Are You Addicted?


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Some people are like a drug, once you get a taste of it, you are forever addicted.

A love story between two young men, from foes to a bickering couple, withstanding 8 years of separation, suffering and surviving hardships together. They are Gu Hai & Bai Luo Yin, in Chinese, when Hai & Luoyin are put together (Hailuoyin = 海洛因) means heroin, a substance that can be very addictive.

There’s a type of person who is like Heroin. Once you get involved, you can never let it go….

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Addicted Heroin
Ni Ya Shangyin Le?
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Nocturne rated it
July 26, 2017
Status: v2c12

Greetings you beautiful People,

I was rather interested in reading this novel since it deals with a, let's say, 'delicate topic'. That coupled with modern-day China, I am in.
I was even more surprised to find out that it had even gotten its own Drama adaption. So, It must be good, right? Right? I mean - why would they make a Drama out of it if it wasn't good, right? RIGHT? Well, sadly nowadays everything gets adapted for better or worse.
Anyways, let's get to the main course, the review of the novel, shall we...

The synopsis was rather lacking honestly. I had no idea what to expect. Especially the first few chapters were especially confusing. I had absolutely no idea who was who. I have to admit, it took me to about chapter 20 or so to figure out who the two protagonists truly were. Not the best sign to continue on reading, to be honest. Anyways I continued on, 20 chapters are after all nothing less than 1/10 of the novel.

So, what is the story about? - you might ask...
Well, it's basically about two boys BLY and GU and the hardships they face throughout their student life and later on their relationship. (That's not really a spoiler - the story is pretty clear on that part)
But that was pretty much it. The story doesn't go beyond that.
I really expected more. I don't want to go overly political here, but China - China isn't the best place in regards to the Geneva Conventions. So I thought that the topic, the hardships/fear of finding out to love differently, would be a story worth telling, worth illustrating....

I had held onto my expectations, firmly believing that now, finally something would happen, something - anything that would save this poorly written mess. But it never happened. That was when I realised that the story was not just going nowhere but I was also wasting my time.

The story doesn't offer anything besides its smut moments and absolutely ludicrous 'dramatic' misunderstandings. I've seldom read a couple whose quarrels are not just s*upid but also painful to read. What the heck does the "romance" tag do there, it should be replaced with "two extremely h**ny teenagers". Their relationship never goes beyond their carnal desire which is fine, but then stay that way. Whoever encouraged the author to also go full 'typical romance troops', should never advice anyone EVER! Where does all that desire even come from... They are after all both straight, somewhat - I guess?
Since the entire story played in China, I expected more of a harsh, prosaic view on the topic.
The fear of not being accepted, the fear of others finding out - the problems, hardships they could face: Maybe even seeking out other people who love the same way, who had to face these challenges, heck, even some strange methods to turn them back 'normal'. This would have been a story worth reading, a story that mirrored reality and not some Fujoshi's dream of two boys 'seemingly' in love.
That and not some abusive/excessive bodily fluid exchange between two immature imbeciles. Especially a certain scene was extremely off-putting for me. There was absolutely no legitimate reason to why it was done.


Rape! Once again we have the usual Stockholm-Syndrome twisted and turned to fit the story. And create some drama and some suspense. It was not just handled badly but GH had no reason to do so. His reasoning is absolutely flawed and makes no sense. Especially when it's later mentioned that he is such a good person compared to his older brother who is the epitome of evil, or so he claims...


I hated all of them.

GH he is extremely selfish and has no sense of empathy or any other human emotion besides his desire to satisfy his own lust. We don't even know how he looks like, all we know is that he has one huge package! Characterization at it's finest.


He would have been better off to die in the car accident. BLY would have actually been able to effing live his life and not be controlled by some unreasonable egomaniac knob


BLY. I found it quite hilarious to read the author to claim him being some clever/intelligent boy when he clearly isn't. Not only do their quarrels outline the fact that his personality is as exiting as watching water evaporate but also does his behaviour not go beyond his own selfishness and stubbornness. How he was able to live to that point is beyond me.
GY. Well, he was only introduced to give some more drama flavour. It's not like the story already had enough of that... *sarcasm*


For him to go as far as trying to kill BLY to save his brother is bullsh*t and makes no sense. He almost let his brother die and it didn't look like he cared much about his brother's situation whatsoever. It was only because of BLY that he did something about his younger brother's situation. So, tell me - why does he want to kill his brother's boyfriend???


The parents. Not much screen time to speak of. We have the bad parent - "You don't understand me, you are evil - I am right", and of course | in contrast | the good parent - "I love you, regardless of what you do." You know, to save some extra exposition. After all to characterise isn't the author's strong suit.
Everyone was more interesting than those to idiots. Heck, even the female teacher who had like six sentences had more depth than the two randy teens.

The Logic
There was none to speak of. If my son was engaging in 'immoral' behaviour, I would cut his allowance and freeze all his accounts. I wouldn't feed him with more money so he can do whatever he pleases and whatnot.
I am pretty sure that the Chinese government works a little different than that. I strongly believe that a person mentioned as important as GH's father would guard his son 24/7 - only to be safe. I mean, you could get some serious ransom for a VIP's son.
I am not too sure myself but I firmly believe that some general couldn't throw his weight around here and there and put pressure on everyone when the real power lies within the party or the Secretary General respectively.


GH's mother's death was something that made no sense whatsoever. I still don't understand why she seemingly committed su*cide and how that saved her husband. This was one major plot hole.


Furthermore I found it rather strange that BLY was able to solve this whole incident in a week what others (powerful people) couldn't do with a lot more resources and manpower. (poor writing)
I found the reasons for BLY hating his mother extremely petty and s*upid. How can he expect others to accept him if he doesn't even tolerate his own mother living in happiness? This last aspect actually sums the book up pretty well. They don't accept or tolerate anyone besides themselves. Only their reasoning is correct, only their love is allowed. Nothing else.


It's really not that good. I haven't watched the Drama yet, so I can't say anything about it. But my guess is that it's better than this gibberish of words.

Apart from the smut scenes the story doesn't offer anything else. There is no romance to speak of. Both protagonists are unlikable. I was rather disappointed to say the least, the author should have done her research better and elaborated on more important topics, such as acceptance, struggles, problems etc. Topics the LGBTTIQ community has to face everyday. This could have been so much more, sadly - it wasn't.

Love :) <3

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Reamie rated it
June 3, 2016
Status: c47
The people who rated this novel poorly have clearly never read it. Just because a novel has bl does not mean it it poorly written and not a good story. Wow the h*mophobia is real.

This novel is extremely well written and worth the read. Definitely an emotional roller coaster and just the right amount of comedy. PS- there is also a series which was based off the novel. I highly recommend it. The acting is wonderful and the actors are sure to get your attention.
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Celebration rated it
May 23, 2016
Status: --
People that rated this a one are homophobes. Just saying. It is one thing to ignore bl content, but to go out your way to give bl content negativity shows how much you hate. Just saying. I really love this novel and it expands on the drama. Super sweet, high school sweetheart type story. Love it.
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clxndestinely rated it
May 15, 2020
Status: c120
[EDIT: I just found this and would like to warn you guys. Typos. Typos everywhere.]

Before we start, as a girl who's a member of the LGBTQ+ community, I'd like to say that, no, I'm not homophobic.

... more>> The very beginning, 2.0 stars:

There was nothing to judge the book by, really. There were some jokes I found that referenced this story, so I decided to read it. A few times too many chapters for my liking, but I got on with it. Not much impressiveness, but I expected quite a lot, since it was adapted into a series, though it wasn't cancelled...

Plot, 1.5 stars:

In simple terms, though I didn't read much, I got bored rather fast. There were some pointless parts, and, well, most of what I read was Gu Hai getting jealous, throwing a tantrum, messing up, not willing to admit husband mistakes, and forcing Bai Luo Yin to coax him. Overall, the story's about two h**ny teenage boys (who we cant really visualise, unless we're taking about their shadows) that fall in love? I don't know, it wasn't really romance, because they started liking each other by chapter 50 or so, and nothing really progressed.

Characters, 1.0 star:

Bai Luo Yin, the MC, is a guy who sleeps in class and somehow is smart. Fair enough, since we all secretly want to be like that. He's also incredibly handsome and really popular but cold and aloof, so everyone's scared to get close to him. However, we can't tell that he's popular until some guys says it. It's never to be mentioned again, though. At the start, he says he bears some resentment towards his socially-unmoving father, but we never hear of that again either. Let's not even mention the fact that he somehow does amazing stuff at a young age, attracts weird people, has communication issues, holds a grudge against everyone but the ML, and somehow

forgives Gu Hai not long after getting r*ped by him?

In the overall, though, he isn't that bad of a person, though he seems to lose all of his morals, intelligence, and dignity once ML appears.

Gu Hai is our ML. In my point of view, he's an immature, selfish, obsessive guy with a superiority complex. At the start, when he meets the MC, he likes him instantly and wants to get his attention by prancing him. Fair enough. That is, until he starts damaging the MC's belongings even though he fully knows that MC is incredibly poor. In fact, he talks about it not long before cutting MC's shirt. Then, he feels angry when MC gets back at him and repeatedly makes him pay money, afterwards saying that he'll pay for it instead. Okay, fair. That is, until he starts freeloading in the MCs house, saying that he's broke and homeless, leeching our MC's family's sympathy. Then, he gets jealous and dares to buy the MC a lot of things with all of his money, making the MC feel guilty and as though he needs to make up for it. At one point in the story,

MC gets upset with ML, and the ML kidnaps MC so that he can "claim what's his", basically. As in he almost r*pes MC. Almost. But MC obviously forgives him for that, and ML continues to try relentlessly pursue MC by staying in his house again.

So, in simple terms, the ML's an immature guy who thinks with his d*ck and is not just unreasonable but insane when he's jealous. He also refuses to acknowledge it when he's wrong. He also acts like he uses his own power to protect the MC, but I cannot, for the life of me, see where he got that respect from, so I concluded that, yes, he's just using his father's power.

MC's ex (I don't remember her name) was just a whiny girl who appeared to make the ML jealous and nothing else. She didn't help the MC develop as a character at all. The only reason why

MC was r*ped was because ML wanted to show the ex that he owns MC, which he doesn't.


ML's ex (Jin Lu Lu, I think. She had a weird name) was some girl who gave ML the excuse to seem heroic, just, and valiant, or something like so. She, like the MC's ex, had no other purpose. She was so 2D despite being described as an amazing, feisty, not-so-beautiful girl by the ML, at the start, and all she ended up doing was begging him to stay.

You Qi was supposedly a new friend, but he also only appeared to make the ML jealous. Or, we're told about how much he blows his nose.

Yu Meng was the feminine-faced childhood friend, who's abused by his dad who was bullied for being girly (though, later, the author completely forgets about that and depicts their relationship as one as good as bros) and only appeared to make the ML jealous.

MC's dad (as well as his grandparents, the sweethearts) was a guy who trusted ML over MC, telling husband own son to stop being unreasonable after the ML does something wrong. He didn't even know the story. He's also there to help the MC and ML get together by letting the ML stay at his home for free and stuff. He also unknowingly accepts gifts from the ML, making the MC feel more like he owes the ML his love.

Aunt Zhou, the lady who feeds the Bai family breakfast, basically does the same thing as MC's dad. She also exists so that MC can do something amazing that makes ML jealous because MC did it without his help.

Let's not mention the fact that she has to end up MC's step-mother.

She's nice, though.

MC's stepdad / ML's dad is some narrow-minded powerful guy who abused his son, basically. He's so 2D that you can see the pixels — all he's done so far isn't threaten MC's future and act like a typical rich man. He doesn't appear unless he has to cut off ML so he can get close to the MC, or just to show how terrible of a dad ML grew up with, so the readers can pity him.

MC's mum / ML's step-mum gives off a really fake vibe (as in the green tea ladies. That's all. She also does the typical rich woman act on ML, and tries hard to improve her relationship with her son with no avail,

even sending some Guyana to wreck Ant Zhou's stall, belittle her (saying she stole MC's dad) as well as MC's dad. Sounds complicated, but it isn't. Anyways, they backfired, and she doesn't appear for anything other than strengthen the MC and ML's relationship whilst being a fool to what their "brotherly love" actually is.


So far, those are all the "important" characters.

Readers, 1.5:

As you can tell, the people who've read this story either say it's a 5/5 or a 1/5. I'm the latter, but more people say it's 5/5. If you're going to read it, I advise you not to open the comments, because they're quite infuriating. They laugh at warning signs of a toxic relationship, and get annoyed when you remind them something very important: that ML r*ped the MC.

So, yeah, low ratings. <<less
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rhianirory rated it
April 15, 2016
Status: Completed
this was a pretty good novel with a few rather annoying and overly melodramatic moments that made me think the author might have watched too many makjang kdramas in her spare time. Honestly, I liked the beginning and the end but could have done without a lot of the stuff in the middle. Despite it's flaws though, there are some pretty awesome moments and the end is certainly squee worthy. Since I watched the drama first I can't really separate the written characters from the ones I met on screen... more>> and that's not a bad thing since the actors did a really good job, especially for newbies.

the drama was surprisingly good but the Chinese government is apparently afraid of gay content and first censored the hell out of it, then took it down off the web (three episodes from the end) and banned it and the web drama company from airing inside china. Luckily, the company released episodes 13-15 outside the country so the rest of us could see it. They made such a big deal over it that even the two main actors are no longer permitted to stand side by side on stage or have any social contact and it's been years since the show ended. It's completely ridiculous. <<less
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ebryetas rated it
June 24, 2021
Status: Completed
The people commenting that "anyone who rated this with 1 star is homophobic" are straight-up idiots. Like did we even read the same story? Are people who don't like constant drama and the dumbest (most unnecessary) amount of miscommunication, constant plot holes, a terrifyingly possessive ML (who r*pes the MC), just automatically homophobic?

bit*h I'm a lesbian but at least I have eyes and enough common sense to realize that this isn't a perfect story.

If anything the homophobe is the one and only Mrs. Chai Jidan (author) . While Jidan... more>> is better about not having a stereotypical effeminate and masculine pairing like most BL stories, she still falls prey to basically never having any switches in her stories. There is still a more dominant partner, and usually this dominant partner refuses to switch, or insults the shou's (hate using that top/bottom terminology urgh) desire to top. Switching rarely happens in this story as well even though BLY expresses his desire to do so many times.

Also, as I state in the spoilers below, almost all of her novels include the ML raping the MC in some form or fashion. AND IF THIS IS NOT h*mophobia THEN I DON'T f*ckING KNOW WHAT IS. What kind of author writes sh*t like that??? She's just a straight-up MM fetishist, and you can't f*cking tell me otherwise thank you.

Now to explain the reason I dropped this after a decent start (I did come back and read a lot more because I desperately wanted to know how the f*ck they actually still end up together, but ended up dropping it again simply because of how f*cking s*upid and OTT aggravating the main characters are. And yes, I read a lot after the time skip. How does anyone not completely hate these two?)


And please also understand that the r@pe in this story is absolutely horrific and disgusting and traumatizing. It literally made me cry when I read it
I've read some of this author's other works and again, she literally features r*pe in just about every one of her novels. If you want a more in depth understanding of how f*cked up this story is and why I don't recommend it whatsoever read the spoilers below.

So it's been over a year since I stopped reading this and I sTILL GET FREAKED OUT THINKING ABOUT THE r*pe SCENE.

Before the r*pe I was like 'this is good, but not THAT great' (I still don't really get all the hype). As the story progressed it just become less and less realistic and more and more over the top. And then there was the r*pe scene. Literally thinking about it makes my skin crawl to this f*cking day

okay so bear with me, this might sound awful: r*pe is absolutely inexcusable and awful in any format; irl or fiction. But there is a difference between someone getting r*ped once in a bl novel/yaoi or whatever and then falling in love with their rapist anyway, and then there is getting r*ped the way GH r*ped BLY.

Reading it was f*cking traumatizing, but it was like a car crash where I couldn't look away. I ended up reading all of it and once it was over I closed the novel and didn't touch it again for over a year. I literally had not expected the r*pe to happen, I was not prepared in any way whatsoever, and I felt physically sick the whole time I read it and for a while after.
If I recall correctly (and I may of course misremember some small parts), GH kidnaps BLY after getting pissed that he was talking to some girl etc. Etc. Brings him some place I can't remember, brutally r@pes BLY nonstop in front of the henchmen who helped kidnap him. Plus GH also brings in the girl BLY was talking to and FORCES HER TO WATCH HIM R@PE BLY (then drops her off on the side of the road somewhere while she is still sobbing).

It's literally so bad that BLY gets torn, profusely bleeds, passes out, and is bedridden for days. The doctor GH brought in to watch out for him even comments on the sickening brutality.

It's f*cking disgusting, and the absolute brutality with which Gu Hai specifically r*ped BLY was so off the charts sickening that I genuinely cannot comprehend why the novel is so popular. I understand the show never reached this point in the story, but how the f*ck can people read this and not want to cry over this scene??? How can people read this story and love that they still get together/fall in love/get married????

Chai Jidan is f*cked up. Anyone calling people who give story a low rating "homophobes" are also f*cked up.

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IndusEla rated it
February 2, 2020
Status: --
I've given two stars solely for the excellent beginning. The chemistry between the characters was amazing and sweet as hell, the situation was pretty interesting since it was the first time I came across a setting of step-bro x step-bro where neither of them knew the identity of the other. I do know that it's everywhere, but I read about it for the first time in here.

I fell madly in love after watching the drama. I would have fought anyone who cussed my babies (GH and BLY). I came to... more>> read the novel, utterly bewitched by the drama, and found it to be exactly the same till about chapter 40 (?) - this is where the drama ended, episode 15. After this... The author smoked something weird as f*ck and cursed this novel to utter shit.

I cannot express my regret enough. I want to go back in time and slap my foolish self for even thinking of reading this novel. I should have stopped after the drama. This novel ruined all the expectations I had, it stomped on my love for the characters with contempt. I hate this.

Gu Hai, oh my baby, which as*hole replaced you after chapter 40? Which f*cker? I'm not even kidding, the author completely changed his character to someone crazy. He lost his cuteness by doing what? Raping Bai Lou Yin. Oh my lord, I should have stopped after the drama. I thought it was gonna be cute and sweet and good but the author high on pot completely ruined it. GH r*pes BLY, and BLY forgives him (I can accept this because the author walked us through their patch up and it wasn't too bad).

After this... The novel becomes a shitshow. Drama, fights, anger, there is nothing left of what it was at the beginning. There was nothing left of the characters I fell in love with.

I thought I might get better, so like a freaking idiot not ready to accept that her new favorite drama could have an ending like this, tried to read the second book without finishing the first. I was desperate.

Oh my goodness, I couldn't be more wrong. What the f*ck had possessed me to read that book? It was even f*cking worse than the first one. I'm not even kidding. Both GH & BLY become such immature pricks, picking f*cking fist fights where people can see. Do you realize no adult would do that shit??? I was so freaking embarrassed and frustrated with how both of them became kids rather than maturing, I finally gave up and dropped this novel. The novel became absolutely cluttered with useless drama, misunderstandings, cliche shit, and everything wrong with literature could be found in there. I've never regretted something so much in my entire life.

Don't read this novel. Don't. If you've watched the drama, I can't stress this enough. The characters I fell in love with changed after chapter 40... either the author was forced to write it like that OR he/she has some messed up views of the world. I would never, ever, ever read any of their work again, even on gun point. Never again. <<less
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Kian_Roronoa rated it
April 9, 2018
Status: --
This novel stands by it name "Are you addicted?" and yes, I was addicted to the point that I didn't sleep for 50 hours.

This is the first BL novel that I read in one sitting. I read Book 1 and Book 2 just under 50 hours. Some of the scenes are disturbing but the love they have for each other will kinda make you feel jealous.

Bai Han Qi: Best father in BL world.

***Minor Spoiler***

Yang Meng laughing at You Qi's movie premier was hilarious.
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nixxara rated it
September 21, 2017
Status: v2c27
I seriously love this novel, if I could rate this more than 5 stars, I would. The love between the two main characters is so touching. They're both so silly but are also so in love with each other. The way they interact with each other is like tug-o-war, but they treat each other with so much sincerity. They're both like a drug to one another, even if they want to break it off it's impossible because they're addicted! Honestly, they wouldn't even try to separate anyways since both of... more>> them are stubborn and if they love someone, that's that. Nothing's ever going to change it.

The story starts with them meeting when they are only in high-school. You'll follow them on their journey through adolescence and into adulthood. Don't think that just because they are in school that it'll be boring. Actually, the majority of their story happens outside of school and trust me, so many exciting things happen that you can really feel in your heart the bond they will make! The school scenes will allow you to see more of their interaction with their friends and also responses to other people interacting with their beloved. There's jealousy, friendship, loyalty, and also silliness. Another thing that makes this story so exciting is the plot! One is a poor student, the other is the son of a rich military general! The military general's son is a handsome, sturdy guy who's trained in military since childhood but honestly, the MC isn't lacking at all. He's smart, fit, and also super handsome. Anyways...

(Btw, this is not a spoiler but the MC is obviously the poor student. This is a mini spoiler but I think its needed for people unwilling to accept that the MC is in such dire straits: the military general's son chases the MC first!)

There are enough chapters for the readers to actually gain emotion from the various difficulties they go through, not to mention you will also feel extremely happy when they are happy, but also feel sadness when they are sad. This will make you laugh out loud, cry, smile. It's a rollercoaster of emotions but who doesn't like riding them? It's fun. I hope all you people who read this will enjoy as much as I do! Have fun! <<less
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BellMarsT rated it
March 21, 2019
Status: Completed
I forking finished this novel today, and I am in tears. In tears! This is one of the best novels I've ever read, and believe me, I have read a significant share.

I had this novel on my reading list for months, and I was very apprehensive about reading it due to some of the reviews here that wrote that there was ... more>>


in the book. I finally got to this three days ago, and I was not able to put it down since. I read it until high hours of the night; I read it at work while standing my co-worker's look as they saw me smile, laugh-out-loud, curse, and get angry; I read it in the train; I read it in school, and I read it while sitting in my toilet.

And today, while lying on my bed, I finished, and I am crying like if I just lost my two sons.

I recommend people to read the story. Our dear Chai Jidan created two well flesh-out main characters. She created a story of a couple that struggles for their love. They struggle not only against the cultural values of their society but against the challenges that come with age and youth. The relationships that they had with their parents was very touching and very significant to the overall plot and very moving. I am lying here on my bed thinking about what their future will bring, and I am all smiles.

Now the following part of my review comes with spoilers:


Bai Luo Yin and Gu Hai are united by fate, but what maintains their relationship is their will.


  • Like many other Chinese novels/writers, Chai Jidan's Addicted has details that come off outrageous. For example, Luo Yin becomes a Mayor in the Air Force unit, and he uses the planes as if they are toys, and I could not help but wondered if China has so much money that they would not care to lose so many planes. LOL.
  • Gu Hai is an extremely jealous MC which makes you want to wack him hard. The pattern of his jealousy becomes repetitive as so is the outcome. For example, Luo Yin interacts with a man or woman; Gu Hai gets jealous and punishes Luo Yin usually with a s*xual move intended to shame Luo Yin or berates him like "Ah! Do you like her? Would you like for her to kiss you instead? Blah blah..."; Luo Yin would retort back because he is mad and would walk away; Gu Hai would apologize and say something romantic. This pattern repeats again and again and has all the indications of a dysfunctional relationship; however, after they separate gu Hai changes, sure, the change is minute, but it is there. Also, with the way that Chai Jidian describes this, you realize that this is the way that they communicate as a couple. They are both stubborn and proudful men.
  • The r*pe. Yes, Gu Hai r*pes Yu Ling and is disgusting and heartbreaking. I hate when in TV shows, movies, books - you name it!- the victim pardons the abuser. In this story, the way that the reconciliation was handle was neat. Luo Yin went back to Gu Hai because he wanted to give their relationship a chance and as they are together, they learn to forgive each other and to respect each other and let the past remain in the past. It only happens once and does not become a repetitive offense. I feel this scene could have been cut from the story since it was a little bit OOC, but I can see how the circumstances and Gu Hai's personality and mentality pushed him to this. Although, I wanted to pummel him when he did.
  • At the end of the day, the side couples were not fully developed. I was sad about that.


  • The couple. Their relationship grows on you like a bud planted in cow's dung and germinating against the strongest storm to finally become two little flowers dancing with the wind. LOL. This is the first BL where both Male leads topped each other. It was nice to see. I sincerely liked a line in one of the epilogues when they are having s*x,
    • " This was merely two individuals linking without neither suppressing the other's mentality as they use their most equal and honest hearts to welcome another aspect of life."
  • The relationship with their parents. Luo Yin's father is the best! I loved how he was so accepting of Gu Hao and his son's relationship. He even suggested and helped them to elope.
  • The grow the characters showed was great. Luo Yin had more grow that Gu Hai.
  • The feeling of being part of the story. In the end, you are going to feel like you walk a long journey. A journey expanding more than ten years as you relished in the youth of this couple and their life as adults. You will wish to have a print copy in your bookshelf. I know I want it!
I really wanted to see more of their lives, but I am not going to be that greedy. I thank the writer, translators, proofreaders, and editors who work in this project. You all deserve a big Hwaiting! And Banzai.

To those reticent readers, I tell them don't judge a book by its cover. You'll definitely fall in love with this. <<less
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addictedso rated it
March 27, 2016
Status: --
In love and addicted to this series and novel!! Love the main leads in this drama - xu weizhou & huang jingyu, brilliant natural actors for first timers in acting, well done!

Thank you so much for the English translations of this novel, love it so much!! Look forward to all the other chapters to come. Addicted fan from UK. Brilliant writer, a beautiful story and beautiful perfect actors, in love with all four main leads!:)))... xxx
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LNOnlineOtaku rated it
September 29, 2018
Status: --

First of all, I'm not homophonic, I love BL and GL and had great expectations for this. But, it didn't meet. ML is a female dog and MC is s*upid and petty. Seriously, when I first heard ML ripped out MC's paper because he liked his handwriting, admitted it, and was not sorry at all, I was angry, to say the least. I'm angry MC didn't beat him up! Convenient bell-sama rings just before everything escalates. It left a very bad taste in my mouth. ML cuts holes in MC's vest..... and MC doesn't try to get compensation but gets revenge instead.... yea no this was simply *sigh* If people can stomach stuff like that maybe you will like it.

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izayaYY rated it
April 27, 2019
Status: --
Yes this book is not for everyone. It is about a pair of extreme lovers, a tale of obsessive love and obsessive behaviour. There is a lot of drama but all the conflicts come from outsiders, not within the couple.

For me, GH/BLY is one of the best BL couple, because of their unwavering love and adorable silliness. I love their obsession with each other, their sense of humour and their extreme approach to almost everything. This is what makes them so special.

It is funny how many hated the book. Denigrating... more>> a book genre on the basis of it's tropes is as useless as blaming horror genre for being full of horror tropes. If you are looking for a serious book with a serious plot about the serious struggles of the LGBT... read biographies maybe? ?

This is a work of fiction but also surprisingly comedy, with a lot of slapstick, almost cartoonish humour, common in CJD's novels. I am chinese so I am used to this humour but it seems that chinese humour might be lost on many ?

The first book is just about the blossoming love between the 2MCs, how they met, how they bullied and try to out-smart each other at school, how they fell in love, how they tried to fight those feelings and how they fight family pressure.

Prepare your poor hearts for a harrowing r*pe scene and the heart-breaking ending of book 1. Many say that the r*pe scene is useless but I don't think so. Isn't it coherent with GuHai's extreme personality? But I think it's the separation that is useless or maybe too long


The second book is my favourite as it is the story of their re-encounter 8yrs later. They are now strong, powerful, successful and self-confident adults who can defend themselves against any drama thrown their way. This 2nd book is full of fluff with the usual brand of comedy and silliness. Surrounded with new friends, they now take less bullsh*t from family and try to rebuild their relationship and re-create their little nest, step by step. The 2nd book is the one I re-read often. <<less
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iyok rated it
June 27, 2016
Status: c4
Mediocre writing. Plot isn't too interesting. Could find better thing to read. It was adapted into web TV seires, so it's popular among my peers. Seriously though, I personally think it's overrated.
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Geetaan rated it
December 25, 2019
Status: Completed
Very ❤️ wrenching and at the same time ❤️ warming story
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sochiichi rated it
August 12, 2021
Status: Completed
I went into this expecting a pretty basic and stereotypical over-the-top BL novel, but I had no idea how deep the story and characters would become. Nothing about this story was basic!

We have two very unique and interesting protagonists who I found extremly unrelatable and at certain points unlikeable. But the storytelling and character development made me extremy sympathetic towards both of them until I was convinced that whatever happened between them, they were meant for each other. And believe me, many problematic things happened between them that usually would... more>> have had me stop being interested alltogether. But I kept being pulled back in by their insane obsessive love for each other.

While there are big things that I did not like about this BL novel and I would not condone these things irl, nothing takes away from how much of a wonderful experience reading Bao Luo Yin's and Gu Hai's story was.

I highly recommend this novel to people who have a thick skin. Only want wholesome, fluffy and/or unproblematic love stories? Stay far FAR away!!! <<less
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Hailoyin rated it
January 2, 2020
Status: Completed
Fantastic, heart wrenching, heartwarming, beautiful, amazing, awesome novel.....
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kumastories rated it
April 2, 2018
Status: Completed
The plot is awesome, the characters as well. This story is basically about two boys growing together in rural (ish) China all the way to adulthood.

I am not sure why there's so much negative review but probably since I read more than half of it in the original language I was able to better appreciate the nuances that are lost in translation.

Give this a try for all those who love taboo romance. I don't think you will regret it.
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cutiejoongie rated it
January 25, 2018
Status: v2c11
First time I watch the drama I became addicted. It's so good film with not only smut but also good story, great actors and natural acting.. And It's really heartbreaking when it's must discontiued because all homophobes people!!! I'm so hurt!!!! Well... I'm so thankful for this translation. Hope I can see the ending now...

It's still hurt the drama can't continue... But that is life.

So, . Are you addicted? Definitely
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Reyleisha rated it
February 3, 2021
Status: Completed
Rating: 5/5- one of my first and most memorable modern day BL novels that I will re-read, even though it’s unrealistic and had many very unhealthy situations.

I love this novel, not for its many far fetched scenes, ludicrous scenes or exemplary smutty scenes, but mostly for how unrealistic and dedicated it is to its plot line. Which in my opinion, is about showing how wonderful and s*upid love can be. It’s a work of fiction so far away from reality that it makes it enjoyable.

(Realistically, this plot would land... more>> people in jail and a mental institution. I did not approve of many of the scenes in real life situations, but this is fiction and my opinion below is based solely on that).

Both the MC and ML are just a couple of lovesick idiots but that idiocy and over the top romance made this story really enjoyable for me. If you’re expecting some kind of critically acclaimed plot, you will disappoint yourself. Instead you’re going to find some incredibly crazy and sometimes unbelievable interactions, some completely unacceptable whilst others are far fetched and beautiful in their utter foolishness.

What drove me to love this novel was how much I liked both characters. They aren’t actually very likeable at all but I loved how the author wrote and developed them. I think one reads due to personal preferences and expands tastes based on literature related experiences. This was an experience I thoroughly enjoyed, based solely on feeling. <<less
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