for anyone saying nanqing is developing emotional dependance in beimo, I understand. It does feel a bit like that but I think at least he’s better. For one, he’s not overly possessive or a pessimist. He knows what he wants, he doesn’t guard beimo excessively or gives everything to beimo blindly (like letting beimo keep another lover for example or please beimo in any way that degrades himself). So maybe, before overly accusing him of having an emotional dependence, take this little bit of opinion as a consideration.

and honestly while reading I felt a lot of emotional up and downs. I feel scared for nanqing. When the first issue about beimo knowing about his origins happened I still feel, well, that’s okay, he’s a bit more chaotic than other people but everyone always has a back story anyways. But when the third issue arrived (him breaking down and psychologically messed up to the point he peed himself in a nightmare), that’s when my heart sinks.

Because, well, realistically speaking, people’s love is limited. And coming for beimo, a young man in the best time period of his life, his career rising, would he really stoop down, resign everything just to be with nanqing? Also when nanqing was so scared that he’d even reject beimo and when beimo also was in almost (???) Mental breakdown because he’s afraid that his love would not be enough for nanqing to accept him (again), I thought like would this be a breaking point for him to be impatient and decide to leave nanqing. Because once again, people’s love and patience is limited. I won’t blame him but also at the same time I feel distressed for nanqing. In any case when this arc happened I really felt like nanqing would die alone. Because if this happened in real world for real, someone like beimo is almost impossible to find.