Utsukushii Koto


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Matsuoka is hooked on wearing his ex-girlfriend’s clothes and going for nighttime walks into town, feeling the pleasure of being stared at by men wherever he goes. One night, after he is assaulted by a man during a one-off encounter, he is saved by Hirosue, a nondescript senior worker from his company. Drawn to Hirosue’s innocent and pure love, Matsuoka continues to meet with Hirosue, all the while dressed as a woman, until Hirosue finally confesses to him. Narise Konohara’s pinnacle of achievement portrays the pain and beauty of unrequited love and has also been adapted to a theatrical play.

Contains 2 short stories (published in earlier editions) “Of Tenderness” (Itoshii koto) and “Of Love” (Aisuru koto).

Associated Names
One entry per line
Aisuru koto
Itoshii koto
Of Beauty
Of Love
Of Tenderness
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Otwentyfirst rated it
January 30, 2018
Status: Completed
I am so glad I only found this now years after it fully got translated. It meant I could binge read the whole night away without feeling shocked and unsettled by the lack of a 'next' button to click. And indeed I stayed up till 9 in the am to read this. Thank goodness for days off. 😅

It is a fantastic story. 5 out of 5. The kind of 5 out of 5 that makes me want to go back and reevaluate other 5 star ratings, know what I mean?
The story is about two straight guys who end up falling in love. There are several role reversals pertaining to... more>> who chases who.


In the end it's the old absence makes the heart fonder and make em jealous approach that worked.

Although Hirosue was indecisive once he came to a decision he acted wholeheartedly.


But it fits and doesn't feel contrived. In large part it's because the MCs behave like adults. There's no excess angst often used to create drama. Through the mutitple POV you get to see what the MCs thought processes are and why their feelings develop the way they do. Which brings me to another point... I love the natural progression of their relationship. And I love the honest expressions throughout. The MCs made sense and were well flushed out characters. They weren't cookie cutter but where people with their own insecurities, desires, and of course frustrating and adorable flaws. Ultimately it's a story about falling in love with the character of the person and not so much their gender.

A very huggable and super easy story to reread. Would totally purchase just to keep a copy around. <<less
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nhanat rated it
January 12, 2016
Status: --
satisfied with the length.. Going to update soon after finish reading it.. The seme is so adorable pure


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Part 14: Seme you can die already :<
End: well, I can say it's has a happy ending and stuff, but even though its make me angst, the seme was portrayed with realism in mind.. I mean I'm not a guy, but I don't think if you are a heterosexual before, you can't became a homosexual as easy as turning your hand. So even though I know the reason, I still don't like it :<

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DeviLaugh rated it
October 26, 2016
Status: --
Nobody said this would be an emotional roller coaster (or if they did, I didn't notice), but it was! I basically dedicated all my free time, giving up sleep, to read this to completion. There are three volumes and two side stories, though the third volume is only three long chapters.

I skimmed through most of the first part of the first chapter and went straight to their first meeting. Matsuoka was nearly raped while dressed as a woman and ran out of a hotel without his shoes, phone, or... more>> wallet, so he had no way to get home. Hirosue saw 'her' and gave 'her' his shoes and some money for a taxi home. So Hirosue wouldn't suspect she was a he, Matsuoka pretended he couldn't talk under the alias Yoko Eto.

The first volume is about Hirosue falling in love with Yoko and pursuing 'her' and Matsuoka trying not to lead the man on while simultaneously falling in love himself. About halfway through, the beans are spilled, and man do things get tragic from there. Matsuoka fully loves Hirosue back, but he's a man!

Volume two focuses on Hirosue's perspective and him coming to terms with Matsuoka being a man. Can he love a man romantically and physically?

Volume three... well, all ends happily.

I thoroughly recommend this to all yaoi lovers. Though I thorously hated Hirosue as a person, he was an interesting character to read about. I find it interesting that even the author seemed to dislike him a lot. It's not that he was a bad person, but parts of his personality made him do totally insensitive things. The main driving plot in this story is the fact that Hirosue is such a difficult person to deal with. He seems so nice and shy at first, but that just covers up all his other flaws.

Still, I love their relationship. If Matsuoka still loves Hirosue, then that's that. I was cheering for him the whole time. His pain was so raw that I doubly wanted to smack Hirosue! <<less
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rosyspell rated it
September 8, 2019
Status: --
I absolutely love this story. I don't know how many times I've read it and continue to reread this story. Its beautiful. The emotions are so raw, so realistic. some of these scenes so vivid in my mind. I feel such pain for both. I've come to love this author's works... even her stories tend to have happy ending but the journey is bittersweet with tendered sadness. Thank you sharing the story.
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sweetiiey rated it
August 1, 2018
Status: v2c5
I hate Hitosue. Knowing how it will end makes me struggle even more than I have ever since he ... more>>

raped Matsuoka. Nothing that Matsuoka can say to himself can convince me that was nothing else than plain rape.


All I wanted was for Matsuoka to finally just let go and understand that he may have done wrong but he deserved better than Hitosue that is just selfishly leading him on.


the fact that they end up together at the end of all this is not a happy ending in my books. Like WHY? Why could Matsuoka not just end up walking away and finding someone who truly loved and valued him as a person and did not take out their cowardly, selfish, jealous and insecure traits on him??????


Besides my obvious anger and frustrations I have to say that the book was well written, well translated and despite I disagree with the ending with my burning distaste of the seme the characters were extremely well written 3 dimensional figures. It's rare reading something this well translated and written in a way that feels realistic...


... even if it feels unrealistic that a clearly obviously straight character as Hitosue would after 2 years of being disgusted of the male features of Matsuoka when it was fairly established early on that he had no hesitation when he actually liked some one and that he just wanted platonicly the good feeling that came with Matsuoka while selfishly wanting him to remain in love with him to feed his own insecurities

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I Saw A Shark
I Saw A Shark
July 8, 2018
Status: Completed
This story was absolutely wonderful. The characters were so real and relatable. Even the side characters were much more than that with a realistic personality and you would get glimpses of their lives in the story too. I love Matsuoka and I kept feeling with him at every turn. I'm not as much as a fan of Hirosue because

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of how he toyed with M's feelings and was downright insensitive. It hurt so badly whenever he acted selfishly and walked all over M.


I do have mixed feelings about the ending and I was hoping that


they wouldn't end up together. I wanted H to regret his choices and I wanted M to find someone else and live happily. Not every story needs a happy end and I think this one would've been better off without one.


Beautifully written and so heart-wrenching. The only reason I'm not giving this five stars is because I wanted the ending to be different <<less
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tee rated it
November 12, 2016
Status: watch part2
I absolutely love this novel and the English translation is top notch.

My only problem is that I feel like the writer sort of wrote herself into a corner that she couldn't realistically write herself out of...
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... with Hirosue. I could completely understand Hirosue rejecting Matsuoka for the first time after he found out the truth, but after like two years of knowing each other and rejecting Matsuoka for the second time because he was convinced that he couldn't love a man, that kinda sealed the deal in my eyes. If after two years you can't love a person for who he is, then that's that, and I'm sorry but after that it just felt forced to have Hirosue's feelings change.


Having said all that, I still thoroughly enjoyed reading this and I especially loved both of the main characters, flaws and all. Despite my problem with the ending, overall I still think the story is fantastic and for that reason I give it 5 stars. <<less
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Shio rated it
October 27, 2015
Status: --
Much like its name, the story is sweet and tender with a hint of sadness.

This must be the only novel from Konohara Narise where both of the protagonist is really likable and normal lol. If you have read some of her novel before, you might have noticed her tendency in writing character. No character is perfect or cookie cutter, you could say that the protagonists are very realistic and are all have glaring flaws.

I am sure many people here hate Hirosue's indecisiveness, but I truly relate to him. For one,... more>> I will probably react the same way as him, since I am just as indecisive. What important is that at the end of the day, he man up and decided to make their relationship works.

The beauty in this novel is probably how both grows to love each other even after finding out the other's bad side. Both Matsuoka & Hirosue falls in love with the idealized version of each other. Usually in rl relationship, people will break up after realizing that the other party is not as perfect as they hope to be. Matsuoka and Hirosue breaks up too, but in the end they can't let go and finally able to accept each others real self.


For me this is Konohara Narise best novel. The twist and turns might not have the same impact as Hako no Naka, but is still unique and dear in its own way. Too bad there's no after story like in HnN, I would really love to read their interactions after staying together. <<less
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amruta rated it
January 7, 2020
Status: Completed
Skip this.

The 2 stars are for the translator.

Matsuoka comes across as self-abusive to me. Hirosue behaves as if he is entitled to abuse Matsuoka after suffering disappointment. What a jerk.

Its better if some people don't get together. Matsuoka and Hirosue are two of them.
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Pame-sama rated it
December 11, 2019
Status: --

they said perfection was a chimera, here I found it... utsukuchii koto.
don’t get me wrong Hirosue annoyed the hell out of me, but I will tell you something: wait till the end. Magnificent!

i was so tired of these new BL about beautiful long haired guys, kings or lords, no here we go with two normal guys whether you hate or love them they are just so realistic you could even touch Matsuoka tears 😭 omg I cried laugh and smiled like a pervert so much so much.... when... more>> he swallowed:”you taste green”... my heart... thank you Konohara Narise and Translator-San. <<less
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The netral one
The netral one rated it
May 29, 2019
Status: Completed
Good Japanese novel!! The angst........ this one is sad shit!! Don't ever expect your eyes will dry when you read this novel. But Chill, you will not find any regret with this, of course if you try to read them.

If you like beautiful MC, with slow ML (you will know after you read it), devoted MC, cute MC, lovely MC (i mean if you wanna adopt more son then the MC Will do for you. lol) or near give up love, but never too late for love kind of plot... more>> then this one!! This one ! Its good teaaa... <<less
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morteamoureuse rated it
March 25, 2018
Status: Completed
This novel was an emotional roller coaster for me. I felt mild annoyance towards Hirosue while also being able to empathize with him to the point that I didn't hate him. At the same time, the pain and joy experienced by the main character felt so real to me. The relationship evolves slowly, and the tension is real - Matsuoka's struggles are relatable, and even his seemingly perfect persona is flawed with the lack of foresight and the poor choices he makes sometimes! Hirosue's flaws show up more when he... more>> is constantly berating himself, so he becomes easy to dislike but not to hate. Hirosue's self-consciousness and Matsuoka's persistence in the pursuit of love, are probably issues we all have experienced.

I actually read the whole thing in one afternoon because I just needed to reach that happy ending! <<less
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Blackbutterfly1994 rated it
October 26, 2019
Status: Completed
This story is a beautiful rollercoaster of emotions, a delicate portrayal of the humain soul in its journey from unrequited love to happiness.

Highly recommend it. You'll cry a ton, but it'll be well worth it.
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Jajachin rated it
September 23, 2019
Status: Completed
The story is good. Realistic. But why did I give it a four? It is because of Hirosue. I felt the emotions of the story. It was heart wrenching actually but I was annoyed with Hirosue. I know he is one of the fundamental elemet that made the story so good and painful but I hate how he Matsuoka. I sometimes want to spank him cause I want him to wake up but in all honesty his attitude made the story interesting. Though I gave four because of him but... more>> I can still consider giving five because of how the story went on because of him. The story is awesome. One of the novels that I read in a very fast but serious pace cause I don't want to be hang up with all the happenings.

Worth the read. AWESOME!! <<less
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Zawachan rated it
September 1, 2019
Status: Completed
This story was absolutely ridiculous.

I absolutely hated Matsuoka and Hirosue. They had no business getting into a relationship. It was one disappointing chapter after another. It's like the author found two characters from the gutter and forcefully paired them. The MC's IQ seems to be dwindling as the story progresses. How do you justify his actions?

Does love make people stupid?The ML was utterly disappointing, so unremarkable, like lukewarm water. Indecisive, whiny, piteous, and seems to be stuck in victim mode.

In short, this was a story of two idiots with no... more>> future breaking up and getting back together. Rinse repeat.

You call that a HE? I want to fight the author. I'm so disappointed.I'm surprised with the raving reviews. People here are clearly masochists <<less
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chuina rated it
December 4, 2018
Status: --
I have a lot of feelings about this novel and

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A lot of people say that Hirosue suddenly going gay is unrealistic and that the gay realization isn't real. I'm a woman who didn't understand her sexuality until much later when I realized that I fell in love with a former friend. I used to believe homosexuality was a 'sin' of sort, much due to media presented those lgbt+ as strange characters. It wasn't until I truly learned to like a girl that I denied that I was liking her, until I realize it was just hurting me for denying those feelings. People may think it's really sudden but sometimes it really does hit you, especially when you're told certain aspects growing up, and especially in a country like Japan where homosexuality and the such is so vauge. I truly love this novel for being true to that kind of struggle because it felt more real, and it put a lot more weight on the important of those emotions too. I really wanted to say this since I see a lot of people are saying Hirosue isn't realistic enough, because there's people like him in real life and sometimes.. They can end up fall in love the same way he did. Human nature has always been fickle after all, including love.

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stygetsu rated it
March 26, 2018
Status: Completed
Bittersweet and honest. This author is a goddess.
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Junki Yard
Junki Yard rated it
December 1, 2015
Status: --
I LOVED the novel!!!
I like the uke character a lot and feel so sorry for him in early chapters.
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