Gi Taejung’s will, written before a combat mission, addressed to Sehwa and their two children. I cried like a baby. It’s one of the most heartbreaking yet beautiful letters I’ve ever read.

The tragic story between Captain Oh Sohran and Sehwa’s biological father. Their past, their sacrifices, and the heartbreaking way their story unfolds completely broke me.

This is the equivalent of AO3 tag of Hurt with comfort. The story starts off intensely strong, showing how much of a tr*sh ML is to MC, well, ML never met MC before. You can't exactly expect ML to be infatuated with his character, the world doesn't really revolves around MC.

PLEASE AND PLEASE, do remember that this ML is a character made to have a redemption arc and intense character development!! He is pure tr*sh for a reason! Plot device! He is a psycho and abusive and I won't defend him but this novel isn't for anyone to like. Of course, after chapter 40-50, you'll start seeing his character changing, loving. It may be subtle in text but you'll capture it!

For a romance, it captures the feeling of characters well! ML is not a normal person with a normal childhood so I wouldn't really understand his mindset, no one does too irl, you can only understand yourself more than what others do of you! I read novels to experience what authors write, to experience the worlds and the characters. I often put myself into their shoes for better and more complex storytelling which made this novel enjoyable for me. I see a lot of cold, psycho and violent ML but this one takes the cup for making me truly understand why.

I truly love the MC, in my eyes, he's more than the "soft uke with trauma and debt" trope. He's a character of his own without what defines him. I love reading his train of thoughts, I may not think like him and others may not think like me and that what's makes this novel and plenty of others special! When he breaks down, when he overthinks and opens up, I cheered but sometimes do I wish he was more a little cold to ML in the early chapters for revenge...