Turns out the ML's White Moonlight from childhood is FL AND HE'S BEEN STALKING HER FOR YEARS. Like hiring people to keep tabs on her life and take pictures and shit. That's the part I have issues with. He also schemes to reintroduce the FL's ex's white Moonlight into the picture which leads to them breaking up, which honestly I have less of a problem with because, ya'know, s*um man did his own f*cking up in that whole thing.

But!

You've spent this entire book building up this FL who gets out of a bad relationship where she's lost her self-respect and realizing she should still have it, to slowly finding her way back to believing in love again with some measure of self-respect...

But it's totally chill when she finds out she's been stalked for years. By the ML. but she's chill with it. Like she doesn't even leave the house or anything, she just calls him a pe*vert but she still loves him.

ARGHHHHHHHH.

This could have been a great story a la Return of the Goddess where the FL finds her self love/self respect again and true love with the support and affection of the ML, but nope, the moral of the story is that you should hope your creepy stalker has your best interests at heart. Bleh. That's what knocked it down two stars for me. And I know blahblah it's light novel, but that's the reason it still has 3 stars and not 0. Stalking is not sexy, boys and girls!

Sumpah ya ini novel worth it banget buat dibaca. Capek gue huhuhu. Ceritanya gemes in, sedihnya dapet, fluffy nya dapet, semuanya dapet dahhh. Meng Yu sama Uncle Chu gemesin banget gak bohong. Apalagi side storynya ya rabb, lebih parah kayaknya. Idk mungkin karena yang terakhir gue baca cerita side storynya jadi kebayang2 terus. I think the side story has similary plot in drama korean Nice Guy, cmiiw.

Pokoknya kalau gue yang baca dan review nya bagus artinya ini beneran bagus ya gak bohong, lmao.

He's abnormal. And surprisingly he knows and admits it. At least he's self-aware that stalking and scheming to get his girl (by bringing a woman to the white moonlight's lover which in turn causes her to break up with him which in turn causes her to go to XiaoQi which in turn caused MengYu and XiaoQi's breakup), is not normal and even despicable. It's creepy alright.

BUT. HERE IS THE BIG BUT. First, he's aware that he's abnormal. Second, although he's a stalker, he never hurt MengYu, he's not possessive in an extreme way (like he kills his rivals or doubts the FL every time she talks to a guy), he's not sexually abusive, and he doesn't restrict her freedom. Although he's a rouge in bed and says sexy stuff, he still actually gives her respect (some cn ML's please take a f*ucking note). He is still a pe*vert though.

BUT MengYu loves this pe*vert. She fell in love with his everything. And to be honest, with her experience and personality, she just fit right into him like a missing puzzle piece. Her father died when she was young, her mother had to suck up to her stepsister and completely forgot about her, XiaoQi is freakin undecisive and insensitive he ended up hurting her. She wanted to be loved. And Chu Xiujin gave everything she wanted. Even too much in fact. He's abnormal, but at least he doesn't confine her or ab*se her. To be honest, aside from the stalking and scheming stuff, he acted pretty normal with MengYu (except for his rougish ways).

However, they are a perfect couple because their personalities, experience, and even kinks are compatible. ChuXiujin is possessive and dominant. While MengYu likes being dominated and loved. But if you change our heroine into someone who's very independent, dominant, aggressive, and cold. Boy, their marriage is a war everyday.

So this story is just right. Because the couple fits just right

but he's not the toxic kind. He just looks at FL, tho he schemed to get FL. Its the kind of schemed that unless the people involved are not willing it wouldnt work. A very simple but intricate scheme. He also didnt limit FL nor caged her. As stated by him, he is a fierce and cruel beast. But she is not his prey, she is a cage that can hold him.

Anyways, I still think that they are 2 pieces of a puzzle, they kinda fit perfectly together. She lack someone who will love every bits of her and He can give her the kind of love that will love her to bits and pieces. She has lived her life in a way that everyone seems to take her and her love for granted while He wanted to cherish and take care of her since the day they met. She have so much pure love to give while he needs and craves for this kind of love. Its definitely a good read.

I know other might be turned off by stalker ML. But come on, its fiction, give it a chance.

He does show up several times to interfere and she wavers (before main couple are married) and this is because she has wasted all those years on him and is so desperate for affection that she mistakes his OCD (he cooks and cleans for her) for love when it frankly isnt. But after marrying, FL is very firm and it's just long pages of this piece of sht regretting and realizing that he actually loved her all along. Secretly, I think he has white moonlight syndrome bc it seems he falls for whoever is not available. I guess he likes the pining. He gets what he deserves though, regretting so hard and is tortured by the main couples love for the rest of the book. Very satisfying.

He defends her so strongly, agrees with her in literally everything, waits on her permission, trusts her, doesnt mind her past (he thought she wasnt a virg*n and didnt care at all). Suppports her career, keeps up with stuff she likes, seeks her opinion, asks for her help and makes her feel valued. Ugh just overall such a good guy doing so many things right. And anytime FL is shocked by it he assures her it is his duty and what he should be doing as a husband.

Liked her all along even years ago and I'll explain more on that later

Climbs onto his lap alot, asks for hugs as comfort, calls him Uncle Chu (at first when the joke was introduced I was surprised but it turned out to be so funny and cute), and expressed her love to him so openly.

So in order to get a clear view of the yandere things ML did imma list them out.

1. ML cut up the photos of FL and old dude. That being said, FL was going to throw them away or get rid of them and she told him this. He just did it for her and lied about it. She finds out later and is ok.

2. ML kept the fact that he knew her prior to this a secret. They met when he was a beggar and she gave him money, hes loved her since. She finds out later, is again ok. Especially because her last bf had a whitemoomlight that ruined them but in this case the white moonlight is her. She felt pretty nice about that.

3. He took secret photos of her throughout the years, but he wasnt monitoring her as he would've known if her family was treating her badly, and wouldve done smth about it. But since he wasnt monitoring just hiring people to take checkup pictures, he didnt know. This gets exposed and FL is ok with it, shes even rather flattered so who I am to be mad on her behalf?

4. Maybe the worse thing he did? He orchestrated for the white moonlight to come to her ex bfs door. Now, not directly. What he did was research ex bf past relationships and then arrange for the white moonlights husband to get a side chick. But husband got obsessed with side chick and so white moonlight ran to the door. FL and ex broke up. That being said, I thought it was ok? Not that bad? Frankly speaking he didnt pay the white moonlight to go to the ex bfs door and he didnt pay the ex to choose and pick her over FL. These are all decisions they made voluntarily. His actions at most were handing them the reins, it's not his fault they ran wild. If the white moonlight had self respect enough not to free loud or the ex loved FL, nothing would've changed and ML ML that he would've just given her up. He wouldn't interfere. But he wanted to test the relationship and give himself even the slightest bit of chance, and it paid off. I'm not mad, because again it's best it happened so FL didnt waste more years with someone who didnt love her and so she could find real happiness. Also he wasn't going to do anything if they remained together. FL got mad over this which I understood but ML explained neatly and properly and apologized very sincerely, even crying when he believed she'd leave him.

5. Not a specific event but ML repeatedly exhibits weird behaviors like excessive possessiveness and he himself knows hes weird. Except he does what other yandere fail and curbs it so much we only get glimpses of it. I would say ML is basically a mature and rational yandere, he has those thoughts and tendencies but knows it's in his head and rarely if ever allows it to bother FL. The amount of patience he showed her and her ex is astonishing, even for a non yandere. Hes just very respectful and has good boundaries.

6. Lastly, ML is pretty manipulative. But during his apologies and stuff I neve felt he was tricking her he ALWAYS explained clearly and when confronted never lied. He really worried about her leaving him and one point attempts to convince her of his good points out of fear. You cant help but feel bad for him hes not rlly a violent yandere more a sad and desperate one.

The male lead is obsessed with her. He's the type you can report for stalking and harassment. (He does not harass her though, at least not directly) He manipulates the people around her so he could be with her. However, the female lead loves him so much that these obsessive tendencies are ignored. It's endearing to read, to be honest lol.

I really sympathise with the ex-boyfriend. He was a cold indifferent as*hole for sure but he really regrets it and is willing to change just to get back with the female lead. I think it would be really interesting if the male lead was him. As for the real male lead..... He was ok. I haven't read much so I really can't judge but he's treats the female lead right, so that's a plus

I really can't decide if I like this or not. Everybody has a reason to hate somebody and it's not just unreasonable jealousy. I don't dislike the antagonists, hell I'm not even sure if that one character is really guilty for the supposedly crime he committed. At this point I'm even disliking the couple or the ML for being a bit too much. Then again I'm still considered at the early part of the story, so I don't know if my opinion about this would change. I'm gonna edit this, if it did.

but although it was predicable, I'm still f*cking glad it was he. And Im so happy for those two ahh

was that FL accepted to marry ML being convinced by her mother with the reason of how Wang family spent money on her to raise her, which to what I know as a rational person is that till age 18 it's the parent's responsibility, of course, you pay that at their pension or taking care of them in their old age but FL to be caged like this for the plot, it shows how the plot intervened to make FL OOC by being irrational in this reason by: "paying a debt to the family by marrying when the family just wants profit, not reason of because they are poor, ill and no money, etc"... Another minor problem is that we don't get to know FL's and ML's age in the whole novel, made me take one star+ stalking even with only taking photos, IRL that's not HOT, in novels it is indeED HoTT pe*vertism.

Ji Ya and Ji Xun's extra chapters not being brother/sister was cool and the plot is THICK from the "Author" for Ji Xun's health.