And in the end with the last chapter where she had her dream, it's as though the author wanted to make it up to her with one chapter. It feels so meaningless, why does she have to live another life just for things to be better. Obviously the author has favorites and I like Ruan Xi too but does everyone's life have to pale in comparison to hers? Maybe I'm thinking too much, but I just felt that the fMC was very pitiful and deserved better. She deserved her own book and an author that cares about her.

It turns out that they did meet before, i.e. The original girl (with the original soul, before the transmigrated soul took over) met him in a Buddist temple when she was about twelve and he was about sixteen and apparently she saved him from some embarrassment and in return he pledged to marry her when she grows up if she wishes so then.

In the original timeline she was given away to another man in marriage by her parents, so the ML lived his life celibate to the end. But in this timeline the FL transmigrated into the body of the bride and there were some wrinkles in the plot with huge butterfly effects, so they did get engaged.

She does not remember that fateful encounter in the temple, although she has access to the original girl's memories, it is very hazy in her memories, no detail.

So far, it reads as an encounter and a snail-paced development of mutual sympathy between two twenty year olds, because the transmigrator was twenty when she died in modern China from heart failure and her fiance is a school boy, an eighteen years old. But the FL's body and mind are supposed to be only fourteen years old, so her behaviour feels artificially mature, too aged. There is no freshness, no green foolishness or spontaneity of youth, none of that. Feels stuffy, cold, too rational, almost snake-like. As if she was a forty years old frigid virg*n, not a hot blooded teenager.