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This is a story about a heartless and insane younger brother who takes the dominant role. And a self-deprecating and miserable older brother who takes the submissive role.

After ten years, Song Jin returns to the Song family main house, where Song Xinglan, his younger brother, mostly says to him: “Song Jin, you’re disgusting.”

Early Stage: Insane Beastly Dominant younger brother X Calmly Suffering Submissive older brother

Mid-term Stage: The Insane Dominant younger brother turns into a Foolish Crybaby Dominant and the Urban Setting Turns into Rural Setting

Later Stage: (Possibly) Wife Chasing Crematorium

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A House of Dark Lights
A Room with Dim Light
Yi Wu An Deng
一屋暗灯
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Wilderness Vegetation (Shared Universe)
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rimirinrin
rimirinrin rated it
June 26, 2024
Status: Completed
Song Jin (ML) followed his mom after his parents' divorce due to his father's cheating. His mom left behind his younger brother with his dad.

Over the years, his mother hated his dad and he was also told many negative things by his mom. His younger brother, Song Xing Lan (ML) also lived with hatred for his mom who left him behind and his dad. After his mom passed away, Song Jin went back to live with his father. Song Xing Lan kept finding trouble with him, and after finding out... more>> that his brother is a gay, he kept using that as a handle against him, ultimately ruining his brother after raping him on multiple occasions.

Song Xing Lan then left and was brought to Song Jin's doorstep one day after having amnesia and becoming child-like after an accident. It was a tough journey of acceptance and recovery. The struggles and angst is good and so are the smut. I love McChicken and this novel very much. <<less
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Milina york
Milina york rated it
July 31, 2024
Status: --
I didn't expect the writer to deal with the non-con so well, although I usually don't like MCs with weak personalities... but honestly it's radically different here, the MC's personality and the environment he grew up in and the reactions he showed were so convincing that I ignored my preferences and even loved him a lot. In short, he's the kind of character who was forced throughout his life to focus on other people's problems instead of himself and to literally walk by the wall without making mistakes, not because... more>> he's necessarily good, but because he didn't have the luxury to live for himself. In short, he became what he is now, unable to truly see himself as someone who deserves happiness and such, and believe me, it was convincing to a frightening degree.

As for the ML, he lived in an environment where he was subjected to violence, which forced him to become a wolf unable to understand his feelings. Of course, I don't even want to talk about the writer's wonderful portrayal of the effect of parents raising their children on what they become.

At this point, the two meet after 10 years of Separation, one carrying guilt and the other hatred. It was a shocking start

Spoiler

As expected the ML r*ped the MC multiple times in a honestly heartbreaking way just because their mother chose the MC (which It turned out later that she wanted to take both of them with her by legal means, but she failed bc the father's deep-rooted connections.) and gave him to his father and he showed no remorse for his actions. And later he became s*upid (the easiest way to start redemption without actually making effort to make the charecter more like human) unlike the comments I really hated the second third of the novel and would have preferred the author to focus on developing the ML and explaining all the s*upid sh*t he did... instead of making him an idiot but after thinking about it I think this was the only way to make the MC have a soft spot and moaning about him being so lonely that he actually loved the s*upid side of his rapist brother

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I'm giving the novel 3 stars because the author left so many gaps in what the ML did and why... when did he ever realize his feelings? and when did he regret it? are all things that were not mentioned... The chasing arc was overall sucha disappointment <<less
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SailorJuniper
SailorJuniper rated it
July 31, 2024
Status: Completed
It starts well and then takes a massive nosedive around chapter 20.

The Gong, Song Xinglan, is particularly hateable (in a good way) —arrogant, rude, cold, selfish, with extraordinarily violent and possessive tendencies, most of which coalesce around his feelings of s*xual attraction, but also hurt and anger at his older brother, Song Jin, and deceased mother, with SXL using his older brother to vent a lot of the hurt and anger he feels at both his mom, who abandoned him and dad who ab*sed him. I wish we had gone... more>> into more depth with him — we got some nice snippets of his character, especially the stalking, blackmailing, and intimidation. Still, we don't get a lot of particular focus on SXL, which I think was a miss by the author. Despite not being the MC, the story flows based on many of his behaviors/actions.

Song Jin is a decent MC — he's very human in that his profound loneliness can be felt, as well as the distance and awkwardness he feels when he's forced to return to the Song family residence. His desire to be able to live and enjoy life but feeling undeserving of happiness is relatable, I'm sure, to many. His feelings concerning the relationship with his brother are complex but also easy to understand. Song Jin is extremely lonely and, without his mother, is essentially without family; having been separated from his dad and brother for over a decade, their kinship is weak despite SJ's best attempts. This culminates in extreme passivity in SJ, who, despite how terribly SXL treats him, still desires and hopes for SXLs anger to turn into love, similar to the affection they had for each other as children so that he might not feel so alone.

In contrast to the other reviews, IMO, the story gets weak, starting from the 'amnesia' arc, and falls further flat post-amnesia when their father turns into an almost comical on-the-run criminal — the story sort of just drags from there with no clear objective or goal for the end, which, while not ambiguous, I wouldn't rate as satisfactory given how the story started. Beyond that, the wife-chasing attempt was totally out of place here. A 'wife chasing' arc might make sense in any other pair, but SXL and SJ are brothers with a clearly defined 'submit and obey' dynamic. This illogical notion of, 'If SXL wants to date SJ, he needs to behave in X manner... ' makes no sense given that SXL already has SJ living in his house and depending on him for money, love, affection, etc., ... there is nothing for SXL to chase... he has embedded the trauma so deeply into SJ's mind that there are no high stakes in their relationship beyond them potentially getting caught by some of SJ's friends. But even that is extremely low risk, given most don't know SJ has a brother anyway...

I'll end by saying that generally, I find 'amnesia' such a cope-out trope to bring characters together, and I wasn't inspired by it here either. The problem with this trope is that a person with amnesia does not have all their faculties and can not properly consent to anything. Still, of course, the bottom is always emotionally moved by the complete 180° in personality during these amnesia arcs and engages in s*x with an essentially non-consenting person — an easy way to 'level the playing field' by going 'well, now we're both wrong' — which opens the door for some nonsensical forgiveness arc because 'we're even now' (because stalking, blackmailing, ra*ing and violence is equivalent to your likely clinically depressed and lonely brother falling in love with your new, pleasant personality and engaging in what is seemingly consensual s*x...). <<less
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Heart Maggot
Heart Maggot rated it
September 26, 2024
Status: Completed
A repulsive and unrewarding read. If it was better written I could appreciate the story as an example of a tragic inextricable entanglement, but the writing really makes the tragedy of the story ridiculous. It's not unusual for authors who write stories with the tag "r*pe victim becomes lover" to treat SA survivors as jokes (is this why the novel is in the comedy genre? (Update: someone removed the comedy genre)), but at the very least they give the reader a decent "wife chasing" arc to try and justify the... more>> so called love between victim and perpetrator. In this story, SXL just says sorry and the story moves on. SJ tries to set boundaries, but SXL tells him outright that he's not going to let him go. Knowing this and seeing the "character growth tag" really makes me laugh. If SXL is really sorry he should bear the burden of his crime, admit openly that he r*ped his brother and then turn himself in and serve jail time. SXL makes no sacrifices for SJ and faces no consequences for his actions. He becomes a big boss CEO and essentially forces his vulnerable and broken older brother to be with him through emotional and financial dependency. The only positive thing I can say is that SJ never lies to himself or denies the truth. He openly refers to what SXL did to him as r*pe, whereas a lot of BL authors don't do this, preferring to have their characters subtly brush dubcon and noncon under the rug. However, this only makes SJ's behavior more inexplicable. His internal monologue is clear and coherent, but when he's in front of SXL he acts like an intellectually stunted stockholm syndrome victim. In fact, everything SJ says in the final chapter sounds less like it's coming from SJ and more like the author using his voice to preempt the reader's criticism of how they handled the ending. Also, aside from the story itself, I think referring to a r*pe victim as "submissive" is cruel and revolting, I don't know why the f*ck the author did that. <<less
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makamo rated it
July 27, 2024
Status: Completed
This novel was painful to read, mainly because of the distressing and problematic relationship between the main characters.

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Spoiler

The gong (top) r*pes the shou (bottom), who is his brother. This leaves the shou deeply scarred. Then later, the gong loses his memory and becomes mentally incapacitated, forcing the shou to take care of the very person who caused him so much pain. You can't help but feel sorry for the shou. Honestly, he’s unlucky to have met someone like the gong.

The progression of their relationship feels abrupt and unconvincing. While the novel hints at a "wife-chasing crematorium" trope, the execution falls flat. The gong's methods remain obsessive and forceful, which undermines any genuine sense of redemption.

Despite this, the shou decides to give him another chance. The transition from trauma to reconciliation is not particularly well-developed.

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Also, I find it amusing when MTL translators feel the need to mention they have studied the language when in reality they have no knowledge of the language or how to translate it. Like I wouldn’t try translating a book from French after a few high school lessons... If you're curious about this novel, you might as well MTL it yourself and save some time. <<less
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Alymirra
Alymirra rated it
April 5, 2025
Status: Completed
Rough summary for anyone who wants to know the plot/needs a memory refresher:

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Spoiler

After a long separation because of divorced parents, the MC returns home only to be hated by ML (younger bio bro). ML destroys his gifts, insults him, demeans him etc. MC takes it all because he feels guilty to the ML even though MC acknowledges it wasn't MC's fault because MC was also a child.

ML later finds out MC is gay and r*pesⁿ him after which MC runs away. ML then loses his memory in an accident and MC, afraid to let people know why he hates li'l bro, takes ML in. After ML recovers his memory, ML realizes he's in love with MC. Meanwhile MC has also fallen in love with the amnesiac ML (but not the one who hurt MC). They then reconcile and keep their relationship.

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This story does NOT qualify as wife chasing crematorium because:

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ML does no actual chasing. Amnesia is used as a cop out for MC forgiving & falling in love.

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Not a bad story. Not something I'm likely to read again anytime soon. <<less
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shiroykumo
shiroykumo rated it
September 26, 2024
Status: c1
I have to say that this is one of the best in*est danmeis I have read. Although there are some unanswered questions

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Like I really wanna know why SXL got the birthday cake during the accident. Did he feel remorse or was he going to torture SJ again?

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Nevertheless, I cried so much throughout the stories. I want more extras but as of now, this is enough. I also love how the author manages to capture the turmoil inside MC’s heart. Sighs
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ririrei._
ririrei._ rated it
July 30, 2024
Status: Completed
Read the trigger warnings before proceeding to this novel, this is probably 麦香鸡呢’s more morbid novel

I was anticipating the gong to be a total jerk, and I got it. This is basically a story of how 2 brothers are separated by birth and then met again after 10 years its a story that deals with psychological effects of parental ab*se.

While I love 麦香鸡呢’s novel due to their addictive plot and am okay about reading and UNDERSTANDING complex human nature towards trauma... I can’t really say anything about this one?... more>> Like don’t get me wrong it explains quite well on how our MC (Older brother Song Jin) has acquired his personality to his parents...

But I found that the psychology explanation behind the ML’s action wasn’t sufficient to back up for his horrible actions? especially on the shit’s he’s done to the MC pre-timeskip, but am not one to judge since 53 chapters isn’t enough to fully explain someones action...

Anyways its a 3/5 for me, good writing, but character development was a little lacking <<less
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FrostyDragon
FrostyDragon rated it
July 14, 2024
Status: Completed
Overall pretty good, although I felt the ML's psychology could have been explored better and his 'wife chasing in the crematorium' of the MC should have been longer and harder than it ended up being.

I thought the first part with the r*pe was the weakest part, but part two with the amnesia was touching and the final part was good too.

The ML's switch from cruel and sadistic rapist to

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Spoiler

cold-faced yet warm-hearted CEO in the third part was a little abrupt and not fully explained. I'm guessing he was always crazy attracted to the MC and couldn't handle it, but the transitions didn't feel fully realistic and some details should have been added, e.g. More insights into ML's character.

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For that reason MC's forgiveness came a little too easy, but hey, even I as a reader got soft-hearted because of the MC's suffering and the cuteness that was the amnesiac ML and wanted them to be happy in the end. <<less
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LupinIV
LupinIV rated it
January 20, 2025
Status: --
Yeah the warning tags caught my eye, I was curious how this was gonna pull off the vibes and palpitations wise so these are my remarks:

    • The 1st (angst) part (wording wise) was pretty good, story was palpable, the in*est redemption arc and progression on part 2&3, not so much? It's sweet home alabama so I wanted to see how they would make sense of their choice, but all the reasonings were killing me because it got nowhere interesting besides fawning over sexy looks, at least it got the shock factor feeling right for the first part tho.
    • The rural phase was kind of baffling to me, in which psychological aspect didn't match up within the whole story, it's unbalanced and almost comedic compared to the heavy first part in some ways (And the couple's chemistry is kind of not cute I'm sorry, word choices didn't convince me, very weird and uncomfortable to read).
    • Which brings me to my last point: Yes, it's a one way ticket from gaslighting station to "Mama I'm in love with a criminal" station for MC, it's seemingly embarrassing, I didn't like the rural phase at all because you just instantly knew the MC was gonna be a saint of forgiveness blah blah whether we liked it or not, the ML had a great atmosphere built up getting darker every time he reappeared but I don't think the behind story for him was up to par.
Shoutout to the translation team too they're amazing.

Sorry if this looks like a rant, I just want to put this here and share my thoughts, I don't think I spoiled anything, all and all this was not my cup of tea, if you like reading stories with strong start of unnerving horror/thriller heavy vibes then the set up of the first part is pretty good, the rest not as much tho imo.
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AllShipper
AllShipper rated it
January 12, 2025
Status: Completed
3.5

It was okay. The ML wasn't magically forgiven and all. Wished they were more communication between them and more expressions and speech from the ML. He wasn't explored.

Good translation 👍
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AnneDeaz
AnneDeaz rated it
July 29, 2024
Status: Completed
Read this cause I decided to give this whole 'forgiving an a**hole' troupe which I have always avoided cause I found it insanely pathetic and nothing's changed.

Yes, maybe I went into this clearly biased and non optimistic but every review has some bias so I'll leave it on anyway even if it may sound like a rant.

I don't really find instances when someone is r*ped repeatedly but goes back to their rapist to leave happily ever after particularly sad... no.....i just find it pathetic and weak... and once I see... more>> the main character as weak and pathetic... its hard for me to root for the relationship in any way.

Spoiler

I would have actually understood if the wife chasing part was well done... cause biased as I am against this troupe...i do understand that love can be complicated and whatnot.... but holy hell.... the bastard did all that sht and you had to take care of him at his lowest and then you just move past all that after slapping his wrist...... Wow.....I would hope after all the sht you put him through and all he did in turn when you where low you would put more effort in the wife chasing but I guess why put effort in someone who will accept the bare minimum.... sigh....

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Anyway... the writing was okay.. the translation... as always by knox good.. overall I was rolling my eyes the whole time. But ad I said... it might be that this whole genre is not for me and I shouldn't have read the. novel since I saw the trigger warnings and read anyway.

But I'll just be that guy and rate this according to how I felt. <<less
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