She spent the entire lead up to their separation trying to talk to this jackass only to be rebuffed and talked down to in a threatening manner at every turn. It's no wonder she stopped trying after receiving literally nothing but insults and contempt from him. Watching them get back together was nothing short of torturous, it felt like the author was gaslighting me during the amnesia arc where Julia has to open her heart back up and settle for him. You want to talk about no communication?? HE doesn't communicate with HER. He refuses to even give her a place holder answer for why she can't go back to the life where she was happiest. (The answer being that place is destroyed and she almost died because of her powers having a reaction to the magic/holy power therein) Any answer, even a lie to protect her Fragile Womanly Psyche is better than no answer at all, especially when it is obviously leading to her distrusting and resenting him for keeping her a literal prisoner (from her perspective) and not a convalescing patient. Which was WHAT MADE HER LEAVE IN THE FIRST PLACE.

Everybody has a tough background, but you’re the one who makes the choice of being an a**hole.

people will try to console themselves by saying, “ahh~ the ML suffered, so that’s why he did what he did.”

again, everybody suffers, but it’s our choice if we choose to harm those around us. And this c*nt knew the FL was honest, naive and sincere. So the fact that he did ALL THAT, and the while, knowing THIS, made he seem worst to me.

it’s like being understanding to wife beaters, and hiding behind the excuse that they had a tough childhood.

You see where I’m trying to get at? come on people.

the novel already starts with su*cide right off the bat. To drive someone who’s supposed to have a docile persona, to the edge... of a cliff! You got to be the devils cousin or something!

anyways, I wouldn’t watch a movie with a bunch of dogs dying, just to shed bucket load of tears; to the point where I could even grow crops with them. But this novel drive me to be curious about what the outcome would be since the FL does already in the beginning. Was I disappointed? Very much.

If you want an FL who is helplessly in love yet knows when enough is enough without being reincarnated or a different soul, if you want an ML redemption done right, if you want an ML who can finally understand that he is not needed and he has no right to blame anyone but himself for his wrongdoings after finally realising his feeling for the FL, then, this is it.

he found an aphrodisiac her father gave her to seduce him and bear a successor.

finally decides to investigate some things after the FL had a literal handprint on her face in the castle. Turns out her father slapped her, turns out she is an illegitimate child, turns out she suffered ab*se even before coming to marry him. Well done ML, finally deciding to investigate your forced marriage AFTER 5 YEARS.

she runs away around chapter 35

It's a happy ending after so much drama and so many trials. The redemption arc was really long and bumpy, but wasn't really the best. One night, when the two were together, after Fernan took Julia captive once again, he said "I can't take it anymore" and the two proceeded to have s*x, with Julia in a literally dead state emotionally. That was really unpleasant to read and it was glossed over by something like "the night of the passion continued" or something along these lines and the act wasn't mentioned anymore. The people commenting under the chapter didn't seem to pay much attention to it, so maybe it's just me being sensitive to consent and all the other formalities/basic courtesy. So yeah, the ML wasn't really sincere, even if Julia in the end thought he was. Only a few chapter away from the ending did the two come to realise they love each other and live happily ever.

This man had always protected her, but now this man looked unstable and precarious.... Now she wanted to protect him.

being forced into an arranged marriage with a daughter of the Marquis he despises, yet catching feels here and there. I'm sure it must be hard on him as he's unable to fully reciprocate his feelings without feeling like he's colluding with the enemy or wtv

There's a part where he forcefully kisses the FL to the point where she starts tearing up, and that's just one of the many atrocities he's committed.

It doesn't help when the ML is seen as a "saviour" through Julia's eyes back in the beginning of her marriage, because he had stayed by her side during a ball once as a child.

the fact that he was very reluctant to leave her so she said she would wait for him and because she never lied to him he took her at face value and then she buggered off the next morning... That right there is adding to my conflicted feelings. Ya he wasn't good to her for most of their marriage, but he knew she wasn't a liar and took her at her word so when she left and he felt betrayed I could kind of understand. Between that and his intense misery over the months she is missing at this point I'm starting to feel bad for him.

She appears to randomly have bad backlash from using the holy power to escape and he is having flashbacks, etc. It could just be me, but they seem to be tied together which would suggest they will need each other to resolve this on both sides. Maybe related to the fact that he has her pendant?

FL is the pure, ab*sed and naive type of FL so their whole interaction is ML talking shtty things and embarrassing the FL while she just stays silent and sad about it for the first chapters until she heards rumors of ML having hidden lovers and that wanted to divorce her. ML isn't the type to cheat and wasn't planning to divorce her but just for the sake of making her upset, he threatened her with divorce.

From then she started to plan on leaving him definitely but ML who didn't understand his (sudden) feelings for her, wanted her to stay so basically trapped her in the mansion

There were several characters that appeared but never mentioned again at the end. It bothers me because they are people that helped the FL and she cared for them but suddenly forgets about them and never mentions them until someone does it first. The whole plot worked because these people were present in FL life and were a big help or important to her, but they were just plot points for the story at the end. But at the end the only people we see come back is her first maid Melissa and the priest Matheus who helped her escape.

• • Her biological mother who she looked for when she was tricked because she thought she was in her diebed, was never mentioned again after the incident nor she mentioned her will to look for her after.

• • The family of the lord that she was friends with when she escaped weren't mentioned again and implied tht they died because of demons but there was no actual mention of them.

• • Her half-brother who helped her when she was kidnapped was only mentioned briefly and no more.
• • Her second maid Judy never mentioned again.

• • The old lady and the children of the orphanage never met after she left to find the ML.

• • The 2nd ML who actually spent more time with her than the ML, left and she promised to write letters but then never did and only like months after did she knew he was traveling because Matheus told her.
    
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honestly when the amnesia section happened I thought I was going to rip my hair out because I was like "This DB is going to get all he ever wanted with no consequences wtf"