A Wish to Grab Happiness


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Lugis is an adventurer who accompanies the Hero’s team party. However, every day he has to fulfill tasks that are not pleasant at all. In addition, he is oppressed by the other members of the group. The only reason he remains on this journey is because of his childhood friend, Ariane. But she is fascinated with the team leader known as Hero. One day a shadow figure appears and tell Lugis, “Let me give you a chance. A chance to redraw your life.” And so, Lugis is given the opportunity to be sent to the past to restart his life.

Associated Names
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As For Me, Give Me Happiness
Negawakuba no Kono te ni Koufuku wo
Related Series
Tate no Yuusha no Nariagari (WN) (1)
The Amber Sword (1)
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05/31/20 TOMO Translations v4c77
05/24/20 TOMO Translations v4c76
05/17/20 TOMO Translations v4c75
05/10/20 TOMO Translations v4c74
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04/26/20 TOMO Translations v4c72
04/19/20 TOMO Translations v4c71
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04/05/20 TOMO Translations v4c69
03/29/20 TOMO Translations v4c68
03/22/20 TOMO Translations v4c67
03/15/20 TOMO Translations v4c66
03/08/20 TOMO Translations v3c65
03/01/20 TOMO Translations v3c64
02/23/20 TOMO Translations v3c63
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New Aozorah rated it
May 18, 2020
Status: v3c52
If you like OP MC, and hates pathetic/loser MC, then you shouldn’t bother reading this.

I really liked the story at first mainly for the reason that the MC is really trying his best to change his pathetic past, but it went down past volume 2 when he met the sorc and the hero. Why the hell would you party up/interact with the people you hated the most to the point you wanted to redo your life? It’s just plain s*upid. The premise isn’t even revenge but a chance to change... more>> himself.

The reason that made me stop reading this past volume 3 is because the MC keeps doing s*upid things that only implicates his new life, it’s too idiotic.

And the thing that bothers me the most is the MC’s reason for hating the hero, which is him being popular with the female party members and being jealous because even his “childhood friend” liked the hero, which apparently the MC neglected when they separated in the orphanage and didn’t bother sending her letters because of his ego of wanting to become a great adventurer, and then he expects his childhood friend to return his unrequited love when they reunited in the hero’s party? Ffs, the story is so s*upid. I just cannot related to the MC at all, he’s just too pathetic, no offense.

I just cannot help but think that the author is just venting his past frustration for being unpopular. <<less
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New tfate rated it
May 8, 2020
Status: v16c499
Well, reading 500 chapters took a while, but thanks to this quarantine I was able to do it. Lol.

The MC started as an average person, but this didn't stop him to try to achieve his goals, his struggles just made him stronger, with the help of the heroines as well the MC was able to become strong to fight some demons.

Is the MC OP? Well, yes and no. Even though he got stronger there are still enemies stronger than him, the MC keeps on moving forward and endure gruesome battles... more>> to defeat his enemies.

Yandere Harem, the heroines are actually on the gray are of "Yandere" they are very obsessed and dedicated to the MC, but they didn't want to go against MC's decision. Actually the heroines are very different compare to the first timeline, maybe because the MC was able to save them before they get "broken". Their character development is quite great as well, though most of their development is because of their love to the MC, a distorted, but pure love. Even the side heroines are well developed

Now let's talk about the MC. The MC remains a prisoner of his past, he have a hard time responding to the feelings of the heroines because he still remembers the humiliation he experienced in his previous life even though the heroines now are totally different compare to the first timeline. Despite the character development of the heroines it seems like the character development of our MC is not developing at all! It's been 500 chapters and he still stuck on his past. This is why the romance is struggling to go to the next phase.

There are parts that are very entertaining and there are parts that are very tiring. Specially when the arcs gets dragged that it needed to be and sometimes it's just battles after battles after battles which is somehow tiring.

In the latest Chapters MC lost his memories and became a demon. The silver haired heroine is using this chance to snuggle and to develop the feelings of the MC for her. I love the battles of the latest chapters.

Is it worth the read?

To be honest some people will love this and some people won't. Take to time read few volumes of this novel and decide it yourself.

--Some people here are saying the MC didn't take a different path compare to his first timeline. I assure you he took a very different path.

Spoiler about the Hero


The hero's voice has the power to sway someone's heart just like the goddess, but this wouldn't work on the heroines anymore since they already found their happiness thanks to the MC

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magefeanor rated it
March 31, 2019
Status: v1c15
A story about a wronged man going back in time to start anew. Sounds familiar right?

Well if that doesn’t sound too appealing, this will be the perfect series for you.

Because he aint changing anything. Spoilers ahead.

... more>>

He still gets f*cked over by his guild master.

He lets his crush leave for the church, she clearly doesn’t want to, to presumedly once again become a party member of the hero.

The female knight that beat him and hates him still beats him and hates him.

Nobles trample all over him

He whines constantly about his former life and how this time around will be different.


Either the author has the memory of a gold fish or he clearly doesn’t care about the plot he established in the beginning.

Perfect story for anyone that loves pathetic mc’s that constantly gets f*cked over.

I don’t. <<less
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macy2 rated it
July 21, 2019
Status: v3c47
For anyone looking for revenge galore and all the typical tropes in a second chance story; this is not for you. As of V3c47 at least.

This novel, in my opinion, offers a realistic take. Yes, our MC is useless, and arguably wimpish male that sacrifaces his happieness to be by his childhood friend's side (his crush). This decision puts him in the hero's party where everyone is highly competent and amazing; except him. And so, scorned and dismissed by the entire party (which is a harem), the MC is unhappy... more>> and resentful of the righteous great hero (who represents all that is good and righteous, but is ignorant). Btw the childhood friend is no better either; purposely (in my opinion) ignorant of his circumstances she is 'greatful' he stayed by her side but shows no consideration for him at all.

And so a second chance is given and he returns to the past. And the MC vows to pursue a different path. First of all, in contrast to the comments saying he doesnt change anything; that is false. It may not be flashy or grandiose like all other novels. But the MC actively tries to better himself training as an adventurer. He does use prior knowledge and is smarter. The only difference is that the changes currently are subtle and unnoticeable. He is more proactive and stands up for himself. After all not everyone can have an indestructible plot armor that allows them to make society changing decisions. The MC who is still powerless and weak starts off with himself.

Along his pursuit of a better life. He makes some decisions using past life knowledge and becomes embroiled with one of the hero's future party members. And the actual story starts.

All in all, this a slower story with a weak, trampled-on MC who has no power in society. There is not much action either. The appeal lies in its realistic take and the character explorations. Throughout the novel the MC repeatedly and scornfully recalls the future female party members viewing him as dirt. The ones in his 2nd chance (pre-hero party era) are vastly different from the future. Through these new interactions before the hero came along, we see what drives thier personalities in the future and why they hang off the hero. As well as the subtle changes the MC causes.

For anyone who wants a novel with some actual deeper substance and plentiful character growth (and building) this is a novel worth checking out. (Btw the first party member he encounters is pretty unlikable, please keep that in mind)

Once again this is slow moving plot; even at vol.3 not much has actually happened or been revealed. The above is my take on the novel so far and may be subjected to changes in the future. <<less
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Zunas rated it
May 28, 2019
Status: --
Novels with Second Chance titles mostly defines the MC is changing what they had done wrong, or trying to.

Now This MC, doesn't even try to change the past, and let it play it out over.

Not worth your time

i don't like pathetic/dumb/weak MCs, no offence
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Andrew_Ligas rated it
July 11, 2019
Status: v2c29
A good hook - the author sets up the uncomfortable situation, and then the opportunity presents itself. Obviously, the MC grabs it. As other reviewers' mentioned, it has a slow start, but worth it. The change in the MC is subtle, but by the point of this review you can see changes in his character and the others. The MC is weak with an angry victim mentality - he wants revenge, and the Second Chance gives him that opportunity. With this kind of story, I think the author can introduce... more>> more mature elements (violence and sex) without affecting the R-15 label.

As for the translator, he does a good job to maintain a flow with few, if any, distracting mistakes; the only downside is that I have to wait about a week to read a chapter.

Finally, I think this series is good enough that a publisher might want to pick-up. <<less
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Lanboy rated it
February 12, 2020
Status: v3c61
Much can be said about this story, but I will say this: a quality story and effort.

The protagonist is realistically a nobody who simply gets caught up in the torrent of bigger and unforgiving forces. He starts off bitter towards his traveling companions, but when he goes back that all changes. He learns how miserable the companions were and by understanding that, the reader and later the protagonist understands why they are bitter towards a nobody like the protagonist and dependant on the "hero" who is literally an ideal hero... more>> who can give the insecure companions security they desperately want.

The author invests most of the story to the characters playing off each other and their stories to varying degrees of success. The characters are well designed and developed to the point where the interactions between the main characters and the more developed side characters are fluid and seamless.

The first companion the protagonist meets is the most cruel and hateful of the bunch, bitter about much and prideful to cover the bitterness. The author carefully changes these aspects of her bit by bit as she is developed along side the protagonist; as the first aspect that is the same with both of them: bitterness towards various things, and both have their bitterness morph into understanding and action.

The second companion met, the mage, is brought along with the main antagonist, the hero, who in this story is a very firm believer of justice (more about him later) . The mage, like the swordswoman, has a variety of problems that make her miserable.

The side characters are excellent, they don't step out of line, act realistically, and feel like they're always doing something. Sometimes the author very briefly let's their perspective be seen. They enrich the story and progress the plot. However they can sometimes do something unnatural, in my opinion, in perspective of their situation.

Now the hero, the author quickly destroys the illusion of him being a believer in "justice" through the protagonists experiences. The hero believes in a different kind of justice than the one someone would assume. The entire part about the poor person's cave shows this. The hero is purposely made to be firm in his beliefs and firm in enforcing those beliefs. By nature, the hero is unrealistic and irrational and the protagonist is also irrational but the author shows how the protagonist is more human and realistic. He knows how little influence he has and tries to compensate for it while the hero doesn't understand the extent of his influence and power as he one-sidedly enforces his justice on everyone. Which brings the story to where it is now in regards to development and behavior.

Overall, I highly recommend this story to any interested in reading a story that brings a interesting premise and story. <<less
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chios rated it
March 17, 2020
Status: --
Giving this 5 stars because I love yandere so much, and like many other people who think MC is pathetic or something else, I don't really like MC as well at the beginning. But once you genuinely understand what this novel is trying to tell us, you won't feel bad to MC anymore. He is a great hero even he doesn't think so (many people seem to write comments before they reach the middle without realizing the merits of mcs)

Yandere is the justice btw.
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fierylion rated it
January 10, 2020
Status: v3c56
You can safely ignore the reviews that said the MC changed nothing. It's true that major events (his childhood friend leaving, meeting party members) still took place, but the dynamics and developments of those events differed greatly. Unlike other restart novels where the MC flips the world upside down just by flicking his finger, this novel focuses on discovering his party members pasts and how they and the world around him gradually changes due to his actions.

Overall I think it's an enjoyable read.
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pramit rated it
October 29, 2019
Status: v3c45
The prologue starts off in a very interesting direction. Here the story is told from the perspective of someone who is not the "hero" of the group. But as the story progresses, our protagonist goes somewhat out of character (at least from his impression in the prologue). The story is written in a very visceral way, with vivid descriptions of inner feelings of the protagonist. If you will read this story, it will probably be just for the protagonist who is an interesting fellow.

The quality of writing is good (for... more>> this genre). The translation is good, but there are some minor mistakes in sentences/grammar that are really easy to notice (could be avoided if someone proof reads the translations).

I can see the reviews here that talk about how the protagonist does not change anything, but that is blatantly false and I don't understand why people make conjectures about the story after reading 15 chapters. <<less
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0RB rated it
March 10, 2020
Status: v3c65
The story is abit rough around the edges at the start but It start to shine around vol2. I say the story is interesting albeit sort of cliche but it still hold up.

The plot armor is a tad strong in that the main character seem to be able to prevail in someway in albeit hopeless situation. Maybe the story will tell us more about how he is able to prevail or survive in the future chapter.
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AoiRii rated it
January 28, 2020
Status: --
This is my first time writing a review for a novel in this site. This novel is quite good in my opinion. Although lacking in some aspects such as details over major plot points which is actually the only flaw I can point out, I like how the story is progressing albeit slow paced.

I like how the MC is not like the usual and typical character of tipping the tables over with a sudden power acquired after traveling to the past. It is a more realistic take in my opinion... more>> that the author did not give the MC a cheat power of some sort after traveling back to the past (not sure if this will still be the case in the future, hopefully not) but I would like to see how he improves himself as an adventurer. The only thing I am bothered is the fact that his purpose for traveling back is to meet and whisk away his childhood friend from the ropes of the past (referring to the previous timeline where the childhood friend is interested/in love with the Hero) but I guess this is needed for him since it is his only motivation to change how his life progresses into the future.

I do not understand why some people are saying that the MC is not actually trying to change anything. The little changes seen in the personality of his former party members and their behaviour towards him are enough to be considered as proof of a change already. In this new timeline, he is able to meet two of his former party members in advance as opposed to meeting them probably when joining/forming the Hero's Party. He is given the chance to see and affect how their personalities will develop into the future based on the choices he will make involving the two.

I just hope this will not be a harem in the future (my only concern to be honest lol) <<less
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Bourne91 rated it
November 14, 2019
Status: v3c47
Not the usual isekai/fantasy novel. Slower then other ones but it's worth reading if you are searching for a more mature take of the trope. The MC isn't op and does everything he can to survive and get to his goals, even dirtying his hands and using people. That doesn't mean he is the typical Edge Lord MC but that he is just a weak human trying to live. If you are in to a more serious fantasy where the MC isn't op from the beginning then I strongly recommend... more>> it. If you are searching for an op MC or harem or gore revenge story then this is not for you. <<less
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shin_202 rated it
May 6, 2020
Status: v2
I thought this novel would be nice. However everything seems so forced and s*upid. I stopped reading it after starting volume 2. Here are the reasons:

1. The MC is s*upid. Everything that he does doesn't make any sense. It only puts him on a disadvantage.

He saves the knight in her house arrest even though he knows that in the future she will be fine. Why still associate w/ her if you truly don't like her.


2. He should be avoiding people or kill them if he truly hates them. If you really hate someone will you associate with them?

He group up w/ his 3 hated person again so that he can tell the readers how he envied the hero and how the others don't treat him nicely before.


3. Is he a tsundere? He acts and talks like it.

Saying he hates her, but she will get a scar if that monster hit her so he saves her. WHAT the F***.


Only 2 volumes and it already pissed me so much.
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Bucj rated it
April 28, 2020
Status: v4c1
Its really slow, and I get the fact that its very annoying to see a wimpish MC;but this one here is probably one of the few novels with slow burn and pseudo-realistic development.

It almost feels like a real novel and not a power trip literature;not a really good novel mind you, but passable
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Nightwing rated it
March 16, 2020
Status: v1c11
I would give it a 2, but in consideration of the fact that I'm dropping it fairly early, I'll give a 3 star to not mess with the ratings too much.

The translation is rough around the edges and the writing style in monotonous (which tbf a lot of Japanese novels struggle with). There's no cheat or level system- fine. Not using his previous life's knowledge to change things (love interest shipped off out of reach with some pretty dark undertones) - not so fine.

But the main thing is that, so... more>> far, he hasn't made any plans to drastically alter the course of his life. A minor theme to show his lack of change would be that he immediately restarts a bad habit (chewing) from his old life right away. So my problem I guess is that the MCs personality just sucks, and it doesn't look like changes are coming. <<less
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DeirdreH rated it
January 19, 2020
Status: v2c26
This story is mostly ok. I like the dark setting so far. The problem is that major plot points appear to be missing and the flow of the narrative is an incoherent mess.

Time skips are one thing, but this author likes to jump backwards and forwards in time repeatedly in the same chapter. It gets annoying after a while.

Another problem is that, either to do unclear writing on the author's part or due to weakness of the translation, major plot details are entirely missing.

Why did Ninz agree to help Lugis?... more>> I read the chapter where they negotiated the deal three times and I still can't figure out what Lugis exactly is offering Ninz to get her to agree to provide help. How does she benefit? The chapter is full of implications and impressions, but the actual details of what is being agreed to are missing.

When Lugis's group meets up with Filaret's group for the first time, which group is being hired and which group is the employer? Half the clues in the story make it look like Lugis is hiring Filaret, and the other half indicate that Filaret is hiring Lugis. It shouldn't be so difficult to understand those kinds of plot points.

Whether the problem lies with the author or with the translator, the quality of this story suffers from the lack of detail. <<less
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