MC didn't have balls and is quite dysmorphic (?) About it, he's actually okay if he's sleeping around with ML with complete body. Ironically ML's reactions after he mol*sted him are what finally pushed MC through his own disgust for his body.

ML didn't drug MC but MC have a body condition that's easily excitable when being drunk.

From what I understand, author meant to write that ML groped MC because he thought MC was excited (he's just drunk). But still he took advantage of drunken MC and it's clear it's very noncon since MC still have body dysmorphia (?)

ML keep saying he gave MC Choice but he pointed out ML's hypocrisy.

That or it's just a bad plot point. Author is kinda impatient sometimes so it's just a plot point meant to show MC that ML is not disgusted by his body. And they can move on (both MC and ml) from that. Basically author want MC to get over his own body and make them intimate.

ML doesn't really care within the circle because it is the point of having thicc thigh. Like saying to other people subtly or in their face that "this person is mine/under my protection"

Paparazzi don't rashly uncover it because the "thigh" are people of power they can't afford to annoy. If they didn't have enough power paparazzi might just uncover it but they usually just give them the pics and ask for money. People inside the circle isn't s*upid. They ain't gonna tattle. Otherwise, Jeffrey Epstein wouldn't happen.

But it's different from public. Circle can know, public must not know. It doesn't matter what your reputation within the circle is. (Like, someone can have a reputation of being a sl*t inside the circle but public only know them as pure, good people)

when the MC said the truth (transmigration) to ML, the ML didn't believe him and asked him to see a psychiatrist. Eventually, the facts are proven but the ML couldn't accept the MC since he liked the fresh innocent and pure new actors.

• alcohol drinking (he refused in the beginning yet even initiate in the succeeding)
• rooming with ML in first film yet being cautious in the latter scenes
• MC is okay going with ML outside with ML's unclean circle and even flirting (ML even kissed/hugged MC in front of those) yet MC a find it a lil off to drink outside with the director and Co-actor with the girls entertaining them
• There's also MC buying back his old house and ML said it might be bad about public opinion yet his unspoken rule with MC is very well known in the circle
• it's also kinda contradictory when they disregard being together in public but in latter part they are careful in their actions as well as the script.
  
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he put an aphrodisiac in MC's wine and touched the MC's front against his will until he reached the climax. The ML is mostly interested in the body of MC (and a Lil on his acting).

Isn't it better to open another room beside the ML or near ML's room. The ML didn't even consider the MC since the MC in the transmigrated body is a newbie in showbiz and this will greatly affect his acting career. He won't be remembered by his acting but by climbing the ML's bed.

if he doesn't have balls then it would be very difficult to get an erection without drugs (not impossible, but difficult) and no balls=no testosterone which means very low s*x drive. I don't think he was on testosterone medication, unless I missed it

The fruit wine that made the MC react, I read the original Chinese text and it's wine but not drugged and ML was surprised by it's effect on MC.

Agree that ML is very blunt sometimes about MC's physical disability but I think they are coming from a place of both adults who don't sugar coat the reality rather than ML trying to hurt MC. However reading this still made me feel uncomfortable, but if MC is ok with it, who am I to complain? After all the ML showed in action that he never disliked him one bit for that and also helped him get special underwear to cover it better. It's not just words that determine whether one is good to another. ML has more than shown with actions and constantly protecting MC's body in various situations that he really cares for him and that's what really counts.

MC and ML being forced to have a surrogate child by ML's eldest brother is really wrong. Both of them aren't really parent material since they are focused on their careers. I just think this part soured the ending though I understand that this is a leftover traditionalist view of you can have gay marriage and a kids, but even the author describes that MC and ML didn't really want it initially though they love their kid. I truly wish the author could have not written this part.

*I generally read spoilers to see if there'll be triggers for me to avoid, so my purpose leaving this review up is for people who'd like to avoid some triggers.

-MC died from alcohol poisoning/overdose, but he continues to overdrink in his new life. Coincidentally, his new body is also weak to alcohol, but it doesn't stop him from drinking. Of course, disclaimers here. Him drinking is due to the nature of his job, but it does seem like a reoccuring plot point here.

-MC emphasizes on the negative side of disabilities quite a bit so it's a little heavy on that end.

-As the characters themselves have flaws, it might be harder to accept some parts that are glossed over especially if you form an emotional connection with them.

Though, I'd highly reccomend trying it out before forming a judgement because the author writes really well.

The way the author wrote the ML's aversion to the MC's original identity was very skillful. ML probably enjoyed the reliance he had felt from the MC (with the MC being younger/more innocent to the showbiz circle) as well as the MC's dislike of his own body meant that at some level, the ML had managed to become one of the only people who knew his body's secret and gave the ML reassurance that the MC wouldn't just run off with someone else.

Then when he found out the MC had originally been a confident person at the top of the entertainment circle, he probably couldn't immediately deal with his feeling of loss or his own insecurities of no longer feeling like he was the rock in the MC's world.

Of course, eventually he does realize that the MC had been the same this whole time and emotionally depended on him the exact same way so nothing had changed.

that they were "forced" by ML's big brother to have a child