it was revealed in the end that he was actually a stone that is refined to have a human form. MEANING. HE HAS NO CONCEPT OF HUMAN INTERACTION AND EMOTIONS. the entire story revolves on saving the Phoenix God A.K.A Yue Wuhuan who was trapped in this small world of Pain by the disgusting scheming demons. Since he was a Phoenix who valued purity, they defiled him over and over that he can't wake up from the "small world" he was trapped in. Yue Wuhuan had long since loved the small pure stone Qishing and would always pass by in his phoenix form at the place (in the heaven... place of gods? or something) and Qishing had long since admired him despite not knowing what love is. That is why when even An Long who was a Dragon General and Yue Wuhuan's actual friend (in the God Realm) failed to wake him up from the "small world" failed..... Qishing didn't give up. That's why he WILL ALWAYS choose Yue Wuhuan.

I also like the side characters. I adore An Long, he is like a big dog. He is suited to be ML' rival. He really like MC so I feel bad when he saw MC and ML getting close. Too bad his heartbreak made the demon able to control and corrupt him.

I also like Xiao Bai, this cute white snake is so adorable.

MC is a stone god. That is why he is cold. He loves to read and dont know how to communicate with others. His other hobby was to watch the Phoenix pass his window every day.

ML is the phonix god. His soul was captured and placed to the small world to be tormented. The Heavenly Emperor asked the other gods to save the phoenix. They lose their memories upon going to the small world and failed to save the Phoenix.

An Long, the black dragon is a close friend and sparring partner of the phoenix also failed and was stuck on the small world. He lost his merit allowing him to get controlled by the demons.

When MC found what happened to the Phoenix, he volunteered. They dont really have much hope with MC since he is cold and quite naive.

MC struggled and failed about 1350 times. But he never stopped saving the ML, even if the task was to save someone else. MC would always choose to save ML.

The MC dies when he fought with demonized AnLong. Another tasker came to kill ML, when ML found that MC died and that he will lose memory. ML almost went insane and wants to kill everyone. AnLong who became sober convinced ML to live. ML remembered something and he throw himself in the immortal flame. He reborn as the Phoenix. ML waited for 3thousand years for MC to go back. ML found from the tasker that MC may came back to do another task. ML's quest to purge the world started and he got his revenge.

After 3 thousand years, MC came back without memories and ML searched for him

Some things that made me cry:

• • MC asked ML to take care of the mouse. ML didnt know that he will be fighting An Long. When the other tasker came. The tasker destroyed the laboratory and their research. ML tried to protect the pregnant mouse MC asked him to take care of. The tasker killed it and said that MC died. ML cried. But he captured tasker. ML found that MC's purpose was to save the protagonist. ML was so devastatrd cause he think he is the wrong answer MC choose.

• • There are some past lives revealed on the novel which makes me sad. There is a time that mute MC saved the blind ML. ML became a sword master. During demon envasion the protagonist died, MC started to lose control and everyone though he was being demonized. They killed MC. When ML came home he saw MC lying on blood. MC tried to comfort ML but he is mute. He died in ML's arm. ML went berserk and killed every one.

Xiao Bai, the white snake with low IQ was able to turn into human. He became a child and calls MC father and ML as mother. ML was possesive but since he knew MC like the white snake, he took care of it. ML would bully Xiao Bai by feeding it vegetables. Lol.

When AnLong regained conciousness oin heaven realm, he decided to block his memories of the small world cause he doesnt know how to face the ML. He turn to a dragon and decided to vent his anger to demons.

Whether it's the trope of the gong vs. shou, the more powerful ML oppressing a less powerful MC, the MC or shou always virg*nal and refusing s*x, r*pe victims being grateful to their rapists, r*pe victims having no psychological shadows and jumping right back into relationships,

the yandere ML locking a "poor MC" into a black room, a yandere ML's extreme jealous, ridiculous paranoia, lack of trust,

Tropes of love rivals being absolute tr*sh, of power being equal to righteousness, of stealing and slaughter in the cultivation world, of mortals being less worthy compared to cultivators, and more

This story upends them all.

It is only by trusting again, seeing the world for what it really is, and casting off those twisted ways of thinking does the ML really find his true self.

In truth, most BL novels portray BL relationships as caricatures of het relationships. Eg. there's a "top" and a "bottom" and the "bottom" is always associated with the female role, and the "shou" is basically the woman in a het relationship.

Lots of stories have the "shou/bottom" being called "wife" and "sister-in-law" and "mom." The "shou" is also the one being doted on, the one being supported by the "gong, " just like a "wife" in a het romance novel.

It's a bit absurd that someone's position in bed literally describes their entire personality and role in a story.

These tropes are turned on its head in this story with both the ML and other side-character "gongs" being more effeminate and more beautiful than their corresponding "shous."

So no, the author doesn't look down on women or effeminate men; there are powerful and admirable women and effeminate men in the story. Rather the author wrote it as a parody making fun of these other BL tropes constantly calling men (who happened to do a certain thing in bed) female pronouns.

Sure, it can be a term of endearment, but it can also be grating to see it repeated across the board unironically in 99% of BL novels, so I can definitely get behind the author's choices.

okay so ML is incredibly jealous and possessive, edging on yandere lmao, but stops himself because he doesn’t want to upset MC even though MC knows about this side of him and even indulges him. Ml’s grudge is what causes him to be stuck in that world when it isn’t truly where he belongs. He continues to kill to get back at those who humiliated him and the MC even kills for him as well but what helps him revert to his normal self and ascend was by letting go. This is the part that I disliked.

ML endured years of s*xual ab*se. Too many faces haunt his mind. The entire world knows of his r*pe and how he’s been “used” by different men. I hate how negative the image of the ML here is. There could’ve been a more positive approach to this. I understand that this happened because demons or devils (?) were what entrapped him but isn’t that also exactly the point? The fact that he should’ve been able to defeat them instead of being forced to go passive and “let go” of his grudge to be free? I never understood why that had to be the solution to his problem when he’s a literal divine being and supposed ruler of that world and many other worlds. Anyways, in general, that he had to let go of his grudge in general to become “clean” is f*cking s*upid. When he chooses to enact revenge, he’d fall deeper and deeper into where he already was? It’s like saying SA victims are wrong for choosing to be mad and that “being the bigger person” would help them more. It’s insensitive and so ignorant that it’s maddening to think someone would so boldly put out that kind of message. Letting go of their anger won’t free victims. That won’t give them back the years they lost to trauma. Although the ml’s actions were extreme in this case, it was still an expression of his anger and his retaliation against his trauma. If the author wanted to break the cycle of violence, something else could’ve been done for ml’s character. This isn’t set in the modern world. It was kill or be killed. Not to mention, s*avery was still so casual. The ML could’ve been empowered more, giving him the time to cultivate and be known more for his cultivation rather than his reputation as a s*ave. The author doesn’t want the ML to continue on a path of anger and grudges but the mc’s death for some reason is what sends ML into a killing spree so that he realizes he was actually a phoenix. How ironic. Pick a side!!!!

all the same I love mc’s love. Even when he had to try and save the protagonist and ML at the same time and ML kept making him fail by killing the protagonist he tried again and again and never got mad at the ml. He knew the ML was like that so he just tried to work around it. Where can you find someone so patient and understanding? This extreme tenderness is what shakes ML and makes him realize that he can trust the MC. That he won’t leave him so easily, won’t think he’s dirty, and won’t look down on him for wanting to kill those who have wronged him. At least that was one good message. SA victims can still be loved and they will find a person who love them even if they’re still haunted by their trauma and still so angry because of their trauma.

if you’re a victim of SA, I hope you don’t think that “letting go” is necessary and that being angry is immature or should be avoided. You should be angry and you can be angry. But your trauma also doesn’t make you. You are still your own person and how you deal with your trauma is up to you. There is no wrong way. If anything, I just hope you get in touch with a professional because they may be able to help you more and surround yourself with people who you love. Remember that there will always be people who will love you.

He keeps on seeing himself as dirty, and he keeps on hesitating, not wanting to soil his loved one with his feelings. He also had developed some serious trust issues, but can you really blame him after seeing what he's been through? He is aware of his tendency to monopolize, and how this had caused problems to MC, but he realized that while he was willing to give everything to the MC, he never gave him his trust. Thus, he also looked to changing that aspect of himself.

when An Long came and kept messing with the ML, he barely did anything to stop An Long 😑 despite knowing about ML's trauma. Yes, the MC did protect ML from the tribulation but ugh. 😒 And the fact that the ML always has to suffer alone, I feel so bad for him (past trauma, dealing with An Long, saving MC, etc).

Like how the ML have been entered by lots/different kinds of men, and too much ab*se.

He doesn't hurts or force the MC even tho there's so much going on in his mind on what he wanted to do with the MC (y'know, like want to fk him n stuff, lock him up, etc) he holds it in cus he doesn't want to hurt him (/I really have high respect for him/).