this is concerning the penetrative s*x scene in chapters 30-31.

MC was feeling bad and decided to break apart from the ML. The process was quite dumb though, to be precise, he said he hated the ML. But the ML, Alfred, realizes that MC, Lian, is lying and they make up. But the MC is still feeling bad about it and ML decided to exploit that, he basically has his way with Lian, even though the latter was clearly not ready. To give Alfred benefit of the doubt, Lian did somewhat agree, despite that consent being half-forced. But during their second round, MC was clearly protesting but ML didn't heed him at all.

Next chapter starts, it's morning and we find out Alfred apparently f*cked him until he was unconcious and still continued raping him even after that. At the very least to me the way that whole thing read was nothing but r*pe.

I'm not gonna play a saint, I'll just be frank, I'm a disgusting bit*h who has a r*pe kink, but even I, who's usually taking pleasure in reading forced s*x scenes, couldn't enjoy it. It's hard to put my feelings into words but I'll do my best to explain my reasoning: when you see a work with r*pe in it (at least the ones I have seen), they're quite self-aware, it's just a fetish not meant to be written into reality, but when reading this it felt like what happened was supposed to amplify (?) the fluffiness of the novel, it's written as if it's a normal thing.

First and foremost, the MC's reaction is really off, being all blushy and whatnot. Idek at this point if he has a r*pe kink or not. The novel is written in 1st person POV and we clearly see his thoughts of not wanting to do it illustrated, but despite that he just goes along with it. Author writes that Lian is planning to "punish" Alfred but whatever he thinks of can't even be considered as one. He doesn't even get mad at the ML cuz he still feels guilty. He's clearly guilty tripping himself and author is trying to write a fluffy novel out of this f*cked up bs?

Reading that, I felt like I wondered into a twisted and dark world. But it wasn't darkness intentionally created, for example when you deliberately turn the lights off, it felt as if I was wondering in the forest and suddenly the sun itself lost it's glow, shrouding everything into utter darkness. Intentional or not, darkness existed, but when you know that you can't just flick a switch for lights to come back on, it's rather scary. In this case, that scary feeling sprouted into disgust.

MC was drugged and almost r*ped, but he made it out in time. However, in ML's process of getting revenge for MC, without MC's consent he spreads the news that MC was actually grossly r*ped and "ruined". Sure it's spread to a small circle, but that's still all the upper brass of an imperial knights group. MC is noble, yet ML just casually ruins his reputation.

They had an agreement regarding snusnu like proper teenagers adulting (lol) and once they do the deed? They do it a FREAKING lot. I’m fed, I’m well-watered.

Just his few insecurities about his impending death, or if fate would drive the ML away from his side no matter how much the MC loved him (this is why the actual confirmation of relationship got dragged on; the MC was scared he would be tossed away once the FL arrives)

(E.g., when MC got kidnapped by the Church and ML had to save him, and the showdown of the awaited demon flood that wrecked their village)

A lot of cliches like ML being actually the inheritor of a kingdom by receiving his powered up sword he used in the game (like Arthurian Mythology), MC being hailed as the “angel” of the goddess due to her constant interference in trying to save his life bc he doesn’t wanna abandon the village, ML being OP, MC being drugged and about to be assaulted and escaping to ML’s arms and first snusnu happens, etc. AND THEY GET MARRIED;;

Alfred keeps abusing Lian's trust and will.

Lian keeps saying things like No, Not Now, I'm not ready, Please Stop, Wait; and Alfred says he's gonna respect his limits but doesn't really do it, he always finds a reason to bypass that in some way, be it by a kiss, a touch, or something more. He doesn't really listen to Lian, and during their first night not only did he keep going until Lian was unconscious, but the next day he even forced the situation again, even though Lian obviously wasn't in the best state nor was he really willing. I hate this.

And you can't claim ambiguity. Lian always says no and he's always uncomfortable with the initiations and their continuity. And no, the fact that Alfred doesn't physically hurt and gives him pleasure doesn't erase the fact that he's an as*hole who cares more about his c*otch than the reality that his partner isn't ready to do things at the same time and pace as himself.

since he only discovered about Marie and the Goddess being unconscious much too late

When MC is forced down by the captain of the Knights, and his cocaptain helps him do so with drugs, their punishment is demotion and being sent to the front lines... ?????? Two grown adults planned to drug and do a child, and the worst they get is demotion? I understand that in their world the front lines might be dangerous, but that doesn’t mean its a punishment. It’s horrible how MC and the new head knights also do barely anything to make up for it. The new heads apologise and ask if MC needs anything, but thats it. MC also says the one thing he wants is support. He almost got pushed down and forcefully taken by a man who was a grown adult, while he was only, what 13-15?? Then is told they can get anything the knights can give as an apology, yet makes one small request, when he could have done more for not only himself but his ability to save the town.

It happens again. When Shwede, the dawn haired Knight comes around, he very clearly shows his interest in MC, which gave me the creeps because ML made their relationship VERY obvious. Despite the relationship that is very obviously strong and important to both of them, mentally and physically, he tricks MC by having gained trust with him, and drugs MC so that he can kidnap and chain MC against his will. This makes no sense, because never did we see a possessive kidnapper in him before this. Sure, Shwede was the wedge that appears during the honeymoon stage of love, but he was only ever this possessive and deaf to the pleading of MC after he kidnapped him. NOT ONLY THIS!!! MC realises that Shwede wont release him, and is being pushed around. He has a choker that restricts his magic and strength, but he can still resist, yet doesnt. At one point (The ending of Chapter36p5) Shwede offers MC a drink, and MC refuses because he doesn’t trust him anymore. Then, Shwede begins to talk about how he’ll definitley help MC get back to the village, and how his boss is very scary, so it will take a long time. MC, despite being one of the smartest and hardest working people around... believes him, and they laugh together. Lo and behold, when MC then drinks the drink he refused not even 5 minutes earlier, he learns that it’s drugged.

*trigger warning*

The MC was basically sexually assaulted by some knight, the way the dad was revealed to be a part of it and how the MC kind of forgave the father, even after the misunderstanding was cleared. It made me even more angry at how the others reacted, and how the knights basically told him to hush because the assailant was a descendant of the royal family, throughout saying he was an angel and a saint for forgiving them.

Then this matter was brushed off like it was nothing, and it felt like this whole part of the story was basically just to get the knights to assist in patrolling the village, and to further emphasize the angelic and sweet personality of the MC. It was handled way too lightly. I'm not going to even start with the questionable smut scene with the ML after MC ran away from the hotel under the affect of the drug.

to be fair, maybe this is going to be addressed after a few chapters but I doubt it, and I cannot bother to continue reading to check.

MC runs away and gets to ML. The people he's with see that he looks like he was r*ped, and they give him a room, in which he hides, his spirits clearly crushed. Enter ML. He prepares a both for him, and let's him take it. The MC was dragged with an aphrodisiac, so he can't calm down. After leaving the bath, he's still h**ny, and the ML wants to ask him about who did it, but the MC doesn't want to say.

So, what would you do if your best friend (they weren't together yet) almost gets r*ped, is under the effect of a drug, and presumably isn't in the right state of mind, as he doesn't want to say who it is (which you can assume happened because of shame, guilt, anger, or other emotions that come with such a traumatizing experience) ? Would you:

A - comfort him and asks if he needs help with the poison

B - Say that this is very important, because you have to know who did it, while also offering help with you know what

C - Put him to bed to make sure that his mind is clearer once you converse

D - any other sensible thing.

Well, the ML, in his infinite wisdom, picked option E: r*pe him and deny his or**sm until he tells you who did it. What? Am I hallucinating? There is now way that happened.

And yet it did.

There's an almost-r*pe scene between MC and scumbag captain, which turns into slight dub-con between MC and ML that thankfully becomes consensual before the heavy stuff. I'm not sure if the r*pe tag should even be there, since the almost-r*pe didn't progress beyond the drugging and some mol*sting.

His brother was weird enough at the start when I thought he was just a simple brocon, but then he turns into an actual in*estous pe*vert. I can't tell if the author is just into in*est or is commenting on the "MC has an older brother with a sibling complex" trope. There was also the grandpa, which originally I was going to excuse as just bad wording since he didn't do anything, but after the brother and the shitty knight guy I have 0 trust left.

>MC is drugged with an aphrodisiac that also leaves him weak. MC is a MINOR at this time.

>A character who is introduced a little bit before ch.18, who is an adult in a military position of power, attempts to r*pe the MC after drugging him.

>A secondary character, also an adult in a military position of power, supplied the drugs and leaves the room knowing the MC will be r*ped.

>MC fights off the rapist and gets away, before any penetration occurs.

>MC runs to the ML for help. The MC is still aroused as a result of the aphrodisiac, so ML jacks him off. The consent in this situation is Dubious, but it is framed as essential and non-threatening.

>ML reports the matter to some military officials in a different squad, and the Rapist and his accomplice are punished and MC does not face them again.

>It is also revealed, the MC's father allowed the meeting to happen and was paid for it. BUT he did not know MC would be r*ped, he assumed MC was being recruited. He feels guilty and basically obeys w/e his MC asks of him from that point.

>ML asks for pardon for his father, misunderstanding and under the belief his father was sex-trafficking children. This is not true.

>Something also important: ML lies when reporting the matter, he reports the r*pe did occur. He did this without asking MC. This was done so to keep the MC from being married off to anyone, selfishly.

>How the MC was talked about in regards to the (assumed) assault was disgusting and horrible, and it was right in front of him. I would Highly recommend anyone sensitive to s*xual assault topics AVOID this.

>I want to make a point to say: Being sexually assaulted, does not dirty the victim or 'ruin' them. This is sadly a common misconception, that is both false and evil frankly.

>TLDR; this section handles an attempted r*pe and the aftermath. While the victim is given justice, how the r*pe victim is described as a result of the (believed) r*pe, IS HORRIBLE.