3.9 f-ck I start with joyous and tingling feeling of face slap.. and then damn.. I got myself into a pit.. not to regret it tho, fortunately they just 76 chp +2 fortunately... god.. my heart really hurt.. at some point I feel dead is better for our MC for the ending but some of my heart don't want to give up and yeah.. author get the ending that happy enough for me although in the end of this novel our mc's love is gone not so gone but still gone :) I confused as well my friend pls let me venting my confused here in the end I can just '' sigh...'' I don't have problem with how our author take the story to progress and peel all the mystery around pr cp :'' huft.... guys.. if u someone who weak for this kind of rollercoaster feelings like me pls prepare ur self and read it.. again it better u not read the comment section first, I blame u guys who rating it 4.5 :'' this pit u got me..

So the ML and MC met in the past? And now the ML has forgotten who the person in the past was and he's in love with him? *gasp* And now he's falling for the MC? But but he has to be loyal to his past love too?so he's gonna be indecisive? And then reject the MC? And then when he figures out that the person in the past is the MC who he's in love with now... so his love is reaffirmed? Now he can accept the MC happily?Everything is well? And they are a couple now? Damn how moving!!!! I could cry buckets became of how effin original this is... as if I haven't seen this plot used in every second kdrama or some asian novel! I'm sorry but I just find this type of cliche super hateful! For most typical stories its not even love they experienced in the past but just some small encounter and they start to cling on it... and when someone falls in love with and they start falling in love with them, they resist but then only fall in love happily when they know, lets take for example, that the guy who was with during some hard time was him or that the girl that saved him was her. If your past 'love' was so real then why fall for someone?If your current love isn't cheap then how come you're falling for the love interest totally only when you make sure that he/she was the one with you in the past? Its like calling your love interest and the love they have for you cheap so that you won't take interest in the same person as the past now reappearing in front of you unless they have done that irreplaceable thing for you like in the past...I feel like I'm ranting a lot and maybe still unable to express myself but I'm just not a fan of this trope at all

While being the same trope, its not the same at all. The ML really fell in love with the MC in the past not because of this one time meeting or saving like most dramas/novels show, but because he spent 3 months slowly getting to know him and falling in love with him.I was actually really hurt when ML rejected the MC but now looking at how effin loyal the ML was because of one single promise he made to his love even tho he was suffering... I can't get angry at him anymore. Its not the MLs fault that he forgot or couldn't recognise the MC, his memories were distorted so he couldn't help it. Anyway I was calmed down after this.

It was shown that the MC even tho slowly falling in love with ML again, still wasn't at the point as before. So why end it before he's completely in love. Actually if you don't want to give that, its ok! But atleast give us some hope that the MC felt his heart moving and like he was sure he will again fall in love just as passionately with the ML as before and write about how wholeheartedly the ML will try for that to happen!Maybe the ML trying was implied so its still ok but what about MC? I wanted him to have the world.I wanted him to slowly get his love and emotions back and if not that then atleast a promise that it will happen in the future? But it just ended with somewhat vague romantic feelings that the MC had and them getting married.I'm dissatisfied!

In short, ML likes MC who is 10 years older because of the system, then MC is shot to death to protect ML, after the rebirth process dozens of years later, MC who doesn't remember anything loves ML, but ML is still loyal to the old MC. In the end, MC died again to save ML, which later ML finally found out MC's true identity. MC managed to come back to life but lost his emotions, ML then tried to revive their love. A very complicated love journey (actually it's more complicated than that, MC died 3 times, and.... the rest are explained in extra).