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It was the best of times, it was the worst of times.

—— Dickens《A Tale of Two Cities》

I took my hatred and plot for revenge with me down the mire, to the depths of the abyss, and returned as a ghost of the past. I want to plant the seeds of the rotten truth, nourish their deadly thorns with fresh blood so that they grow and pierce through this civilization built on lies.

I reached the bottom of the abyss…only to find a shining star.

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Can Ci Pin
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New katiethairu33 rated it
July 24, 2020
Status: v1c24
Kill me now, I'm in love with this ML! Ah, he's so cute. Such an adorable little genius. OMG. I can't anymore. squeals I wanna squish him. He's going to be my favorite ML of all time. I can feel it.

cough I'll write something serious once I calm down.

Update 1:

... more>> Goddamn! I love MC too! He's such a badass! Priest Goddess, how do you keep creating such delicious men with steel balls? Ahhhh, I'm so smitten.

A quote of his: "If there's no alcohol, I'll drink blood."

I mean, this wasn't the serious part. I'll have to write an essay if I have to describe the extent of MC's badassery. But he's so strong! I literally have stars in my eyes~

More later.

Update 2:

I'm sobbing. Priest Goddess is vicious. I am another victim of her silent knife. No preparation. Got me when I was naked. plops down and cries

I have realized that this is going to be one of my favorites. And it's only Chapter 25 O_O I'll just leave my feelings as I read here.

It's going to be a long, hopefully spoiler free review that shows my emotional journey throughout the story. I haven't done one of these before.

Update 3:

cough The torture is way too creative in this one. And my nasty self likes it. covers face

Update 4:

MC: "No penalty = no human rights."

Ahahahaha. I'm dead. Please send me off properly. I died laughing. XD Too good.

Update 5:

You know, I usually find idealistic optimists annoying. I'm one of those and I've learned from harsh reality or you could say I've compromised to it. But the ML, he's such an earnest person. He has big dreams and he can realize them with boundless enthusiasm even in the face of war, misfortune, grief and a whole array of confounding situations. It's just so heart wrenching. I'm crying so much just because I got to read about such a brilliant person, even though he's fictional. sniffles I've decided. He's my fav ML of all time.

Update 6:

I don't think my man Zhanlu, the extremely competent AI mech got praises yet. His cold jokes are kissperfect MC & Zhanlu's camaraderie is so hilarious. Ah, I could just listen to them yapping at each other forever. OwO

Update 7:

I swear all those little ingenious schemes they come up with to survive are just so amazing. ML is like a gift giving tree that keeps on giving. And Priest humor was so on point in this one XD

Update 8:

I think most of my liking for the ML comes from the gentleness of the ML. He's like a messiah that can tame all the wild beasts using his gentleness alone. He has so much love. And even this MC with a heart of stone is rendered useless in the face of his gentleness. It's like being encompassed in the waves of the ocean. No use struggling against it. Might as well enjoy the warmth.

Update 9:

Remember what I said about the ML being gentle? He's scary when he gets angry. I mean, it's only natural though. If even someone like him can get angry you can imagine how much of an as*hole the MC was. Anyway, being with him might knock some sense into him. At least the MC needs to treasure his life more? Not be like a f*cking tyrant who would rather take down his enemies with him.

Update 10:

I thought I could keep this spoiler free but I can't. This is a minor one though.


I thought MC was a shou because of emotional issues. And while it is true that MC being unable to take care of others is part of the reason, the main reason is that MC could have broken ML with his inexperience. I mean MC honed himself into a human weapon and if he accidentally lost control or did something s*upid out of his inexperience, pleasure could easily transform into a bloody freaking nightmare. So, to save themselves from trauma during their precious first time, MC decided to handover the pleasure department to Professor Lu who enjoys finding fun experiences out of nothing anyway. It was the most unexpected reason I thought up before reading this. OwO


Update 10:

My brain's going to explode. There's more than 90 chapters left but I've already bitten through my nails, cried all my tears and am having a mini heart attack every half a page. Priest Goddess took thrilling to a whole new level. I think I need a break to cool off? I'm scared I might explode.

Update 11:

After this roller coaster ride, I'm proud to say that I'm another survivor of the infamous silent knife galore that this book presented. 20 chapters just about wrecked me. I was like a ping-pong ball that was bounced across heaven and hell. It was... unforgettable? It was worth it though. I understand why this book received that sci-fi award. This deserves to be made into a movie tbh. This is truly an epic space saga.

Update 12:

Oh no, even towards the end, why are there so many knives ah? sniffles ML grows up... He is traumatized and loses a lot of his blind optimism but he is still hanging in there and slowly heals. But, but... everything that happens is so tragic ah! It's like they can't have one second of peace! Grr!

Update 13:

MC is such a tsundere! Hahaha. He's so cute towards the end when he opens up! But jeez, there's so much thrilling stuff going on right till the last chapter. Oof. Well, the extras are extra sweet too. It ended on a perfect note. <<less
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shairiru rated it
January 6, 2019
Status: Completed
ADDED (1/19/19)

I've finished it! IT'S AMAZING. 10, 000, 000/10 stars

Plot: I'm not much of a "plot police" but I can really say the plot has been thought of very well. Something that happened very early on turned out to be such an important plot piece. The twists!! THE TWISTS. And the unfolding of past and present events too T_T Just so so so good. And if you're a fan of separation for a long time...... more>>

Yes they do get separated. SIXTEEN YEARS. And they were already a thing during that time. With MC not knowing if ML is still alive... and ML having strength because he promised MC that he will return to him no matter what, no matter where goes, and no matter how long he might be gone. He will always return to him T_T


Characters: It's interesting how you see the three major characters develop differently under the same situation of "suffering since childhood" and "having the same end goal". The way they approached situations and faced certain events truly highlighted these differences. I really love the MC's development from the bright, bouncy, naive young man that he was to what he became yet he never lost his heart, his dreams, and his goals. Truly a wonderful growing up story. Even how they dealt with relationship issues realistically... beautiful. ML's personal growth as well, how he was able to deal with the thorns that have plagued his heart for the longest time, how he is truly able to find his brightest star. I love their relationship!!!! Really healthy...

many points in the novel, you'd see them expressing how they're willing to let the other go if they'd be happier without the other yet they won't stop loving the person. And in crucial times, when they have to do their own responsibilities to save their galaxy, even when they could get separated again and they could even die, they didn't become dramatic with some "stay with me, don't leave me, let's just leave and be happy on our own"... they knew what they had to do. I like to believe they trust in each other that much that they don't have to be around each other 24/7. Really healthy.

Even the development of the secondary characters is very beautiful too!!!!

Writing: I've lost count on how many times I had legit goosebumps while reading because of certain lines. The book is full of wisdom. Makes you think about the current situation of the society... it certainly mirrors current dilemmas and it'll show you the many ways how humanity could deal with it and what will be the results.

tl;dr: Can Ci Pin is not just some BL novel, because I'm aware how some people would only read for the "BL". Can Ci Pin is way beyond that. It's a great novel wonderfully crafted, beautifully written, that just happened to have a gay couple, just as how other novels have their own het couple too yet that couple is not the main focus of the story. I think this pattern is a trademark to priest's work, and it's really great. TwT

ADDED: (1/10/19)

I'm almost halfway through and W O W. It really is a big plot and everything is so exciting! And the development between MC and ML's individual character and as a pair is *chef's kiss*. The development of the secondary characters is good, too! They're definitely not there just to add to the character but they also grow with the main characters and with the book.

Priest knows how to deliver her humor well, and she knows when to deliver the knives as well ;w; This is really a beautiful read... not just because of the cp but also because of the philosophical lines that'll make you think, the conflicts that reflect real world situations, and the imagery that'll paint you the world of Can Ci Pin vividly.


Struggling through the 60-70% that I can understand from mtl, but this is seriously so good. I highly commend priest's worldbuilding, it's what makes this book shine. Since I have no complete grasp of the plot yet, I can't really judge it already. But writing-wise, character-wise, as always, priest delivered. Even the dialogues, the lines, every is written so vividly, probably only lazy readers will complain about the worldbuilding haha

Even all the characters are precious... this has an upcoming donghua and I'm very excited to watch it ;v;

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meridianna rated it
January 5, 2019
Status: Completed
edit: I rewrote the review

to be fair, this one starts very slow. only around 10-20 chapter, the pairing is becoming clear. the plot is also starting to show. idk if people are okay about this. imo that's because the world-building in this novel is quite detailed.

the plot is.... WOW. just never expected this level from yaoi/BL. priest herself is quite acknowledged about Western literature. we can see from her previous, Silent Reading.
... more>>

in short it's a mix from Ginga Eiyuu Densetsu (military space opera) + No.6 (dystopia - utopia) + dot hack (AI rampage). the dystopian world later in novel is also a mix between Orwell's 1984 and Huxley's Brave New World. come to think, I should read those before lmao.


now about the pairing. the shou is very powerful. I mean not only in his power or talents, but also in character. I still find hard to believe this kind of man, a renowned war general, a very fierce and reckless man, with very strong mentality and very manly, very dense about feelings and romance, is a shou! albeit his face is good/beautiful, but it's the cold beauty-type okay! it's almost like I see Reinhardt (Ginga Eiyuu Densetsu) here. welp.
praise to gong who could melt this ice :)
i say, Lin Jingheng is the most coolest uke. coz only coolest is not enough!
also I like the idea in this novel, pairing is about someone who can be equal to you, not 'to protect/to be protected'.
note: Zhan Lu is a qt AI.

yep, the description is confusing. but the last one is true and beautiful if you read.

oh yeah, don't forget to check upcoming anime/donghua!! <<less
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Neelambori rated it
April 18, 2020
Status: c66
What's there not to like about a story that has good build up with enough clues to muse on, the wonderful side characters that actually have relevance and the Main Character and the Main lead acting like people of their position and not suddenly losing their minds. Logical space journey with twists to make you wish you could go in space to.

I love the fact that while being an awesome novel, retaining qualities I like in literature while still containing a BL couple as the main. I wish it was... more>> a physical book I could buy.

Sci-fi lovers must read. <<less
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sakirol rated it
June 21, 2020
Status: c102
5/5. Just read it. I would also buy it if there was a physical, translated copy.

Complex and well-written plot. Amazing world and setting. Multiple logical twists and well-placed foreshadowing. Multiple factions with reasonable personalities, backdrops, motivations. Realistic (and sometimes empty) deaths.

MC's harsh, militant personality contrasts against the ML's soft and optimistic personality. The two contrasting views are brought to the table against moral dilemmas again and again. They're the perfect foil for each other. You'll grow to love the characters so much and also hate how conflicted you feel about... more>> situations they're in. <<less
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