MC is a university student at the start of the novel and he frequently chances upon ml, a high school student 6 years his junion, as they are next door neighbours. MC comes from a warm and loving traditional family, whereas ml's mom is a divorcee, absent and abusive during his upbringing. While MC and ML have always been close since childhood, ML falls in love and the center of his world shifts to have MC in it. For MC, he changed his social circle, studies in earnest, and applies to the same prestigious university and program as MC. However, ML is determined to keep these feelings hidden and treat MC as a friend only. One day, MC discovers these feelings by accident, and tries to distance himself from ml. However, MC realizes that hes always had strong protective feelings over ML and decides to reciprocate. They date but its a bumpy road ahead. MC and ML have to keep making concessions to keep their relationship afloat and it clearly wears them down. MC is suddenly outed to his family and they threaten an ultimatum: break up or leave the house. MC chose ML at first, but ML understands that MC is hurting to be apart from his family, and urges MC to chose them instead. ML goes to the south pole, and MC moves with his family to a different city.

two years later, ML comes back and finds a recording left by MC, telling ML that their separation is only temporary, to find him once he returns, and that he loves ml. ML goes to find MC, and they finally reunite.

and these are some of my favourite scenes!

1. Xu tangcheng's video where he read out his big apology and love letter. Apologizing to yi zhe for his faults, and telling him to wait for him. It choked me up real good : (

2. Their night at the gay club where they finally let go of their inhibitions and found peace in their own little world

3. Xu tangcheng getting drunk and secretly singing love songs in yi zhe's ears

4. The scene at blue harbor. Where xu tangcheng sung him a love song in disguise. Then filmed yi zhe running down the harbor bc he wanted to record a video of yi zhe running towards him bathed in the moonlight :' (

The only thing I was thankful for is even though YZ and XTC separated for a few years, XTC never gave YZ up. He never agreed his parents to leave YZ because he knows that YZ has no one by his side. Though YZ never knew the existence of the video until he came back to Beijing, I'm still really happy that XTC made preparations and left YZ with things that can reassure him while he is at the South Pole.

Firstly, I loved both MC and ML so so much! Especially the Gong..... his life is just too tragic. When he had his last conversation with his dad, I almost felt like crying.

Speaking of which.... the father and brother are truly despicable. Don't get me wrong, In all these years of reading novels, I've read about much worse family situations. But whenever he was considering them his family, it truly broke my heart.

The shou's parents..... while I understand them, I also dislike them for indirectly putting my Boi through so much.

"People only thought that homosexuals were "freaks" but they had never thought of why those people became "freaks." Nor had they thought that even if those people stopped fighting, stopped debating, and accepted that label, could these "freaks" that had never done anything wrong also live a good life.

Nature would not yet destroy a species because of "good" or "bad, " yet there were people who would judge that a group of people should not exist because of a reason like this."