.

Anyways, it was never ending cycle of rebirth in some sense. The difference is that from the previous rebirths MC just end up dying. While the difference that happened in this timeline is MC remembering his past life. Making it more prone to depression.

Lastly, it was really such a thoughtful and full of intent writing. The way they find their way to each other and the execution of their love is all.

I think I pretty much said most of my thoughts above but let me just put more here.

The way how it goes to become a somehow 'The beginning of the end' type of story is such an unexpected one. I think this is the only story that I have read so far, that actually answered why MC has transmigrated, in such a unique reason.

Additionally, the sudden fall of the story kind of shocked me. I actually expected a shallow fluffy story about ML regretting that he divorce MC. But it's more psychological than that. I'm feel so scammed cause it seems so harmless and silly type of story. Still, I'm glad I read it. Cause it's such a good story especially, about mental health awareness, reading how many could relate to it simple shows how accurate and intent full the author wrote this story.