I have a love-hate relationship. Same goes with unrequited love. And what gives? This have both! And the unrequited love part for me is not that very heavy. So don't get discourage! Must have been because Shizun is a strong and independent person. He never felt aggrieved or tried to get in between (well must have been because he has high sense of pride and self awareness that he is their shizun and he didn't have intentions of mixing business and pleasure aka no intention of acting up his feelings) In the first book rather than Shizun drinking vinegar it's MR who constantly drinks it (yeah quite bold for someone who declared to love someone else and hated shizun to the bones). I really, really love Shizun, someone described him as aloe vera. For me he is like a chocolate chip cookie. Hard on the outside but soft and gooey on the inside, so sweet and filled with gooey semi sweet chocolate chunks. He went from Shizun who practiced restraint in every aspect. Who feels like it's okay not to be okay, afraid to complain, bother someone to care for him just because he's already used not getting care and just being lonely (this really broke my heart that he felt like he is passed the age to be spoiled. (C'mere shizun let this reader spoil you to the bones) to someone who can have desires and wants.

While on the other hand...

Mo Ran has a very simple outlook on things. But he has the most awe-inspiring character development. If he hates, he hate as far as the word hate can be and same goes with love. When he went bad he went to the extreme of being bad in the cultivation world. And when he was reborn and decided to be good. Uwuu he did his best to be good and repay what he had done in his past life. B (He learned to restrained himself, well most especially when it comes to shizun) no matter what the world say to the current him. He will always remember the previous him. The him who killed, robbed, r*ped, refused to forgive, him who lost his purpose and shed his humanity. It haunts him and questions him every moment he is vulnerable. He felt like he can't do what Chu Wanning asked him when he breathed his last, that is to forgive himself.

Hands down to the writer. I love it when he/she pointed out that Mo Ran will not fall out of fancy of Shi Mie just because shizun died and automatically declares to fall in love with shizun. Because SM didn't kill shizun. For me this novel have that element of the characters actually falling in love. I think that's also the reason why I didn't feel dislike whenever MR tries to dote on SM. (Maybe because unknowingly MR dotes on Shizun the most from his food to everything! And it's really funny when he realized that his love for shizun is the romantic type and his love for SM is not. He can't understand and forgive himself that he lusts after his shizun not knowing that list is the primary indicator of romantic love. Love has so many forms. Once desire and list goes hand in hand with the feelings of love, it is romantic love. Love for parents is agape. Love without desire and list is platonic this what I wanted to lecture MR on when he was torturing his brain cells what he likes hahaha)

PS I like the mini theaters too😊

Thank to the translators! Will wait for further updates. Fighting and keep safe!

I can't believe in the end Taxiang-jun/Moran suffers from D.I.D (Dissociative identity disorder). It reminded me of that Korea Drama Kill Me Heal Me. I wish the author gave some justice to Shimei (in the second life) like in the chapters towards the ending or even extras where Shimei (in the second life) meet Chu wanning and they have a heartfelt talk or something similar to that. Unfortunately, Shimei (in the second life) was rarely mentioned even in the extras : ( (all we know is he became a blind doctor.