one of my favorite parts is specifically when he’s on the survival show. when he meets his f rank teammates, he starts to slowly open up to the people around him and not just MC. when he sees the fans supporting him and so shocked that there’s people who like him... he becomes distressed because he doesn’t want to be an idol anymore. he had no expectations for himself and it’s so sad how you know he’s just given up on what he once loved to do. however, he tries his best to return the support others give him and you can really see him develop and grow more because of that. his personality is relatively the same, but you can also see how he has grown to love the world around him more.

when we see cen feng putting the puzzle pieces together that zhaixing also went back in time and he comforts her when she is terrified that he will commit su*cide again. I think it really solidifies that he has moved on from his traumatic past and now he is going to live his life in this present. he is able to tell her about his past and what he went through and he will tell her little by little what he went through because he trusts her even if she never reveals the whole truth. his love for her is so sweet and I just love him as male lead so much.

it follows the journey of Xu Zhaixing (fl) who was reincarnated after she endures so many injustices in her past life, FL actually wanted to commit su*cide in the past life because she just can't take it anymore, but ml's promotional video at that time 'saved' her, and so she's been his fan after that. Ml's su*cide and poor life later made FL devastated. But thankfully both of them managed to live for the second time, and FL promised herself that she'll protect him with all costs.

the author showed ML, a depressed patient as someone who's edgy and asocial. Even though we can agree that those characteristics can be a sign of depression, but not all people with depression are like that so I hope people won't take the depression theme in this book seriously outside the storyline.

in the past life, the man had saved her from the claw of death, such a pity that their endings are not good. But in this one, she saved him, and they managed to live their best.

Xu Zhaixing had led a pretty disappointing life filled with family betrayals, this resulted in her family being doomed in her first life. She wore spikes and refused help after her Aunts and Uncles washed their hands off when she asked for help. Xu Zhaixing gave up many opportunities due to her mother dying, her father soon followed after being burned out from work. She was distraught and was saved when she saw a few seconds smile commercial of Cen Feng. She was not able to fall through with her dreams and her family didn't also make it, her only source of strength became Cen Feng who always gave smiles. Later on, she was shocked that the next thing she knew about her idol was the news of his su*cide. He was a target of a corrupt system. And it made her feel empty that time seemed to make the world forget that a human named Cen Feng existed.

When Xu Zhaixing got into a car accident, she woke up as a high school student before her family fell and before her idol got into the boyband S-Group. She was determined not to let things happen again, she prepared for it. All the moves that would hurt her loved one, she would destroy! The plan her uncle made to make her dad carry all the business injury? Thwarted. Repay her cousin who helped them in her previous life even though she gave him bad attitude due to the betrayal she experienced? Done! Make her son happy? On-going~!

Cen Feng had once thought that leaving that house would make it easier. He had dreamed that he would be loved. He had hoped that the friends he had would stand strong. He did not expect to be subjected to his company's deception, and that the one he treated like a brother would soon throw him to the wolves for that person's own gain. He helped, he gave, and he put a wall around his real feelings. On the stage, he would put a persona that he was a joyful character, but he was suffocated. On a futile hope that he would be able to escape, he was bounded. In the end, even the mighty falls once pushed enough.

When he woke up, he was back as a trainee. The world... is it this ugly before? He threw away all his hard work, since he cannot get out of the contract he will just waste away and perform badly. He took up a hobby... there's a new thing he found. Maybe after his contract expires, he will find an isolated area and open up a mechanical shop. Or so he thought, every night he sings on the street. There's this little girl who cried and gave all her pocket money. He didn't expect her to stay but every time he performed there, she would watch. She was silly, naive, and full of love. This girl... I'll put my trust in you.

like su*cide and depression. Like what is portrayed in the novel most depressed patients do not go around with blatant signs nor yell and scream that "I want to kill myself" and make some token effort to do so. I do not belittle those who do so as this could be a cry for help. The more seriously affected ones are those that go under the radar. They go about their usual lives only with very subtle signs and unfortunately, their depression manifests as actual su*cide or more serious attempts of.

The reincarnated FL is the CEO. And she's on a mission to save her family and the Idol she worshipped in her last life.

The world building is sufficient if not amazing. The secondary characters are weakly developed. The focus is always on our lead couple and how our CEO FL supports her Idol. And they are fun to focus on. She's a legit fan girl with all the money and resources every fan girl wishes she could throw her Idol's way. This story is fun and silly with just enough of a serious undercurrent to satisfy.

The great if not always well executed detail of this story is the ML's serious depression. His back story is dark. Its almost a joke how much crap happened to him. The really nice if totally unexplored aspect of the story is the reason the FL loves her idol so much is because she herself had a moment of severe suicidal depression. His performance saved her. It was a nice if underutilized touch on the part of the author.

ML went training at another country. MC contacted him through letters then texts but did not visit him as she is afraid that it will disturb him.

He knows something but does not expose her. It is nice that the novel ends up making MC know that he knows. That way things would be easier.