First, the MC treated the world as a novel world, aka unreal, and thus everything he did before his death was to "advance the plot" and he doesn't have much sympathy or feelings to other characters including the ML. It feels like he was just playing with him (and his "last words" just simply pissed me off, why, because he just want the scene to be more dramatic and have more impact *screams*). I get that the author set that on purpose, because MC has not realized how real his current world is and to motivate ML. But that doesn't mean I have to like it.

My biggest problem is with ML though. His blackened self after MC's death is just... too much. My usual read of blackened protagonists are usually just extremely vengeful but not completely unreasonable and would spare innocent people type. This ML though, I just can't (my personal preferences though, feel free to disagree).

ML just doesn't care about other's fate. Even his post rebirth he is already cruel enough (he push ori!FL, who was a legit stranger who have never met, to the river simply because he doesn't want to "share" MC), but God, how extremely selfish and unreasonable he is after MC's death. How he acts pitiful to MC to garner sympathy after he did some heinous things is just... ugh. He knows he is in the wrong and his kind shizun will disagree with him, but he still did it and ask forgiveness afterwards "knowing he is wrong" and try to shift the attention to "so shizun doesn't like me, I am sad". In the end it went from "ML did something wrong" to "ML is pitiful and needs to be comforted". It always happens and everytime it did, I scream a little bit inside.

And I really detest his treatment towards Chu zhishi. What exactly did he, and also ori!FL, do to ML to deserve torture? Him breaking ML's right hand isn't without reason (imagine your respected older brother figure died protecting the cultivators+ML+ML's father, and his disciple hogging his corpse and not letting him go, and while you are grieving, ML's father threatened to chop off that respected brother's hand. Not a good idea to break his hand to pry his corpse, but justifiable to me). He *can* heal that broken hand fairly easily. He f*cking can but he chose not to as if to say, you wronged me so now I will let the world know what you have done to me and I will remember this for the rest of my life. I get he was grieving, MC was his light and all, but CZS is still his martial uncle who had good realtionship with MC, and didn't do anything to ML without reason. Even after seeing MC's stance against him regarding CZS and ori!FL, he still kept pursuing them. Not to mention ori!FL was there with good intention, because she thought ML was going to kill MC and was just trying to save him. Basically, anyone who tries to "occupy" his shizun time are enemies who deserve to die, and so are people who had "slighted" him. Even if shizun disagree, who cares because once I act pitiful shizun will forgive me. Shizun denying me anything? That is an illusion and I am free to do whatever I want to him because there is *no way* his kind shizun would say that to him.

Also how the r*pe is depicted and their reactions are somewhat unsettling to me. I mean I get that a lot some novels have dub-con or non-con (that usually is made light of) but I usually chose to just try to ignore it, but somehow with this one, it just doesn't sit well with me no matter how hard I tried to ignore it, because you know, fiction. How MC was suffering kept on being forcefully lightened and somehow ML, the rapist, was depicted more pitiful. MC being r*ped for 3 days continuously? ML acts pitiful and ask forgiveness because he thought it was an illusion, and MC f*ckin forgives him right away. He forgives faster than the speed of sound and his anger meter basically falls to 0 after ML acts pitiful. Maybe it was to make up for his treatment to ML before death, but there are things that just simply cannot be easily forgiven.

The ori!author also told MC nothing about ML mol*sting him in his "drugged" sleep and, after discovering ML r*pe bent for MC, seems kind of perfunctory when MC asked for help and have the mentality of watching fun. The 3 day r*pe event while MC was being punished by the system (by having him maintain a slight serene immortal smile while being effin r*ped, feels disturbing.

MC forgiving ML at the drop of hat holds true for every bad thing ML did. MC tried to salvage ML's image to his victim (refering to ori!FL) is really, really unsettling to me (like bruh, after all he did to your martial brother, after he r*ped you, after he push ori!FL to river and tortured her later in the story???). What ori!FL, Tantai Meng, said to MC in response is true. It is regretable that the upright shizun persona of the MC is being tainted by having such a disciple, who he still stands for even after his crimes was exposed (kinda like, but a more serious and severe version of bear parents protecting their bear children). It really make it feels like the MC doesn't really care about anyone else beside ML despite having been "enlightened" to think that this world, and every living people in it is real. Not to mention he never really reprimand ML for what he did against others.

Tho, he's cruel to the people who hurts him, he forgives MC for trying to poison him (food allergy) ---not that the MC did it to hurt him, he just wants to escape from ML so he resorted to that.

In chapter 56 or 81. Can't remember what chapter it is the ML r*pe MC without knowing. Then later chapter he r*pe MC thinking it was illusion or something. Well, MC forgive ML as if nothing really happened. Then chapter 108.

No wonder someone give this 1 Stars. (ノಠ益ಠ) ノ彡┻━┻

Chapter 203

So far the plot become mess and ML was disadvantage because of some hidden boss. MC then think of anything that can help ml.

Their relationship soon realize. Although it not clear if they lover or not but MC allowed ML to kiss and hug him with reason.

It has very very very very VERY VERY SICKENING moments about a certain Side Character. I didn't even have any type of emotional attachment toward him BUT GOD I WANT TO KILL THE PERSON WHO HAD WRONGED HIM SO BADLY!!! FCK IM SO FCKING ANGRY!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA FCK!!! I WANT TO CRUSH STAB KICK SPIT SLASH STEP TORTURE BURN AND DESTROY THE DISGUSTING VILLAIN SO BAD!!!!

Yes, he also like to mol*st MC, that was Non-Con. He is Pe*vert and we acknowledge that. But on the actual r*pe scene, you can't truly blame him. Rather; you should HATE the FCKING SYSTEM FOR LET MC BE DEFENSELESS.

ML thought MC was an Illusion. It was mentioned he had so many Illusions about MC. His unstable power or mind came from the Lotus (s) power that was unbalanced.

That's why I said you SHOULD Hate the System for this one. The OOC warning and punishment literally stop MC for defending himself!!!

When ML realised at the end it was all real, he offered can do anything and even kill him. And that's probably why MC didn't fully blame him. Knowing what how Messed ML's mind was, as*hole System, and because he was still thinking he was in Novel and not real world to actually feel wronged (?).

puppylike and obsessive younger top, transmigrated bottom who appears cool but actually commentating on everything, bottom fake death (usually top keeps corpse for x number of years)

The last plot is so jumbled up, so rushed and lacking, I felt like it will be better if the author expanded it in more chapters. The last 15 chapters should be 50 chapters before the closure and the novel will be great.

The r*pe scene is just lazy writing, after all the effort the author put in earlier arc where the ML swore he wouldnt hurt and force the MC, but then he got affected with hallucination and MC was forced to accept r*pe by the system because the system decided that og shizun is detached of feelings, he will just smile while getting done?! WTF wat kind of logic is that? No matter how unfeeling the og shizun is, how can a powerful immortal just let himself get r*pe? I can read r*pe if its done well, but here, the ML has so much potential to avoid that thing, such a waste...

i love the main characters and some of the side characters (cheese and meng meng). I feel like their character is really alive and not plain and boring.

i also like how the romance is not forced, I mean emotionally. MC does indulge in ML behaviours because he saw ML in a reader's view point, he doesnt give him any real feelings despite tolerating the ML until the end where he was forced to choose to stay btw go back to the real world or stay with the ML. I feel like this is realistic, MC can dote on the ML, but is still emotionally unable to accept a character as a love interest until he was really forced to the end even though he is already unconsciously in love with him.

I love the ML. I rarely read danmei where the ML is not that powerful master who controls all the things in the world. Mu He is a crybaby, insecure yandere with a love brain. He really put love as his greatest aim, he doesnt even care abt getting the world united or getting all the treasures. He only wanted to either died with his shizun or live together forever. He had his future and revenge planned but abandoned them all for love. I always cried because of Mu He and his sad view point.

The system being the actual author of the book he transmigrated in

The first arc with Shen You, Nie Ting, and Ming Kong, had me feeling so sad with mixed emotions.

Xie Zhi and Mu He's dynamic sort of reminds me of Shen QingQiu and Liu Binghe from SVSSS.

I liked the contrast between original Xie Zhiwei's temperament of kind and gentle as water, and Xie Zhi's, angry pufferfish.

I absolutely love the side characters. Cheese and MengMeng are so precious. I love the way Chu Zhishi smugly fans himself out like a peac*ck whenever he recieves praise, and NO ONE can possibly hate Tantai Mengmeng.

MC inner monologues and how he's acting serene with all smiles on the outside, while inwardly dissing things on the inside,

MCs thoughts about ML having his enemie's (He Zheng's) face,

How MC went from viewing the world as a novel, to (very) slowly caring for the people around him.

I loved those parts.

Xie Zhi for his indifference.

Mu He for his cruelty and his character.

The way Xie Zhi thought of Mu He and other characters through the first arc and part of the second was bordering inhumane, thinking of the female characters practically only as Mu He's personal, untouchable harem, and hugging Mu Hes thigh to win points.

I know that Xie Zhi begins to genuinely care for ML and the world later on, and I hate him for that-caring for Mu He. He forgave him so quickly and brushed it off so easily.

Mu He f***ing r*pes his shizun and then immediately acts pitifull afterwards. Was he delirious? Yes. He only did it because he thought it was a f***ing illusion. BUT WHAT? Your shizun literally appeared before you soooo many f***ing times before and you thought it was an illusions as well-but you realized its actually your shizun! SHOULDN'T YOU HAVE CONSIDERED THAT THAT MIGHT BE THE CASE THIS TIME TOO??

The way he acts pitifull to soften his shizun's heart disgusts me. He took care of you for so long, how can he be angry at you when your all like, "this desciple deserves to die" and crying so pitifully?

Mu He admits to his mistakes and Xie Zhi forgives him. I don't doubt that he feels remorsefull, but he already knew his obsession for his shizun was really getting out of hand, and still kept insisting with keeping XZ by his side, and taking advantage of every "illusion" until crossing the line.

.... and what Cheese and Mengmeng went through.

The rest of the "happy ending" extras just turn to bile in my mouth.

F*** you Mu He, I utterly detest you.

• The relationship between the author of the novel MC’s transmigrated into & the MC, himself—golden. I love their interactions with each other; I think it’s fun to read their quips back & forth.
• The internal conflict of “is this world genuine enough for me to stay?” The buildup was not bad albeit painfully slow. Shizun just took his sweet time & pondering over the same thing again & again.