Flying Gulls Never Land


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“I went to prison for ten years for him, and not once did he come to see me.”

While he was explaining the questions to me, I always admired the view of his side profile, seeing how the sunlight would hit his fluttering eyelashes, casting faint shadows just beneath his irises.

Every time I was entranced by his good looks, I would marvel at whether his biological parents were fools, because how could a normal person abandon such a handsome and healthy boy.

From then on, I believed the deep affection I couldn’t push aside for him was just the attachment I felt for an older brother, a dependency born from the lack of a father figure in my life.

Until the appearance of Qi Yang.

“The only difference between me and Sheng Min Ou’s harasser, is probably the fact that I call Sheng Min Ou ‘Older brother’”

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Eternal Flight of the Gull
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New Yume8018 rated it
October 17, 2021
Status: Completed
I've been thinking about writing a review about this novel for quite some time, and now after finishing the last chapter, I decided to put some of my thoughts into words.

For once I can say for sure that this novel is not for everyone. If you can't handle toxic relationships, then I'd advise you to stay away from reading. Personally, I have nothing against it and if I'm being completely honest, I'd have to say that it is one of my biggest (and most liked) guilty pleasures. But only taking... more>> into account that there will be development and growth. Even though the development at the beginning is slow and almost soundless, it progresses inexorably, leaving you completely stunned after having reached its peak. I don't want to get too much into detail, but it surely made the initially torturous journey worth it towards the end.

One of the reasons why I love this novel a lot is the MC. At first he seems to be uncomprehendable, well mostly his feelings for ML were a mystery to me. How could anyone continue to love the same guy after all they have done to you? Recounting everything ML has done to make him look like the most unlikeable character throughout the first half of the novel, made it very hard for me to understand and sympathize MC's actions and decisions. But screw that! MC surely knows what he's doing, he knows why he loves ML and even though he knows his chances are as low as they can get, he obviously doesn't care about any of it. I love his personality. He is real, he is tough and he knows his worth. He fits ML very well is all I can see. It's like they were made for each other. MC is probably the only person on this entire planet that is capable of understanding and sincerely loving ML.

Same thing can be said about ML. At first glance he looks like any other cold and aloof "mind-your-own-business" gong, but evidently that is not the case after getting to know him better. It's very hard for me to explain his character. He's different, far from what's considered normal, far from what's considered boyfriend material. But there's a discreet loving/doting side of him that only shines through his secretive affections towards MC which makes him appear human, showing his capability to cherish and to love.

I seriously enjoyed every interaction between MC and ML, even the cruel and hard to swallow ones. This is a slow burn through and through, but the flourishing of their relationship comes just at the right time. It evolves steadily and naturally with a lot of sparks here and there to keep the tension going. All in all this novel was a blast to read. I love dark and twisted stories, but underneath all the pain and bitterness, there is a slight taste of honey melting your heart in the most satisfying fashion. FGNL is short but every chapter leaves you with an aftertaste of wanting more. Be sure to read the tags before starting, it might not be an easy read for some, but for me it was definitely worthwhile. <<less
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jiang ying yue rated it
November 7, 2020
Status: Completed

This story, is amazing.

I would give this a good 4.5 rating, rounding it to 5 stars. I am a big lover of angst and things that make me suffer.

I love each character, you may hate the ML at first due to how he treats the MC, but later you would come to understand his character. To be honest, I enjoyed the ML's character very much, he felt complicated to deal with, his character could've became wayward if he... more>> wasn't took care of. I honestly would really like his POV but sadly the author didn't write one. I would love to see how his mind works and thinks. (Both characters are twisted in their own ways, the ML is clearly not normal. Don't judge his character if you haven't finished the novel, there are worse out there)


he has antisocial disorder


Now the MC, he was quite cute. He's stubborn, but in a good way. I can't really say much about his character but his character wasn't hate able. He's kind, but he's more morally gray more than good. I really liked his character too.

The plot was amazing! I love the court scenes and cases, it was very interesting. Qi yang too, so glad he's dead! I'm so grateful to the author who started the story after he was dead.

Especially the side characters! Wei Shi, Shen Xiao Shi, Yi Da Zhuang, Wu Yi, etc, they were endearing, I loved the relationship between the four of them.


wei shi ends up with shen xiaoshi, noice


Honestly, it was quite realistic some parts. It felt quite sombre and solemn. I would definitely recommend this to people. Overall, it's a great story, it didn't feel cliché, it of course was a bit heavy, but enjoyable. The author wrapped and weaved the plot beautifully. Even after days I can't help but think about this novel, it's one of my favorites.

It may not be for everyone as this story has many triggering themes, but the author wrote everything so cleverly. It feels original, a breath of fresh air from many novels with recycled tropes.

Please read it! It's amazing.


MC did not kill Qi yang unlike what toleroid's reviews says!

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karwasama rated it
June 17, 2021
Status: Completed
This novel made me realize that I'm probably a bit of a masochist, because the beginning is very, very painful, but I kept going. And I'm glad I did, because the growth of the characters and the development of the romance was fantastic. (You're going to need to hold out until like Chapter 45 for any hint of sweetness, so brace yourself my dear readers T.T)

The ML seemingly hates the MC at first. He's cruel, heartless, and it's made all the worse because the MC is infatuated with him.... more>> He tells the MC over and over again to leave him alone, that he doesn't care about him in the slightest, but the MC keeps coming back because, well, the boy's in love (and also.... well the yandere tag is partly there because of him lol). It really hurt to read, but what kept me around were the slight inconsistencies in the narrative.

Our MC is obsessed with the ML, right? But he's also, to his core, convinced that the ML loathes him. It's very subtle, but if you read in between the lines you realize his description of events may not paint the entire picture - for example, it's established early on that our ML hates Qi Yang (a side character, and for good reason too). Yet, in almost every subsequent flashback we see, the MC describes the ML treating Qing Ling well (and in turn, himself not well), assuming it's because the latter can really "understand" his brother. I found it so strange, but this novel is entirely in the MC's first person perspective. He's an unreliable, biased narrator, and he's so convinced that the ML hates him that I wouldn't trust everything he says about the ML.

I think this is backed up by future chapters too.


So the moment he finds out that the ML isn't totally indifferent toward him (Chapter 45), his view on how the ML is behaving changes. Before it was like "oh, the ML doesn't even care that I'm here, his expression hasn't changed the slightest, he must be so revolted talking to me" and now the MC starts to pick up on the strange inconsistencies, like "huh, he should at least be surprised that I show up on this occasion that I had no right to be in, is his faking it?". Another example is that there's one time they meet in the bathroom and the ML leaves his watch behind, making the MC (who up to this point was doing exactly what the ML ""wanted"" him to do and ignoring him) have to catch up and give it to him. It's up to interpretation but I would think that this genius, calculating ML would never do something as foolish as leave his luxury watch on the sink counter of a public bathroom.


This aspect of the novel was super interesting and well done. I was thrown off a little by the first person and the fact that we never got to see things from the ML's POV, but now I think I know why the author chose to do so.

As other reviewers have mentioned, this novel deals with a lot of heavy topics. Suicide, self harm, abuse, r*pe, gore, you name it. Only the abuse and r*pe are discussed super in-depth in regard to the MC -


- both of which are done by the ML. MC gets drugged and the ML takes advantage of him, and in general the ML is pretty physically abusive/violent with the MC (lots and lots of choking here, "beating" him up during a sparring session, etc.) but the MC doesn't seem to mind....


The MC and ML's relationship is pretty f*cked up but it's also so captivating, kind of like watching a train wreck in real time. They're both "abnormal" people who are obsessed with each other (the MC is just way more obvious about it). I don't like the ML, even knowing all of his backstory and how he does actually care for the MC, but I respect the fact that the MC adores him. He's an interesting character regardless of how dislikable he is, and if their relationship, while dysfunctional and unhealthy, works for them, then hey! I'm happy for them.

A segment of the novel that I think describes them well (Chapter 66) :


"You asked me before if I would be sad if you died. I won't. Everyone is going to die someday, there is nothing to be sad about." His breath gently blew across my neck. "But I will be angry."

"While I'm still alive, how dare you die?"

"I have been enduring this boring world, so you must endure it with me."


Overall, I rate this a 4.5/5.0 stars. I think this novel is for a specific type of people who are looking for a specific type of story, so make sure you really read all the tags and the reviews and you keep in mind that the ML is seemingly cruel bastard for a majority of the chapters. <<less
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toleroid rated it
April 3, 2021
Status: c28
This book is truly dumb. Also, the MC is so ridiculously s*upid, even for a yandere character type.

I don't understand why everyone is hating all the ML for being cold to the MC. It's possible that he's done a lot of things wrong, but let's just look at the relationship between the MC and the ML.

The MC is no different from a crazy stalker. There's literally no reason for the ML to treat him well or even talk to him. If someone you didn't like repeatedly showed up to your... more>> workplace to harass you, literally killed someone to try to get your attention, and also isn't capable of controlling their emotions, then it would be normal to get a restraining order against them!

Why does everyone think the MC "deserves" the ML's attention? Even if they were brothers, clearly the MC wasn't a good brother to the ML and sided with their mom in abusing him. <<less
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lufengs rated it
July 19, 2021
Status: Completed
this is one of my favorite novels, but as another review said, it is definitely not for everyone.

i really really enjoyed this story. one of my favorite things about it was the first person pov. at first it threw me off but as you keep reading, it really gives you a feeling of heaviness and deepness of emotion coming from the MC.

not everyone will like the MC. he chases after things he knows is bad for him. he is the type of person to love with his whole heart... more>> and it can cause him to be somewhat obsessive at times. he really is an amazing character and as you keep reading, you get to see the layers of his personality, what motivates him, and he is just... him. definitely on the morally grey side of things but he leans towards helping others esp when it's his friends.

I'm not going to lie I hated the ML for a long, extremely long time. at the end, do I love him? yes. do I condone some of the things he's done? definitely no.

the plot moves on and we discover so many twist and turns. not everyone is as it seems. the build up to reveal the past *chef's kiss*.

the translation is really beautiful, i'll definitely reread when I get the chance. I would recommend to people who like angsty books, psychological, and is fine after seeing the tw/cws. please read it and listen to the ad <33 <<less
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Animelover0897 rated it
January 29, 2021
Status: Completed
Great novel, very psychological tho and can kinda get suuuuuppper dark but its like poison, once u start reading u can't stop torturing yourself to see if their relationship gets better
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periperi rated it
December 13, 2020
Status: Completed
4.5 stars rounded up to 5

I wasn't sure what to expect in this story, it wasn't one of the usual stories that's for sure. Both MC and ML are definitely not very normal but they are suited for each other, almost like ... more>>

their psych are not normal? I'm even inclined to say they have psychological issues hahaha but the story and how the two are intertwined is exhilarating. The summary ain't wrong, MC is obsessed and so is ML. And they are both utterly devoted.


Plot wise, it's just a series of events leading to how they get together and an unravelling of their past and I'm a bit mind blown at what happened. It's not a long read but it's one rollercoaster ride. I wasn't expecting that mystery. It's an uncommon first perspective read as well from MC's POV.

Just want to add in that I don't like

MC's mother who, to a certain extent, was super biased against ML. She loved MC for sure but she saw ML as an unwanted burden. Poor thing. And I really liked MC's father who was like the good side that prevented ML from spiraling downwards.


I liked the side characters too, it's a plot driven story so they were intertwined to the plot and cases. And as mentioned for the main couple, as the past gets more unraveled, it can be seen that

MC genuinely understands ML and is probably the only one that can see and accept him so they are probably a match made in heaven.


Why the minus 0.5:

For all the good things, the sudden jump in getting together and the fluff felt a tad abrupt at the end. It went from negative 50 to 180. Under the circumstances, in life and death, it was probably understandable but I still felt it to be a little too abrupt since for 90% of the time, ML was actively pushing MC away.


Overall, a unique read in the genre that's a good HE! <<less
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txjbaby rated it
June 3, 2021
Status: Completed
Just dropping by to support the book and the translator!

I suggest reading the tags before reading, as the other reviews suggested, because the book touches very, very dark topics.I read around 45 chapters from the original tl (which is great!) and later switched to mtl.

The MC and ML have their own good and bad sides, and although I thought Lu Feng was a little immature, I later felt that it might not be the case.

... more>>

He was just that way when it came to SMO, and I started finding it cute. Especially the tiny version of Lu Feng peeling an orange for SMO.


I also liked the side characters for being very supportive and helping each other out. SMO behaving the way he did was for a reason, and it's revealed in the later half. Yes, I hated him for the way he treated Lu Feng, but my opinion changed later on.

Most importantly, the court scenes were GREAT. Overall, I really enjoyed it. <<less
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pHantomRJ rated it
July 10, 2021
Status: c38
This hits right at the heart, my goodness! I fell in love with this. This will hurt you but at the same time, you'll hope that if there is a little bit of relief ahead of you.

I will not say anything about the MC & ML what they are doing is not something pleasant but both of them are fighting but exactly what for I'm clueless. Though ML is cunning and ruthless and I've not read that for so there might be clues why he is like this.

MC is totally... more>> a... my gosh. I love him at the same time I feel oh my dear, give up, okay? You must be very tired. Give some rest to your soul.

If you want something like psychological and at the same time what??Why??? question yourself and want to see what is act with abandon then go right away... this is for you.

Translator, Kudos!!!!!!!!!! Jiraya translator-sama doing an amazing job. Thank you so much.

I want to read it till the end but can't waiting is like torture to me right now. I have no other choice. <<less
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Feiyiguo rated it
February 17, 2021
Status: Completed
Woah if you are looking for a real deal psychological novel then please read this!!!

Sheng minou ah... I still cant understand whyyyyy??? Omg this novel isnt THAT angsty but Im crying reading this!!! Both of them (MC and ML) suffered a lot but also why need to be like that 💔

... more>>

Dont trust anyone even if its the MC or the ML. Both of them hold something in them, if you are used to think novel MC must be a "good" person, nah not here, honey



side couple: wei shi x shen xiaoshi has their own story in the extras!


Remember to read the cws tho (I read it in the carrd flyinggulls. carrd. co) cz this novel contains so much dark themes and you may be uncomfortable with it.

Oh right, I highly recommend to listen to the audio drama! They have so many nice songs

Kudos to the translator!!!


Despite so many bad vibes in the story, it has HAPPY ENDING!

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Thischic007 rated it
February 1, 2021
Status: c28
Ya'll there is a radio drama of this novel available. I am so grateful for coming across it and finally using my Chinese skills to listen. Let's just say that the drama enhanced the amazingness of this novel and enriched my experience. Upon finishing the completed radio drama, I had to come here and read it. I am also grateful for the translators <3 Will be sending kofi soon!

It was a very difficult read due to the dark themes and non-consensual/dub-consensual s*x scenes. I really applaud the author pursuing themes... more>> that are not often highlighted and addressed such as r*pe, suicide, mental health, legal processing, grief and loss, and conflicts within family. At first, I was about to drop the novel because I was not too excited about the whole brother falling in love with his adoptive brother plot; and I was not happy about the non-consensual sex/r*pe scenes between characters. It really pissed me off. But I was so intrigued by the fact that the author directed the story into finding justice and unveiling many truths... layer by layer. It did not fall into the stereotypical tropes of BL novels. It took some time for me to warm up to this.

I'll just bullet point some things I enjoyed as a reader:
- The plot is great. It doesn't focus on just the romance, angst... you can tell there is meaning behind everything and every character.

  • The mystery and secret behind the family and their relationship is such a thriller. I can't wait for readers to finally know what it is all about.
  • Characters are relatable. Thankful that the protagonists and most of the characters aren't such annoying and naive idiots. I mean no one is perfect but that is what you love about them (except for the evil ones.... like I am glad they got what they deserved). SMO can come off as a tsundere but he really has his reasoning for doing what he is doing and yeah... we all just hate him until more is revealed towards the end. Everything is such a mystery! We get to put all these missing pieces together. You get to play detective.
  • You actually care about the side characters. They don't play a huge part of the story but they add meaning to it and it really fosters the development of the main characters which I love. Additionally, they add this human element to the story and the transformations that happen.
  • Theres a lot that humans can relate to in this story. The case about the r*pe and suicide was so relevant. I appreciate stories that give light to such hard topics and don't sugar coat it. The r*pe case was intense. I was not expecting for the ending that happened.
I would encourage folks to go listen to the radio drama as it will really heighten and enrich your reading experience. The soundtrack is f*cking amazing and the voice actors are phenomenal. <<less
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Raven Tan
Raven Tan rated it
February 9, 2021
Status: Completed
It's good and creative. But I will advise you to strengthen your heart. Quite painful to read. And ML, hehe sorry I cant empathize with him despite his so called childhood suffering. Did his foster mother torture him? Did MC torture him? NO! MC was annoying and bratty but he didnt deserve what ML did to him. And will ML get his karma? Hehe noppe... dont expect that. most comments said that we all have to understand that he's literally sick and no empathy. so basically this is one sided... more>> abuse. I dont like this, but this is great, especially the court story. <<less
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Kassandra rated it
August 6, 2021
Status: Completed
I think the story is good. It was 5/5 for me. Some may rated it low but I think it's just a matter of perspective. Also, give the story a chance. You won't regret it.

I won't spoil much but this is angst okay? So, just be patient and the rainbow will come.

The gist of the story is Lu Feng, the MC got in prison for 10 years. The reason was connected to his adopted older brother, Sheng Min Ou, also the ML. But not directly the cause okay?

Lu Feng then... more>> was released with the friends he made in jail. The side couple is really cute. And then, the angst between the two slowly intensified.

Don't worry this story is HE. And they definitely love each other. You'll slowly see Sheng Min Ou's side.

Overall, the ending is really good, it's perfect for it, not too rush. I love it. Waiting for the rest of the chapters to be translated so that I'll reread it again. <<less
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angelstar1000 rated it
May 25, 2021
Status: c44
Please how can I read the rest, MTL, anything? I tried to buy the chapters on the gongzipc website but its so complicated.. They only accept Alipay and WeChat and I cannot put money in any of them. Anyone help me please lol thanks
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Azul_UwU_ rated it
September 19, 2021
Status: c54
This is... very interesting. I do admit that at first I was put off by the ML's indifference and ruthlessness... more>>

specially the hitting scenes, ughhh... those scared me for a while


Do read this if you're into the really dark and psychological romances where you want to tear apart the main couple for their own sake but then want them to achieve their happily ever after, in the best way they can.

Another paticular thing I liked about this was that they didn't change. I mean they did, their characters progressed and developed but like they didn't have this major character upheavel when they got together. No rainbows and sunshines. Just them expressing their love in their own way.

Oh and, props to the translator. They're doing a really good job. :)

Not related to the story but damn. The minute repeater watches are sooo beautiful and interesting! I found a watch online that nearly looks the same as the one which MC was wearing and wow. It's just so beautiful. 😔👌 *sighs* and so damn expensive. <<less
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wistful rated it
September 12, 2021
Status: Completed
I went in thinking this was going to be a story about a twisted relationship between two extremely disturbed individuals. An obsessive stalker in love with his adopted evil psychopathic brother. Something like Killing Stalking crossed with Dexter, and that this story was going to be a dark psychological dive from the perspective of an obsessive stalker. The setup was all there, all the signs seemed to be indicating that this was going to turn into a deliciously dark and twisted story filled with murder, gore, abuse, and manipulation.

And... more>> then the author completely swerved halfway and turned it into a pure love story of a devoted brother in love with his misunderstood but still psychopathic adopted brother. And that the MC's obsession with his brother was inverted so it just became a sign that he knew all along his brother wasn't all that bad.

It's still a good story, it just wasn't what I was expecting. The way the author added flashbacks and gradually revealed the whole situtation was skillfully done, and the development is excellent. So maybe this review is a good sign for everyone who didn't want a dark, borderline horror-romance story. <<less
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Berlin rated it
September 6, 2021
Status: --
It's so refreshing to read a novel where the MC isn't innocent about his love, or obsession, really, and the ML is equally ruthless and enigmatic.

I love psychological drama novels, especially ones that keep me guessing and reading between the lines for the ML's feelings and the history with the MC. Both characters aren't exactly likable but are interesting to read. MC is shameless in his obsession over the ML. And then there is the questionable horror of the ML's... weird hobbies. A lot is in the dark and both... more>> characters are quite psychopathic and doing a tense dance around each other - well, mostly the MC, who is flirting with death. The tension is there and you can't help but wonder when and what it will take for the ML to snap. Their relationship is so fascinating in a warped way. <<less
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SDig23 rated it
March 14, 2021
Status: --
This novel is tr*sh just simply a tr*sh. I don't want to know if there is anything good going to happen any further. I just simply don't care at this point. I just want to bash the ML's head with something sturdy. In these years I have read countless bl novels but never found this level of scum, worthless, shitty ml. At this point I want him to die. Omg! I'm so angry.

As for the MC.. I can't really hate him but for god's sake can't he find someone else.... more>> Just find another man bro, the ML is just pathetic.

If you want to cough blood because of rag, you can go ahead and read this novel.


I'm currently on chapter 33, and I can't read any more because of how ML treats MC. I mean there is a limit to how bad you can treat a human being, even in fiction. The ML and are adopted brothes. ML is a pure phsyco. MC went to jail cuz of him. And the way he treats MC.... like I can't anymore. MC loves ML or he is totally obsessed with him, but he never harmed the ml. He is just clingy. And ML hates MC, so if he hates MC that much to not even respect MC like an human being, then why did he r*pe him??

And ML did that when MC was under the controls of drugs. So this novel is just waste of time.


I'm giving it two stars just to appreciate the translator's hard work and because the translation is really good.

Otherwise this novel doesn't deserve even one glance from someone. Even if one is masochist, this ML's attitude is too much to digest. <<less
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