After I Died, the Scum Gong’s Grief was Too Much for Him to Live


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Xu Zhun was terminally ill, and his doctor said that he only had 3 months left to live.

He wanted to spend his little time left to love He Chengyang but He Chengyang used his little time left to brutally hurt him.

Xu Zhun: If I die one day, will you be sad?

He Chengyang: Shouldn’t I be happy?

Xu Zhun was really dead, but He Chengyang, who was supposed to be happy, knelt in front of his grave and cried.

He said: Xiao Zhun, come back! I am willing to lose my life for you to come back!

After Xu Zhun was reborn, He Chengyang humbled and licked: “Xiao Zhun, give me a chance this time for me to love you!”

Xu Zhun kicked him off: “But I don’t love you anymore!”

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8 Reviews

New emiliers
Apr 28, 2021
Status: --
Ahahaha, oh man, I almost forgot this story existed until it showed up on my feed again. I'll start by just saying straight-up: this is the absolute worst "scum abuse" (if it can even be called that) and/or rebirth/revenge story I've ever read. Just... so awful it's actually super memorable, and even though it's been months since I've even touched it, I still remember most of the events with crystal clarity because it was just so terrible.

So, first off, if you are reading this for some good, ol' scum abuse... more>> or even a basic revenge plot, you better stop while you're still ahead, because this series does not have any of that -- or at least, not any of that competently.

I think it's first failure is in how much time it spends detailing, in absolutely excruciating detail, how much the ML abuses the MC. Like, usually with these kinds of stories, the author spends a few chapters on the abuse before the rebirth comes, right? Well, here, the author spends, what? Literally a third of the story (like... fifty chapters, I wish I was kidding) on the original life before actually getting into the rebirth bits. And this original life is just abuse on abuse on abuse, with no end in sight.


For a taste of how terrible it is: at one point, MC realizes he has... cancer? Some incurable disease that's almost certainly going to lead to death or something. He tells the ML, and the ML actually seems to start having some glimmers of regret about how he treated the MC, but then, within like a chapter, the ML's white moonlight have somehow successfully convinced the MC that... what? the disease is somehow faked? Then the ML's white moonlight ends up straight-up stabbing his adoptive mother when his mother begins suspecting that the MC is her actual son and not the white moonlight. And then he somehow manages to convince both the police and the ML that the MC was the attempted murderer, which leads to ML sending MC to prison... And then MC dies in prison from his illness.

And ML only thinks to check on MC to prove his brother (the second male lead who is vastly superior to ML in every way) wrong because the ML's brother is furious at ML for throwing a terminally ill person in prison while the ML is still convinced that the MC is faking.

And then, once the ML realizes the MC is dead, MC's mother wakes up and reveals the truth, that MC is her son all along -- the original person that ML liked when he was young -- and that the white moonlight is a murderer! L O L I CAN'T EVEN. And then, and then, the ML takes MC's corpse and sets both of them on fire... L M A O.

Like, holy shit, who would ever want to have a guy this mentally unstable as your boyfriend? And that's just the tail end of those FIFTY CHAPTERS. I'm not even listing out all the terrible things that the ML did to the MC before that.


So, when the author has spent so long writing, in vivid, lurid detail, how terrible the ML is, there comes a point where the ML passes the point of redemption. Like, after all of that, there was no way that the ML was ever getting redeemed, no matter how much he repents. Yet the author still insists on it!

And thereon, I come to the second way that this story failed -- the revenge is not satisfying at all. It's so unsatisfying that I'm left wondering why the author even bothered to make it the original driving force for the MC in his second life, because it's such an absolute nonentity in the next parts of the novel. In fact, the next part of the novel is just a huge will they-won't they between the MC and the ML, not the promised revenge.


So the primary antagonist is the ML's white moonlight, who is actually the MC's cousin. I did some rapid skimming of their backstory because I was so tired of the abuse at that point, but essentially: MC's true identity is actually that of the son of a rich family, proven by a... pendant he has? White moonlight steals this pendant when they're young and reunites with said family under the pretense of being their son. He then pays off the doctor to fake blood tests, etc. And his primary motivation for framing MC was fear that his ruse will come to light (even though, uh, his mother still survives at the end of that lifetime, so he would've been SOL anyway, so REALLY BAD PLAN, MY DUDE, but no one is known for their IQ in this story).

Anyway, in the second life, both the MC and the ML get reborn back to their late teens, when they were still just classmates in high school instead of in a relationship. While the MC gets his memories back immediately, the ML gets like... a chapter or two to get his memory back, and then after that the revenge becomes a non-starter.

Because, after all that abuse, after all the buildup from the terrible schemes of the white moonlight, the moment ML wakes up with his memories, he immediately comes out with the fact that MC is actually the true son and white moonlight is a schemer! And when this moves the mother to try and get a redone blood test, she then conveniently overhears the white moonlight and doctor discussing how to fix the blood test results! And that's it! Revenge over! White moonlight and doctor arrested, and MC accepted back into the family!

And this takes, oh, like five chapters to resolve!! Just... Right after the rebirth!! Without ANY of the MC's input!! Like WTF!!!


So after having to endure all those chapters upon chapters of abuse, scheming, and setup for revenge, the actual revenge lasts... like, five chapters before it is resolved, and with very little of MC actually doing anything. That is NOT a satisfying way to end a revenge setup narrative (which this story absolutely was!)

Honestly, this was the point where I threw in the towel, because what was left of this story was basically just the ML groveling incessantly for the MC to take him back, despite literally causing his death in the previous life. And they're probably still going to end up together, despite the ML being an absolute sh*t without an ounce of self-reflection lmao.

Like, if this had an actual satisfying revenge component, I might have read to the end out of a morbid curiosity to see how that unfolds, but it doesn't even have that, so what does it have? Really, really bad soap opera-esque love drama that isn't even in the least cathartic because it's just the same tired old wank over and over again. Honestly, even if you like scum abuse stories, I would not recommend this. It doesn't even have the audacity to be tr*shily entertaining, just tr*shy. <<less
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New themeanmeat
Apr 22, 2021
Status: c45
The title and the plot description is very deceiving. I'm already at ch45 and MC haven't died yet. I hate ML. I hate the plot twist more!!

MC is actually a lost son of rich and ML's white moonlight was pretending to be him. So ML treats the fake white moonligh with care and hurts MC not knowing that MC is his real love. Tsch!!

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Not Today
Not Today
May 21, 2020
Status: c65
I can't even begin to describe how much I DO NOT RECOMMEND this book.

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The ML has beaten, manipulated, r*ped, and even imprisoned the MC in their first life. (Which by the way takes a whole 55 chapters to be completed & then both the MC & ML are reborn several years into the past.) What's worse is that the ML is even DIRECTLY responsible for the MC's death in their first lives. He never trusted the MC regardless of his "feelings", and in the end thanks to the scheming of others, he puts the terminally ill MC in prison where he's beaten & r*ped to death.


After reading all of that angst & tragedy in their first lives I actually skipped ahead to make sure that I wasn't getting in over my head with this story only to find out that the scum male, that genuinely DESTROYED the MC's life almost singlehandedly is the ML! That's just a no from me, I don't care how much he regrets it & repents for his former actions, he does not deserve the MC!

Besides in their second life, one thing that I really don't like is that it's now the MC taking on the role of the abuser. I'm not being a victim blamer, but after being reborn he's hit/beat the ML multiple times. For instance, in one of the first few chapters after being reborn the MC slaps the ML, and the ML gets upset which scares the MC who's expecting his horrible temper, but instead the ML grabs his palm that's now red & worries over him. Was that supposed to be touching? That's NOT CUTE, abuse is just plain wrong.


I haven't been able to find the completed raws, so I mean there is technically still hope that the ML isn't the scum gong, but that seems highly unlikely.

There have been some dub-con kisses between the two, and even a drunken confession where the MC says that he both hates the ML & Loves him. In the second life, the ML acts like gum stuck to the bottom of the MC's shoes. Follows him everywhere, confesses his love from Day One, apologizes, etc. But I genuinely hope that they're not endgame!!

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Dec 30, 2020
Status: --
I read up to half of the second arc after being reborn. First arc I'm like, okok, poor dude. I shed a few tears at the end of the arc and was totally ready for the scum gong abuse in the second arc. I didn't get what I wanted.

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Xu Zhun died really tragically after getting tossed around by He Chengyang. It includes drama with Xu Yi, his disease, and finally dying in prison.


Angst in arc is really up my alley as I looked forward to arc 2 where Xu Zhun pays it all back.


But arc 2 gets really petty. 'Revenge' consists of nonfigurtively slapping He Chengyang many times, getting angry, and the overused plot device of being drugged. He Chengyang despite 'regretting' their last life is still a piece of sh*t. He didn't learn anything. He still forces kisses and other unwanted touching despite Xu Zhun making it clear he hates He Chenyang. What pisses me off most is that Xu Zhun's mother encourages it despite knowing Xu Zhun hates He Chengyang and gets them engaged even though there was an excuse. There's also the cliche "oooh I'm in a hospital ouch because I saved you and now you must be nice to me." Just admit it, the relationship is beyond redemption and the only way to make it seem ok is if tragic events suddenly appear to unnaturally force the two together.



I stopped reading as soon as the "I don't know why but I'm attracted even thought I hate him" appeared from Xu Zhen's mind. This is the first novel with a scum gong that I actively hope for the main character to end up with the other person in the love triangle. Aren't company presidents supposed to be wise in some aspects? He Chengyang is repeatedly s*upid, gets tricked, and is s*upidly stubborn the first arc. No tricking yet, but is repeatedly s*upid and is s*upidly stubborn in the second arc. I said before but He Chenyang learned absolutely nothing. No improvement at all other than regretting not having Xu Zhun around to fck.


This is the first novel I was so infuriated that I took so much time to write a review. I read it at 3 am because arc 1 and was good and really wanted He Chengyang is truly regret his character and his s*upidity in the second arc. No signs of that so far.

Another review gave a good review because he/she liked what was translated so far and I agree. But everything after rebirth... can't say the same. 我有点希望贺成扬永远不会好死。作者说‘哇,这故事好甜啊!’ 不甜。作者脑子有点不对。

I'll keep reading because I refuse to drop any novels at all. I wasted 2 hours reading arc 2 what's another 2 hours finishing it. The two stars are purely for arc 1. I'll update this review when I finish although I don't see much hope. <<less
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May 21, 2020
Status: c56
If you like gongs who are nice, considerate, trust their lover and treat them like human beings, this is NOT for you!

... more>>The gong is played around by the villain shou like silly and is just a straight up fool. Nonsense man! The MC is stuck in a toxic relationship ship, to the point where the ML killed the MC, only to regret it later. Which is s*upid. The author tries too much to justify ML's actions. "He was manipulated, " "he was tricked, " "he has a fiery temper." Thats all bull.

The second male lead, WHO TREATS THE MC LIKE A HUMAN BEING, is unfortunately sidelined for human garbage.

  1. Also justified r*pe from ML. Like wtf.
I understand the gong eventually "repents" and I do feel a smudge of pity. But, I wished he suffered more, from what I can see from the title, he gets the MC's heart.

Writing is good, translation is good.

Plot-wise? Dog blood drama, so many misunderstandings that could've been solved in ML had 0.00001 braincell <<less
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Nov 26, 2020
Status: --
I dont usually leave review but the other 2 seem to be missing point of as story like this.

This is one of those dog blooded drama with a scum gong and pitiful shou who gives up/does everything for the sake of love. Its embrassing but that stuff hits the good stuff. I got a soft spot for these soap opera-esque story. There's something enjoyable about watching your scum gong who is unsuprisngly a big shot ceo treat the shou like sh*t and not even realize he's got feelings about the... more>> guy.

ex. Of said behavior when our MC works overtime in order to have enough money to buy decent food when the gong express he wants to have dinner only for him to insult the meal not knowing our shou barely got anything to eat for himself.

Or when shou return home after doctor tells him his sick body cant handle physical intensity only for gong to push down all the while insulting him cause he just his booty call. Then stopping only cause his "white moonlight" calls. *Need eyeroll emoji*


Why because you know that same dude is gonna be kneeling when he wants to reform into a doting lover.

we already see traces of that even begore MC dies and gets reborn when gong bigger big shot older brother arrives on the scene. Oh love triangles, such a guilty pleasure.


So if you like that then your in the write place. *I'm mtling cause theres only 2 chps with dead links available. But the mtl is pretty understandable and easy to read. * <<less
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Nao Otosaka
Nao Otosaka
Apr 21, 2021
Status: Completed
It was a bit too fast-paced for me. I was hoping for the plot to be more inclined towards details (like Brother or Everyone loves Pei JiYu) but unexpectedly... the author just skimmed over it. It was like the author was trying to express a lot of things and they all did come together, but as a mess. Honestly, there wasn't any distinction with the timelines and despite the tragedy tagline it wasn't able to strike the right nerves to me. Just like the author did with the entire story,... more>> I too ended up 'skimming' through the entire novel and till the end it wasn't able to grasp my interest. Apart from the translator's quality translation, I wasn't able to point out any significant factor that really caught my attention, thus the two stars.

P.S: Also, the plot was kind of a predictable for me, like, how the events just unfolded, you can predict the sequence of future events, so there's no element of surprise to it. It kind of a ruins the interest and zeal to continue with the story.

  1. Just wanted to add another point, the brain-holes of the characters are too big in this story. Well, despite the fact that it is meant to be a work of fiction, there must be at least some reality in there for it to be equally readable and enjoyable. But, it completely lacked that.
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Apr 08, 2021
Status: --
I just read this novel and the first chapter make my tears come out... he Chang Yang treat xu zhun real bad. For example He Chang Yang r*pe him so many times and didn't even realized that Xu Chin was sick at that time. he even sent him to prison to die

The early chapters are similar like the decade of deep love... however the different is that both of them were reborn again and rectify their lost time.

After all of the bad deeds I'm not sure of He Chang Yang... more>> should be forgive or not.... Xu zhun suffered so much during the previous life. however after the 200 chapters..I can't avoid to Lough at He Chang Yang effort... at least he tried to gain forgiveness from Xu Zhun... <<less
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