Spending a chapter lecturing a suitor on finding one person to love for life and about him not treasuring love if he can have multiple women, but I'm reading a harem novel so it all just sounds quite ironic to me. Or that she goes around leading on multiple guys even when she's in a relationship and reasons it with "I'm not a good woman". Then why are you with him? Where did the treasured feelings of love go?

She's always talking about women being independent and learns martial arts so she can protect herself considering she's engaging in a high risk job of seducing men without engaging with them. But, when it comes time to actually do her job, all of her protection measures are relying on men. Where did her martial arts go? Where are the throwing knives? Where's the poison? I don't understand why she says she should be prepared for when men aren't around and yet literally makes no preparation just in case none of her men are around. Absolute s*upidity.

It was that whole scene, in fact, that turned me off the story entirely. Because she goes into a whole "woe is me" tirade about not understanding why she was r*ped in both lives and all that. And I'm just sitting there thinking, really? You LITERALLY sold your life for a year to the first guy, no boundaries, no rules, and no limits. At no point did she try to draw up a contract with him or bring up conditions or any of that. As for the second time, not a single one of the weapons/skills she'd developed to prevent the situation were actually used when they were meant to be. Other than crying and bringing up other men to dissuade the rapist, she did nothing before feeling sorry for herself. It's one thing if she were some random girl who was unexpectedly r*ped but she'd spent the last 49 chapters laying out what to do to prevent such a situation and ultimately did nothing. Where were all those thin knives she trained with? Why didn't she have at least one tucked away just in case her harem members were too busy to rescue her from danger?! I couldn't help but feel extremely disappointed with the story. The MC isn't forward thinking at all; she hides behind men just like the bland heroines in male centric stories, except our MC this time has more men to hide behind.

I don't see how Shui Xiao Zhu can forgive Fan Qiu Yan for killing his father. Unless he keeps it a secret from him forever all the while sharing the same woman... I haven't read the ending yet so I can only hope the resolution won't be some asspull from the author.

She was roofied and there was an attempted r*pe. Xin Chen has to sleep with her to get rid of this aphrodisiac's killer effects and all this happened while the prince who she likes was away... While ofc she shouldn't be blamed for it and neither should Xin Chen for betraying the prince but that's not the point here. She starts treating Xin Chen as her bf but projects her insecurities on him saying she doesn't want to tie him down for fear of him leaving her one day because, apparently she has great experience in men and love. Lol yeah, from working at a nightclub and signing a contract without looking at its T&C The issue is, she's not sure whether the prince has abandoned her and it's quite clear she still likes the prince. Instead of confirming whether the prince really has left her (and everyone said no), she assumes he did and starts sleeping with Xin. She would have avoided causing both men and herself so much heartache if she had just oh I don't know, waited for the prince first because he is so freaking obviously coming back in due time since he so left his personal bodyguard with her.

It just gets so much worse after her second actual r*pe and when the reverse harem really starts. Don't you love it when r*pe is used as a plot device for romance? I honestly believe she is suffering ptsd after that. That would explain a lot. Basically, the prince finds out he was betrayed on top of knowing she was r*ped for real the second time. She starts saying she's soiled goods and does a ptsd 180 from stating how she wants to find her ONE true love and won't sell her body to saying she might as well be a prostitute; going from monogamy to polyamory/swinging really except with the condition that none of the guys she has can have other women. Her so-called self-righteousness/insecurity as a result of her past and r*pe is they are free to leave if they cannot accept that condition and that she is a forward thinking modern woman.... Woman. Can you not see you are not giving them any choice here and still clearly hurting them despite saying you're not, because it's SO freaking obvious they love you so much they can't bear to leave you? Sure, sleeping with both men and treating yourself like a true prostitute is not hurting them and yourself then? And you wonder why everything goes from bad to worse? And you keep justifying it by saying you have no choice? Lmao.

Basically, this woman goes and flirts/sleeps with both guys hurting one after the other because she cannot bear to see them sad/feels like she owes them/cannot leave them. How the f*ck is that resolving anything? You don't have to screw them as a solution to console them holy hell. Since no one is happy about you sleeping around, you don't have to sleep with them at all and just be... friends??? if they refuse to leave. My point is she was so dense and hypocritical in not wanting to hurt them yet she kept hurting them both then feeling sorry for herself. Omg. Woman. You don't need men, you need a psychologist. I get that it's reverse harem but please. Don't use such sh*t logic to force the romance.... I could still stomach this and feel some pity for her by excusing it to her trauma/past livelihood and telling myself at least she's honest and open about it to the guys. But ofc terribly inconsistent writing/poor development had to rear its ugly head.

She then falls for Fan Qiu Yan (this guy was my fav character until... read on). She does love them all I suppose. All the guys are so crazy about her their willingness to commit everything (crime and life included) for her moved her to love them/feel like she owes them/pity them. It starts to sound like she's in love with the idea of people who are in love with her. Whatever, moving on. After she falls for Fan, he begs her to sleep with him and keep it a secret from the prince (who still hates the idea of sharing her with other men - what a d*ck move Fan.) and the. b*tch. agrees. They almost do it but are interrupted by the prince himself. Wtf. Wtf. I can't. I seriously can't. I've got nothing against swingers/poly relationships but omg. Aren't relationships supposed to be built on TRUST? Especially with the way this bit*h keeps harping on about how they are one big happy family And saying you can't bear to hurt someone so you have to sleep with them so they won't feel bad....are you not hurting someone else then? All the while righteously proclaiming your modern swinger lifestyle and saying if the prince cannot accept he has to leave after having said she doesn't want to hurt anyone. What is this steaming pile of dogshit. I'm so angry now iaiufdhsefgsofweygwe

She and the empress dowager actually happily plotted together to get the prince's fiancee r*ped. By using that killer aphrodisiac so yeah, the girl can DIE as well if she doesn't get r*peD. Just so they can split up the engagement. I kid you not. This is beyond hypocritical this is monstrous. I don't care how in this setting killing people is normal... Isn't she a r*pe victim herself? Are you raping someone for threatening to steal your man? And these s*upid men still dare to call her kind? I REPEAT SHE PLOTTED TO GET SOMEONE r*peD. I have not read that it really happened as up till chp 91, it was said as a plan... BUT STILL. WOW. JUST WOW. That empress dowager also felt like a cookie cut-out of the MC. And these two f*cking scheming harlots kept emphasizing how they are such amazing modern women. I have no words except the dried up blood and puke in my mouth.

Another puke-worthy mention, she and Fan Qiu Yan joked about her going over to his room during her turn with the prince. This is BEFORE they have CONFIRMED the prince is ok with it. They even happily went holding hands to find the prince to talk reason to him about accepting Fan into her harem. Clearly, she likes his F***ING PRETTYBOY FACE more than anyone else's feelings. Sure... you say it's YOUR lifestyle and it's FAIR as anyone who doesn't want to accept it is FREE to leave. But DO NOT turn around and say how much you can't bear to HURT ANYONE when you are doing precisely such and going BEHIND PEOPLE'S BACKS in a so-called MUTUALLY ACCEPTING FAMILY/POLY RELATIONSHIP. Excuse me while I wipe the vomited guts off my mouth. When I read about how she is so proud to love and love is not a crime... Just let me die.

this who*e can manage to get the demon Yin Yue Chen guy in her harem. And how Fan and the demon guy explain themselves to everyone about mu*dering Shui's father and their underground business secret. Plus the whole empress thing. OH. And if that poor fiancee actually gets r*ped and no one bats an eyelash.

like she's from a 'good' household, but she need to make money for her parent's medical treatment, so far so good, but then she got sexually ab*sed by her chosen gold lord, so she feel despair, and then few months later (it just ab*sed on bed, the gold lord still give her money) she kill the gold lord, then su*cide.

few point:

-wtf gurl, y u no care about your parent?? Who will care for them after you su*cide

-MC want to make money, but she just afraid that her parent will be 'sad' if they knew how she got it from.. I mean, uhh. Lie and hide it? Wtf??

-a 'good' girl can skillfully hook man after 2 years? Wow talent!

-after transmigrated, she didn't even get homesick, like who care about past world parent, even this world parent is just like stranger to her

-y u expect to get love?? Pet?? Care?? It's just relationship based on money gurl.. Wtf with your brain?

killed her (almost) r*per, y u have no brain gurl? It's just a membrane.. You are from modern.. Like you can seduce people easily, and you still keep your hymen like baby?? Arr??

reading about her getting captured and beaten by the backer of the other brothel and her being terrified and begging for mercy and crying and acting like a canon fodder was pathetic