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The diary of Nan Kang of his relationship with his ex-boyfriend, expressing that he was willing to wait for him until 35 years old.

From morning to night, from the moment of love, the ending should have been predicted. The world praises love, but never admits love. Why is it wrong? Nan Kang, 35 years old is too long, and the waters in Xiangjiang is too cold. For fear that you are alone in the distant heavens, and he, with a woman and maybe a child, in the paradise at home. Nan Kang, do you regret waiting?

(It is said that this is a real story of a real person, Nan Kang, who has written other stories in his life. He had a loving boyfriend who, unable to withstand pressure from family and society, married a woman. In between March 9th and March 12th in 2008, Nan Kang jumped into the waters of Xiangjiang and ended his life. People found his body in the river on March 27th, after 15 long days drifting in the cold water. In 2016, readers commemorated his would-be 35th birthday.)

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Wo Deng Ni Dao San Shi Wu Sui
我等你到三十五岁
Related Series
Six Records of a Floating Life (Prequel)
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Latest Release

Date Group Release
07/27/21 Apple Translations c1-30 (end)
06/16/19 silentFish c21-30
06/16/19 silentFish c11-20
06/16/19 silentFish c2-10
06/16/19 silentFish c1
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PeonyDancer
PeonyDancer
February 18, 2023
Status: --
I think the reason why this short story compilation (which is in reality a series of blogs) hit so hard, is because it’s an entirely autobiographical, real story. A compilation of author Nan Kang’s life with his boyfriend, from 1999 to 2006, who he refers to as ‘Husband’ throughout “Six Records of a Floating Life”. The writing is full of a love for the mundanity of life; 'Husband' is the best looking man, nor the smartest - but he's Nan Kang's warmth in this cold world.

However in 2006, Nan Kang... more>> breaks up with his boyfriend of 7 years, as ‘Husband’ is going to get married. The title of this blog “Waiting until 35 years old”, written in the time after their break up, expresses Nan Kang’s intention to wait for his boyfriend to return to him until he’s 35 years old, before moving on. Throughout these gradually shortening blog posts, Nan Kang expresses how when you’ve loved someone for so long, letting them go is like cutting off a piece of your heart. He hopes that one day he’ll look back on this pain and laugh - maybe someone else will be in his heart, or maybe ‘Husband’ may have returned to his side... or maybe he’ll be waiting, waiting without remembering why he’s persisting.

In 2008, Nan Kang jumped into Hunan Province’s Xiangjiang river; his corpse was found 15 days later on March 27th. He hadn’t yet turned 28.

I wish real life were as beautiful as the stories we usually like to read. <<less
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Yizhan angel
Yizhan angel rated it
December 19, 2022
Status: Completed
I hope no one dies for a lover. Because it's you who lost everything, including your life. Your parents lost their child that person will cry and be miserable for a while but will move on one day for sure. So better and practical solution is just wait patiently, time will ultimately heal all the pains. Trust me. Don't ever go for su*cide, it is never an option. Sending love 💕
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Yooshi_is_here
Yooshi_is_here rated it
November 9, 2020
Status: --
I feel so hurt after reading it. Specifically after knowing it to be a possible real story of a real heart broken soul. No one should be made to suffer this way.
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DiagnosedBLAddict
DiagnosedBLAddict rated it
May 15, 2021
Status: Completed
At first I wasn't sure if I wanted to read this, I'm not a big fan of agnst. But I'm glad I did. This really made me think about life and I was able to relate to the author. Knowing that this is something that the author went through personally made me think about my own life. It was almost as if I was disecting myself while reading. It moved me and made me think. I would recommend this to anyone.
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Blubeagle
Blubeagle
March 7, 2021
Status: Completed
If you're anything like me, come to this armed with lots and lots of tissues. If you are a sentimental softie like me, you will cry. It is nondebatable.

This is a heartwrenching, gut-wrenching glimpse into the face of utter despair, depression, and abandonment. A more cynical soul might say "Well, he could have just moved on and found someone better, " but let's be realistic: It's hard to bring yourself out of the pit of despair when you've given your all to someone and they have given some of themselves... more>> to you, but not everything and bow to traditions and traditional thinking. This like an emotional Molotov c*cktail aimed at the author himself!

I had only pity, love, and understanding for our poor author. The strong part of me, the part of me that agrees with those who think he could have lived, wants to say "It didn't have to turn out this way, " but maybe it did, for our dear author to finally have peace. Yes, this is a one-sided tale, but I felt so badly for our author, just wanted to hug him and let him know that he wasn't alone, that there was someone (me) who understands what it's like to have to capitulate.

Do read if you dare. It is not an easy read and I felt like an emotional masochist after, but it is beautifully told, if damned sad.

I love you, dear writer. <<less
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rimirinrin
rimirinrin
September 17, 2022
Status: Completed
I was completely absorbed in the story. Because it is a real person in it, the writer himself, it really hits me so hard. I started with the prequel, six records of a floating life then this. The sweeter it is in the prequel, the harder this sequel hits you. And knowing that at the end of this story, the writer is not in this world anymore is just so cruel. After reading this, I just hope the world to be kinder to the LGBT people around. Love is love.... more>> Nan Kang, I hope you are in a better place with someone who truly loves you, someone who will openly tell you of their love. <<less
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Adriana28
Adriana28 rated it
February 2, 2022
Status: c1-30
I don't know what to say. I feel like my heart is breaking it hurts so muchh.

Why why!

I-i can't say or write any more it's so painful.

Now I just hope his soul may rest in peace and in his next life he could find someone who will love him wholeheartedly, just him.

😭😭😭

Luv u so much Nan kang

May u achieve all happiness in ur next life.

I am really crying a lot, why did this even happen, I just hope him all happiness in next life...
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Because
Because rated it
November 3, 2021
Status: Completed
"There was a beginning but would never be an ending, this has been decided from the start.”

They probably knew deep down they wouldn't have a future together, yet still have somewhat of a hope. At the moment, I'll admit out of all tragedy tags I've read this one hits me the most. I'm not saying that this is the most greatest tragedy. But, it impacted me quite deeply. (Because I have yet to see another tragedy tag from a real event, perhaps?)

Like all the another reviewer have said, this... more>> is more of like a diary/slice of life but tragic from the author/MC. In the end, my way of coping tragedy tags is to remind myself that these characters don't exist, but I can't assure the same thing for this one. It's a weird feeling of aching, even though we're not the one experiencing them.

It all boils down if you like tragedy tags or not, if you do, what are you doing? Go read it. If you don't want to end up with panda eyes, try to refrain maybe?

I can only hope not much people experience what MC had gone through, but deep down we all know probably not little amount of people has gone through this. Rest in peace Nan Kang-ge. <<less
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Hippopotamus
Hippopotamus rated it
October 8, 2021
Status: --
My god, I found the news about the author. This was indeed true! He was reported missing at first and then his body was found 15 days later.

Was it really su*cide? Or an accident that he fell to the river?

What happened to his boyfriend after he heard the news about the author's death???

... more>> ... who knows. Can't find news about the boyfriend.

But that's not important.

I thought a lot about him; he must be very painful. He loved his boyfriend so much. Hoped that his boyfriend will always be happy, but in the end he couldn't restrain his feeling. He still hoped that his beloved will comeback, he would wait. In the end, he failed to keep the promise. Maybe it was too painful, he couldn't hold on till 35 y.o.

Maybe... because he understood, that it was impossible for his boyfriend to comeback to him. The other side didn't have any intention to comeback at all. He was left behind, but still couldn't let go.

I can only sigh.

Maybe that was true when I read people said that his way in live is still long, as long as he kept alive, there must be a way out. Heaven will not neglect him.

Indeed, this story is a precious lesson for me. <<less
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Izuno Hotaru
Izuno Hotaru rated it
September 24, 2021
Status: --
Heart-breaking true story...I hope Nan Kang won't meet this tragedy ever again in his next next life. Fate or luck or whatever they called has never fair to everyone yet I hope it'll let you happy ending in your next journey.
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honeypeach
honeypeach rated it
August 31, 2021
Status: Completed
the fact that this was a real event, real story of the author himself made this story even sadder and tragic. I wish this was a fictional story... this is so heartbreaking, yet so beautifully written.

may Nan Kang rest in peace.
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RajaAntara
RajaAntara rated it
February 10, 2023
Status: c1-30
I probably have a callous heart.

I learned that this was based in real life so I thought this would be depressing. I even delayed reading it for a few months since I was not ready for the heartbreak.

But when I finished reading it, I just thought, That's it?

... more>> Where's the promised broken heart?

The only thing that tugged my heart was when he said that for the 7 years they were together, not once did his partner ever said he like him too😢. But I guess, the fact that this happened in real life, and not fiction, is depressing in itself. <<less
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Tasmi
Tasmi rated it
July 6, 2022
Status: Completed
A creation with feelings naturally has inclination to love it's creator. When we concentrate on all the other things and people, as keep ignoring our instinctive love for our true master, we feel lost, desperate, depressed, restless. The more sensitive a person the more he seems to feel this suffering. At the most desperate times, some people choose enlightenment some other choose ego and continue self deception. I hope that Nan Kang realized and accepted his heart's true desire, and also hope that it was not a su*cide.. Because I... more>> truly don't want him to suffer that bitter cold for eternity rather he may enjoy warmth, love and peace.. <<less
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Cutting_Bamboo
Cutting_Bamboo rated it
April 6, 2022
Status: Completed
No matter how much I'd like to say this is fictional, that will not be true. This was so bitter, really bitter. 'Six records of a floating life' only filled me with much pain. I read the 'Six records of a floating life' first, After I read this, the 'husband' title only wrecks my heart more. I thought I could laugh at this, and say it did not make me cry like my other reviews. But I was wrong. Very wrong. I did not know he had died, only while... more>> reading the notes in the first chapter in the translated site did I realize. At this age and generation, I wonder if he would be happy? I can only reread this and sigh. The person is gone and can not be brought back. He could not withstand the agony and left this world like many others. All I can do is pray that his next life is not so bitter and that he may rest in peace. <<less
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asterflower
asterflower rated it
February 7, 2022
Status: c1-30
I cried. I really cried. Bittersweet, heartbreaking, poignant. Beautifully poetic. But so, so heartbreaking. I pray that in his next life, Nan Kang is living happily, loved and without fear, accepted and without pressure to change himself. I hope that in his next life, he has a sweet and loving boyfriend that will never leave his side.

The story is very well translated. Both prequel and sequel are in forum post format, a little bit like diary snippets. The overall length of the novel is short, a quick read. Knowing what... more>> happens after leads one into reflection on the impacts of love and h*mophobia and what it means to have your love be viewed as shameful and wrong by society. Though they never need to confront h*mophobia directly, they face it every moment, and it shapes how their relationship is formed and broken. There is also a lot of poetic and philosophical elements in the writing that make nan kang's words all the more poignant and bittersweet. Please be careful while reading this, but please give this a try if you can. It is the heartbreakingly beautifully written prelude to the tragedy of Nan Kang's death; and I think he would like to know that his story was not forgotten and washed away beneath the waves of the icy river as well, and to know that his words touch so many hearts, and his devotion and love is still remembered by us. <<less
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akanie
akanie rated it
November 15, 2021
Status: Completed
I read this months ago though wasn't able to leave a review. The story was written well and is sad. The author deserves love and be loved bravely. His story moved me to tears, and I hope that people in situations like him will be able to live on and be happy with who they love, freely.
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limonata
limonata rated it
August 10, 2021
Status: --
You can see in her diaries that she loved her husband very much. Her husband loves her, although not as much. Nan Kang also likes the pleasure of obsessive love. When they leave or leave, he leaves himself, he gets sick. There is no one around who understands him. They have superficial relations. Her only friend was her husband. Now he has lost his support. They already have symptoms of depression on their blog. Blog posts are actually written to remember the emotions he experienced and to relieve those feelings.... more>> The fact that the society was oppressive and that he could not find anyone to talk to about his feelings provided a stepping stone to throw him into cold deep waters. I could not find fault with her husband in this story. Only nan kang couldn't move on with his life. He could not meet anyone with whom he would have the same feelings. The biggest problem is depression. Nan kang I hope you are in a happier place. Sleep in the lights. <<less
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nctzen
nctzen rated it
May 14, 2021
Status: Completed
I never thought I will cry so much from reading a very short story. It's like hoping for a happy ending for a story you already know how it will go
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LOEY_
LOEY_ rated it
May 13, 2021
Status: --
This is so heart breaking and knowing this happened in real life feels worse.
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Wuming_wo
Wuming_wo rated it
March 27, 2023
Status: --
I may not shed tear upon reading this, but deep inside I was so broken, my heart was pained knowing that the author himself suffered and eventually decided to end his life.
I don’t understand, he just love someone so much why why??? Why it has to end this way?!! It’s excruciating 💔💔 I can imagine himself suffering day by this just merely breathing, get up in the morning but he’s dead on the inside. I just wish he fought a little more, a little longer. Nan Kang, perhpas if you’re alive today, know that BL and Danmei may not be accepted in CN but it is accepted in other parts pf the world, bet you’ll be one of the most popular author next to MXTX and Meatbun. I just wish you fought 💔😢
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