because I thought the „flashbacks" took too long. I thought an appropriate way to tell this story was to tell the past in pieces to make the reader anticipate it more, and not in chunks like this... BUT IM WRONG!!! I think, because we got such detailed description of how their relation came to be, with some little disruptions of the present time, the pain that the reader felt when they parted ways was much more impactful! All the small moments, if the reader didn't know what happened in the past, we would be like MCs Brother, unable to comprehend his actions... I really cried so much when telling about MCs time without ML... him waiting for ML to deliver the cake, him writing ML all the advantages in staying in this city, him not celebrating his birthday anymore, or the day he went on the trip that he planned with ML, and compared the pictures ML sent to him in the past to be in the same spot ML was when he was on that trip... I'm crying again ヽ (；▽；) ノ

tbh I don't know how people with autism (I can't remember the longer term) should be depicted, but I still feel the author did a good job!

Bc I kinda wanted that Brother of his to apologize! They were separated for years!!!! I think it was 7 years... 7 YEARS!! They wasted the time they could have been together with misunderstanding (kinda) each other (exaggerated) I mean, I totally understand his brothers mood. He's been thinking of his Brother as a child that doesn't anything. Suddenly he sees the surveillance, which is not really clear, he doesn't what's going on and sees his brother struggle, but the other is intimate, and thinks his brother is taken advantage of. (At this point, I guess I'm glad he didn't call the police on ML... ??)

He doesn't believe that his brother is capable of loving and makes his brother DECIDE!! I hate that... it's like these questions ppl ask, him or me... I think MC was incapable of understanding what Love is (who actually does understand what Love is, huh?) and was having a hard time, but his brother only gave him more pressure, by doing a countdown. He told him to decide between going with ML and leaving the safe and familiar environment he's been living in, or stay here but never see ML again. He was given so much pressure by his brother „for his own good/protection" I suppose. Just like how parents like to say „it's all for your own good" they actually don't understand how the other feels, just like how the brother doesn't understand how MC really thinks. I feel like he can see the hints, that MC actually cares for ML a lot, suffering from insomnia etc, but since MC never complained and was always very obedient, he just doesn't want to face it.

Anyways, I want an apology to ML and MC, for forcing them to part ways, for making MC unable to contact ML. The two of them also never really explained it to anyone?? (Tho I guess... stuff like this can't be said, can only be found out, considering this is a novel and all)

So yeah, I'm so happy they reunited, sad that MC still sometimes doesn't answer MLs question, but happy again bc ML understands, is patient and can still figure out MCs thoughts. It was all so good, I would just have loved to see MCs brother be a little remorseful. If it was me, it'd probably feel like someone rip a a piece of my heart and tell me „it's all for your own good"... ok maybe not that brutal, but that's just my current mood.