I love a ML slow-boiling an MC, especially how they just "started" with kissing. Love it! Obsessive MLs hell yea!

before and after the time skip, I guess I expected more "hell" that "kiss" lol

I can't wait to read when John finds out he's not a beta but an omega hehe

But John doesn't end up with the person who would have been the better choice for him, and I was also just frustrated throughout the 4 volumes because the toxic people just kept winning out, and the protagonist just kept getting a raw deal, even by his (sh***y) Dad and Stepmother.

For me, this book was a tragedy, not a love story, but I don't regret reading it.

Just to be fair, no amount of face-slapping or punishment can make up for certain things. This book is more elevated and real than simple face-slapping so nothing that happens after the crimes and injustices against John (by Valentine, his parents, or the other alphas) can't feel like justice, so nothing feels (to me at least) like redemption. I only see it as forgiveness on John's part.

If the MC was set up in a way like how others described "cinderella" like where his new family didnt treat him well, he was abused, etc. then I would understand why he's always so prickly and claims to be the victim... but before the time skip his family treated him well, valentine also loved him in a sense... didnt do anything to harm him. In fact the whole turning into an omega was also something that happened naturally, valentine didnt induce it nor was there any villain behind the scenes trying to sabotage him so what is he so angry about? and at prom when other alphas targeted him... that was also something that was out of anyones control. It is just part of his trauma. But the MC projects all his misery onto valentine and blames him for it? Keep in mind when valentine and john sleep together due to his heat, there has been a build up of their relationship where theyve kissed, done other s*xual stuff together, it's not completely done out of nowehere.

and after the time skip, valentine returns but his "obsession" is just kinda boring? there is such a lack of action on his part. and john just constantly pushes him away not even giving a single chance despite witnessing how patient valentine has become. And looking back at the feelings they had pre time skip its as if they didn't even exist. theres no attachment, and the chemistry just fizzles out. UGHHHH FRUSTRATING THIS NOVEL HAD SO MUCH POTENTIAL.

Su is pretty consistent with his "I am alone" personality. Even though so many years pass and they treated him well, he don't consider them as family. It's not that he is alone and that they didn't made him belong but it's the MC himself who rejects that with his consistent negative perspective. He is too prideful for someone who thinks he have nothing, and that is why he doesn't have anything. He can't even accept his father's money, talk about selfishness. He doesn't want to accept anything that the house gave him like they're some dirty being who didn't treat him right. It's like he is making it seems like he was abused in that house for all the years growing up. He wanted comfort from his family, but does he give comfort? Do he approach them and tell them what he needs? No, he wants them to be like an esper and know what his needs are. Communication problems is really a popular troupe in this kind of novels.

He is not allowing himself to accept the great things that is being offered, that is why his state is like that. I don't mind the MLs possessiveness because of the MCs personality. And there are bunch of guys who likes MC, What!?! Why? MC halo for sure aside from that there is nothing he can offer. The author sure did follow such a popular old troupe from early 2010s, I mean they did a great job with the writing and pacing than other Korean novels especially with every phase but 4 volume is too dragging for it.
It's like there is food in front of you if you don't eat it because of your pride then no matter how much food you're offered then you'll always he hungry. No one makes you feel alone, it is you who have the power to decide what you feel and to make yourself know and accept that you are not alone.

I like the concept but the cliche MC personality going on to make him pitiful is not really working for me. It's like he is creating his own misery, well we all do.

Summary: John was the illegitimate son of a super rich man who already had an heir in his son Valentine. John's mother dies and he goes to live with them and develops a close relationship with his half-brother Valentine. As young adults it starts to develop into more but before a real relationship is solidified, John presents as Omega and Valentine r*pes him. John is devastated and hides for 7 years, living in misery, until Valentine finds him and pursues him again.

Also the scene that broke me was when John asked Joseph if "he wanted to r*pe him", because John is actively aware that he never gave consent FOR ANYTHING that Valentine did to him. Also we see Valentine use abuse and gaslight techniques on John, and they work! So John stays!! Because they are techniques that are just made for a victim to never escape.

Also, I wanted to cry when John realised that his parents don't care about him.

he makes our MC can't sleep without him, always depend on him, I feel kind of scared lmao I think the MC will got hurt so bad later 🤡

anyway is that joseph guy are john's mate??? Cus he can sense the MC pheromones