the scum ex-bf lost the mobility of his lower body, his reputation, his appearance, his sanity, and his passion for filming. Everything that he used to care about is gone, he doesn't have a future anymore.

Meanwhile the white lotus 'good brother' lost his place in entertainment cycle, and in the end he got stabbed by robbers (??) And after that I forgot, cuz by the end of the story they are merely canon fodders, not important in MC life

this MC has serious trust issues after what happened the first time and it affects how they grow as a couple. There's no "I'm reborn after a betrayal but am somehow still nieve, trusting and innocent" characters here.

No awards ceremony confession; a tired trope often used in the BL entertainment genre to end a story, usually followed by a huge wedding. I don't understand the burning need everyone has to come out and declare their ownership of their partner on international tv (usually done at the Oscars or Golden Globe). Do other people really find that romantic?

by the time they got back around to the movie I'd long since stopped caring one way or the other. The momentum just petered out and went nowhere.

It bugs me that he never tells anyone, especially the ML, about his rebirth, shouldering everything himself rather than sharing the burden

It's about a married actor catching his husband of 27 years together in the act with another, much younger man and beating his wayward husband with the baseball bat. He broke his teeth, bones, internal organs and smashed his pen*s. This is worse that the ancient Chinese punishment of beating a person's ass with a board! After that he ordered him to meet him a week later in the Netherlands in order to divorce! Obviously, their marriage is not recognized in China, so the guilty party would get nothing afterwards.

For some reason, most reviewers and all commenters love that scene of brutal spousal violence. Like it's their dream come true. Do readers really think that consensual s*x between adults outside marriage deserves such response, no matter who did it, a wife or a husband? We all wish to kill the bastard, but how many of us would act on that feeling? One loving spouse actually beat another spouse into a pulp with a baseball bat? A husband being another husband's judge, jury, and executioner? After thirty years of impeccable love and mutual devotion?

Next, that young lover mu*dered the actor and his soul transmigrated into another actor's body. So, he continues his career as an actor and finds himself another husband. His new husband does not know, of course, about his beau's violent streak. The actor never tells him about who he really is, his true age (50, not 20), or what he did to his first husband.

He never actually seeks revenge on the cheating husband or the mu*derer, well... besides beating his husband so agressively that he will never be able to have s*x or function normally in his life ever again, which is surprizing for a character in a Chinese novel. Usually it is a revenge driven life afterwards.

Nor does he ever feel that he did something wrong when he used that baseball bat on a couple in the middle of their pleasant encounter. Instead, the two men who sneaked away to have s*x while he was working just desintegrate, each on his own gets his life ruined in one way or another. The cheating husband truly grieves the loss of his beloved and regrets, but not enough to expose the mu*derer and his own homosexuality to the public.

Maybe the ML was guilty of investing too much in other people, one was a movie director he invested 30 years of care and hundreds of millions in, another - a young fresh meat he invested in as his younger brother, a protege. He invested so much that he felt that they were his property, that he bought their loyalty? So after his death neither the old movie director (the widowed cheating husband), nor the young actor (the director's lover and a mu*derer) made it in life.

Anyways, the ML and just about everyone else are portrayed as hard working professionals and rather normal people, nobody perfect. To me, this novel was missing something, maybe some good deeds or purpose, although seeing a 50years old man surviving devastation and starting from scratch is sort of heroic, of course. The problem is that he got an incredible advantage this time - a new body blessed by gods (he was not beautiful nor young before) and God-level skills in acting, singing, dancing, high EQ and IQ, etc. So it was a smooth sailing for him. The only challenge he faced was to believe in eternal love again after his first marriage failed. But his new hubby managed to convince him to take the risk. Their first kiss was when both were accidentally drugged (smoked pot) in ch 52, but that was not the moment when they got together or one began the pursuit of the other. This is a v e r y slow burn romance with a v e r y reluctant pair of participants.

In short, well written, very well translated, full of great insights into entertainment industry and fandom works, but missing something special that would make me feel happy or touched by grace as I was reading it.

Secondly, why does the movie have to be about male supermodels?! Like honestly, was it just a convenient tool to use so that the author could have MC appear in fashion shows and once again appear with the damned ML. Like cmon, there's no such thing as a male supermodel in the first place. If you look at the earnings of the top models in the world, they're ALWAYS just WOMEN. Male models just aren't that as influential or sought after compared to female models. It doesn't even make sense as subject matter.

I was also especially irritated with the scene whereby they were in the water but ML took the opportunity to try to slide his hand into MC's pants and also changed the scene so he kissed MC. MC hadn't made up his mind about their relationship at that point and it was literally in front of camera crew and staff and they were doing a scene. Honestly if MC liked it or something, fine. But. He. Didn't. So that's just ML taking advantage of the fact MC can't reject him without ruining the scene and alerting the crew. That's literally mol*st and harassment.