I thought the ML was going to have some diagnosis by the psychiatrist such as Alexithymia, since he doesn't process emotions correctly or that he was raised as a pampered above everyone else 2nd gen who learns the errors of his ways and at least grovels. Nope he is just a jerk who the author gave a negative EQ

instead they both just silently suffer, MC in the first half and ML in the second. The 2 were just like "Who cares about communication?!" I mean I get to have a story there needs to be some misunderstandings but this story is all a misunderstanding. Chapter 85 is when the 3 month agreement is over, and then I'm assuming more of the same drama because they don't get married until way later, this is not a 194 chapters worth of story.

also WTH MC, you let the poor cousin think you're dead then string him along as the actor. You didn't even have temporary amnesia which could have forgiven a bit, no he is just selfish through the whole novel. I mean he steals someone else's identity and tries to pass it off as noble, to keep the grandma/grandpa? happy

Both sides are too stubborn. I was rooting for MC for half the book then ML later. The clincher for me to feel sad for ML was when he keep asking every April fools day, MC's supposed death, if MC is back and then remembering that he's dead. for the past year he function as if MC is alive by seeing how he never touch anything regarding MC. He was also waiting for him. This shows that he has some psychological problem. And I was glad he asked for help. When his mother died he also shows the same attitude, he did not cry nor ask for his mother, he did not even look at his mother's photobook. But he patronizes things related to his mother, the fashion brand, the supposed whitemoonlight, who were favored by his mother.

For MC, I am glad he stood his ground... barely, because he easily succumbs to ML in a few chapters. He claims to be over him but gets into cat fights with the white moonlight. (But at least tell us why ML could just stay quiet while his friends belittle MC!). Then when you think we are heading to the ending MC would suddenly ran away and think of some excuse why he can't be together with ML yet at the same time having s*xual relationships with him (this was the part I started feeling sorry for ML and rooting for him. MC clearly still has feelings for ML but he keeps on trying to finds for an excuse to reject him whilst not letting him go completely. Come on! make up your mind!

he sought help from a psychologist, accepted that MC is dead, he finally dropped his friends. cater to MCs whims and waited for MC to give their relationship a label

He finally had the guts to leave ML but he can't even stand his ground. In less than a few months of meeting with ML they stumbled on the bed. He claims to be over ML but get into cat fight with the whitemoonlight. Doesn't want to have relationship with ML but still accompanies him, have dates and sx with him. He keeps on pushing ML away then pulling him back, through out the rest of the story after the misunderstandings are revealed. Also he is a case of hearing ML has white moonlight then he follows whitemoonlight's likes and when ML have no idea about his real preferences he gets bitter. I mean why would you wonder? you acted like the whitemoonlight yourself now you're angry when ML doesn't know your preference why you didn't try showing a piece of you to him.

"I was going to propose to you at that timeee!"

If ML really loved, was going to propose to him why did he mock him 24/7 with his friends and calling MC a plaything? Why did he tell him that they are nothing but s*x partners? Why did he said nothing when everyone was bullying and making fun of MC for 5 years ? ML not kissing, refusing to look at MCs face during the S.., always doing it from behind, not caring if he is hurt afterwards... and he suddenly says all this is because ML cared for MC so much... like WTF? Author tried to explain but it made no sense all. He bought the exact same clothes and even glasses for what? It's his favorite brand? Then why does the white moonlight wear 100% the same thing?

the clothes, accessories and perfume was never the 'white moonlight's' aesthetic. the clothes were from a brand that ML's mother's company has. every year, the company would send the new collection in MC's sizes to ML and what the 'white moonlight' had was merely bought from his own money.

why the ML treats the 'white moonlight' well, from young, although the kidnapping incident happened, it was mentioned by ML that the two kids took care of each other but the media exaggerated that the 'white moonlight' took the brunt of it. anyway, ML'S family is obv strong and thus his elders always told him, when young, that he should treat the guy well and take care of him well. (much like brainwashing ig and it stayed with him.)

ofc I'm not trying to invalidate MC's feelings and I still think the reasoning is bull but it gives an insight. the ML obv has trouble trying to sort out his emotions, when his mother died, he threw away the camera, bcs his mother loved taking pictures, and was stoic through the whole thing.

ML's group of friends truly s**ked and I'm pretty sure he didn't give a damn about them but just goes out to feel some sort of hussle and bustle.

in the end, ML decided that enough was enough and cut out the 'white moonlight' and he never appeared until the end bcs ML basically forbid him from reentering Nancheng, 'white moonlight called to ask if he could come back' and basically ML asked MC and ML said he'd listen to MC. so he never came back. this part got me 🫠 bcs idk how I feel about it. like can't ML do it himself and not just listen to MC? but ig I understand it. anyways.

oh and the blindfold and doggy style was basically just his s*xual preference in some sense. doggy, bcs the position felt good and he could reach deeper and blindfold, I couldn't rly understand the mtl... it was kinda said in passing in later chapters (towards the end ig), as he didn't like seeing him cry (prob during sex) but now he does. (or he actually liked the eyes but smth smth. idk.)

not kissing was bcs he wasn't in love with the MC at that time and said kissing was too intimate (for bed partners) but he grew to love him over the 5 years but took it for granted.

MC knew they were only bed partners bcs that's what they agreed on at first.

I kind of wish the ML full blackmailed the MC first based of the MC's situation after he became Qin Zhou (like he could even threaten him and completely cancel him so that, MC would have no choice but to listen to him) and can make his regret arc after his grandma passed away. It would be much more satisfying, rather than half help him, half forced him. I just het annoyed by it lol

The MC changed his identity and got into showbiz. He doesnt have enough resources to cover all his track but, miraculously HE DID! (This part is already a no no for me, not realistic)

but NAH, our MC is not smart enough. My guess was right that he didnt even covered his tracks that carefully because the ml's pyschiatrist found out all about him in just one investigation.

A petpeeve I have is that the ML has pretty significant boundary issues. Like kissing him even when the MC says no, not using a cond*m, being irrationally jealous bla bla bla.