My heart honestly broke a little everytime the FL rejects the ML. And it was heaven sent when she finally agreed to start a relationship. I like that she didn't do a half assed job about it and she did really try to be a good gf to him which finally made her realize and intensify her feelings for him.

I like that she wasn't wishy washy with her attitude at all. When she rejected the ML, she really did reject him with no hope for relationship whatsoever. She didn't let him on, and the only interaction they had was only out of guilt, which the ML knows. And when she finally did try to have a relationship with him, she really did try her best.

Like what happened to his health? I know he had a surgery but it didn't say what happened to the tumor, if it was malignant or benign.

I also felt unsatisfied that there weren't more chapters of sweet moments AFTER she realized her feelings for him. The build up felt so long but the consolidation of their relationship was so short.

It's masked by his overwhelming love for the MC and his reticent/stoic personality, but if you look a little closer you find out he's so... immature? Childish? He was just frustrating overall.

I personally hated the whole reveal on what drove them apart. Finding out about how he beat the sh*t out of MC's boyfriend in high school left a bad taste in my mouth, especially since it's not even written in the text if the boyfriend did something wrong. All we know is that the ML was super jealous, MC walked in on the scene of her childhood best friend breaking her boyfriend's limbs, and she (reasonably) freaks out. Red flags already, but it gets worse. After the incident, it is the MC who has to beg her boyfriend and his family not to press charges against the ML, even though this is in no way her fault. The ML, as with any ML in a romance novel, has good looks and good grades, so no one thinks badly about him, the person who literally caused this entire thing. Instead, the school population decides to shun the MC, which causes her to lose all her friends (the ML included, because obviously she doesn't want to associate with him anymore) and also causes her to become more timid and shy.

So what does the ML do in all of this? Apologize? Be genuinely remorseful for what he did? Of course not. He decides to pine over a girl whose life he literally ruined (and no, this isn't an exaggeration. She purposely scores badly on her exams so she can go to a lesser known university (and get away from the ML), and even in university she's scared to make friends because of her high school trauma.) and then continue to pester her into dating him.

He gets worse as he gets older, actually. Using his illness and impending surgery, he guilts the MC into dating him. It's hidden under layers of "wooing" but it's basically straight up manipulation. That also felt vaguely disgusting to read. The ML doesn't learn from his past mistakes (in the middle of the novel (which is when they're older) the MC's high school boyfriend calls her, and the ML goes through a whole jealous episode that made me want to slap him. Like seriously? You didn't f*cking learn from last time? I mean, don't even talk about how he's being unreasonably upset at the MC for the boyfriend getting her number from someone else, is he a child?) and the ML is so prideful he can't even apologize in the rare moments he recognizes his s*upid behavior. Really, the more I'm writing this, the more I realize he's a crappy person.

To be honest, the MC is a very typical CN female lead. She's super shy, doesn't want attention, and very self-sacrificial. The ML is also the very typically stoic, uncommunicative, and struggles expressing himself type. Despite all this, the author was able to touch my heart. There aren't enough childhood friends romances out there, I almost couldn't bear to take off a star.

1. In ML's family, divorce happened, his mother and he moved to another place, which it's near FL's apartment and both of their families became very close as friends.

2. In middle school, ML and FL were considered as a couple, since they were actually friends, and FL told ML that she does not consider him in that way. ML doesn't say any word, but yea silence means something and the description says everything.

3. ML is a famous star and because of both Ml's and FL's family connection they can still meet and "kinda must" be as "friends". Maybe because of ML's appearance over time, FL's Guilt over rejecting ML, (Well FL kinda has really high EQ, realizing that ML likes her), STILL did not go away, which is frustrating, because of FL's guilt it gives ML a chance? Author???. Even the description is annoying: "To Chu Jian, though, Jian Bianlin is just Jian Bianlin her good, good friend, like family, but nothing more. She knows about his feelings for her and feels GUILTY (for various reasons which you'll read about) about not returning those feelings".

AUTHOR CMON, the plot is TOO THICK!

4. The FL is really an alright character, but the author's plots are not that logically thought and the world details are not that much detailed, gosh where is FL meeting ML in c2 (<*I think, or c3), note, this is only my opinion.

I do hope, that this will be the last I'll ever read a work with a mute or self-insert MC. It's tilting to the point that I'll have heart attack. Think of it this way, I'll rather have a f*cking MC with every single monologue he has in the work about him being depress because the one he love is like the idol of the HS he's attending and he's like the f*cking background character. MBFB hasnt thought that dialogues are the essence of novels. It's like the backbone of every single phrase and monologue you have; it's the heart of novels like it's the heart of every human being that's alive. God's Left Hand is so f*cking autistic because of this fatal flaw that, regardless of how the novel pans out, I still felt that I'm not reading the entire thing. I do not f*cking like a work with a f*cking 200k words and the MC have like 1% of that.... That's like saying statistically, you're not even the MC. This is why I like Together Forever for which the blend between scenarios panning out and the dialogue are richly engrave, when every single layer of MC's circumstances are revealed, it doesnt just stop at the """"act""" it still continues, to the point that the character itself, are engraved within the story; to have the dialogue-- to speak everything about it that engraves the life of every single shite that has written. I WiLL REPEAT THIS f*ckING SINGLE f*ckKKKKKK CONCEPT ON THIS BULLSHITTRY WHY I'M WRITING THIS: MBFB, PLS f*ckING STOP WRITING ABOUT MUTE MC. IT'S LIKE READING AN ALIVE WORK WITH A DEAD CHARACTER. f*ck OFF. I just dont feel complete finishing the WN... It's like when I finished, 100 Things I Didnt Know About my Senpai, where I feel like the series is just the prologue of what's to continue, in My Darling, I feel incomplete because the essence every single novel is not present here. I cherished every single dialogue in novel, for it is the point where the character themselves move, they breathe as a human being should, and the point where I feel a vacuum sucks every goddamn life I have every word MC spoke... For me, a MC's dialogue with a richly written description and narrative so vividly wring out, is worth more than Elon Musk's net worth, because there is a point... and there will forever be a point where a dialogue is worth f*cking every single narration... I just firmly believe that, it's like even tho heroine's dialogue is present and focal point where it ought to be what magnified... I just felt incomplete that the MC is MUTE. I cherished every single dialogues in WN/LN I read, weather it's small or continuously long. What I cherished here the most is, how heroine bare dialogue is beautifully vivid that for me, a self-insert MC doesnt deserve it, she display an emotion in every single word she spoke and for me that's something I dearly like, her worries and her insecurity displayed carried very vividly in her dialogue, there's that complete mixture of every thing that's good, and at the end, when she said "hubby" was when my heart just melted. It displayed that affection, that love that everything, in this world offers.

Ok, to tell you the truth, I do not believe in unconditional love... Except Familial love that is... there is a gap between familial love and romantic love and what separates that is the fact that one is unconditional and one will never be, unless it got to that certain point, wherein; the end of romantic love is marriage and that; at least; for my pure heart, believes that marriage is unconditional love. God's Left Hand displays romantic love, sadly, MC is f*cking mute. we see heroine develop this romantic love. Road's Home, is the transition of familial love to romantic love and the same with My Darling. I'll f*cking get this out of the way. OSANANAJIMI ROUTE IS f*ckKKKKKING HELLLLLLL BULLSHIT. It has to end not with the romantic love for it purely, logically, and realistically impossible to do. I still strongly believe in this concept. Yet, a story that is against this principle is something I heavily desire. Think of it this way. I'm an incel but like, it's not to the point that I condemn romantic novel that ever exist. For me, My Darling is the only series that tragically ended not because it's melodramatic, it's purely because it ended in a good way. I like how the heroine and MC relationship became, the beginning demonstrated the tension between the character that displayed because of their relationship that got estranged through time, They got separated, and that is something well you know... displayed their awkwardness and that is one of the best moments in the novel... It's like, they dont even know how to talk to each other despite knowing one another. It's like that moment when in Road's Home, MC and heroine met again in that gasoline station and, the overwhelming emotion of the past just rushed through their veins and reinvigorated the nostalgia and their awkwardness to each other displayed is just very subtle.... vividly magnificent and, yet at the same time, I can feel the nostalgia... This moment in My Darling is something subtle and nostalgic. It's something that I dearly loved reading. when MC disregarded his pride and just showed his bare feeling, for me this point has to be like "why did you not bother f*cking TALKING ABOUT IT!" it's like at the beginning I thought MC's the one that deserved a second chance, but at the same time; I firmly believe it's actually the heroine that got this "second chance" because, theoretically, and purely logically speaking, the MC here is like the omnipotent, the ever-loving, the ever-knowing GOD that we all know. It's like, EVERY SINGLE f*ckING TIME.... EVERY SINGLE f*ckING TIME heroine's feeling of familial love to romantic love changed when it should have ended at the f*cking past! But ohhh well, that's just me rambling about the point that, well; how My Darling ended is like how How Beautiful You Smile should have fantasy tag because the heroine is actually in Esport pro LoL. Just saying.