Loving You Is Too Difficult


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An arrogant personality with no brains whatsoever, she was the typical spoilt, rich child. He was the only one who could handle being her bodyguard. But how did this man manage her ? Did he use extreme and effective tyranny to counter her temper tantrums? He was so cold that even a polar bear would tremble. She didn’t have the courage to go against him. But this delicate lady stuck to him like super glue! Like a stalker, she followed him everywhere. This led to gossips flying everywhere. The most outrageous one was that he had abandoned his girlfriend to embark on a relationship with this rich girl!

But he didn’t care what people thought about him. He didn’t care if they criticised or made fun of him. Even if he was being ridiculed as a dedicated watchdog, it didn’t matter to him. He had no qualms being in the same room with this spoilt child. But sometimes it only took a spark to light a gigantic inferno….

This is a short story about a rich spoilt girl, Song Yu Shang and bodyguard Xiang Yu. The story starts when Xiang Yu is assigned to guard a 17 year old Song Yu Shan, a girl he detests as being a brainless bimbo only interested in the latest bags and fashion articles. So when Song Yu Shan shows an interest in him, she is ruthlessly and immediately rejected. Xiang Yu moves on .. but a few years later he is drawn back to Taiwan. But the Song Yu Shan he meets is not the same girl he knew.

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01/31/19 Miumiu epilogue
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KichiX rated it
May 6, 2019
Status: epilogue
Cute and everything but the characters weren't managed with subtlety but with a sledge hammer. Character arcs weren't completed satisfactorily and the ending felt like the author was saying "that's all folks, and they lived happily ever after."

The female lead suffered first from abandonment/loneliness issues - her parents never cared about her, her tantrums were to attract attention and love - and then

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when her parents truly did abandon her at the same time as her first love, a.k.a our bodyguard, broke her heart, all of these issues were amplified. She responds by creating a shell and not caring.


And then along comes our ML again and he's despondent to see she's not the same girl he left behind all those years ago. Big surprise. He tries half-heartedly to get her back, gives up, accepts her cold and detached self, loves her and then promises never to leave her again. We never get to see the FL heal. She accepts the ML in the end and we're supposed to believe that voila she is "fixed".

I recommend Same Place Not Same Bed for a story of healing through love. The characters face the same issues of fear of abandonment and self-confidence but the subtlety is much greater than this story.

Honestly, the happy ending in this one felt completely empty. <<less
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Lei93 rated it
December 27, 2020
Status: v7 part2
Its hard for me to empathise with the FL

Yes she's been abandoned by her parents and its sad but that does not justify clinging to someone who you know is in a relationship and wanting more from him not just as a crush but more ie. Baby with him, etc

I tried finishing the story but really can't stomach or root for the FL, she is basically the third party she might not be despicable in a sense since she did not do despicable deeds but her way of thinking is... more>> clearly morally wrong for me, especially when she clearly knows that the object of her desire is in a relationship (I only have him for 2/3 mos so im allowed to be clingy and not respect boundaries; type of girl). These for me are like her seducing him: wearing reaveling clothes and makes sure he sees, clinging so he feels her curves, sleeping on his lap and will explain to the gf that its nothing, be his tail so and make sure to cling to his clothes, sit on his lap even though he is sleeping, declare that I want him, won't forget him, want to have a baby with him, etc

As for the ML I read the comments in the site saying he only sees her as a job and as a little girl, well maybe at first yes but he also clearly sees her as an object of desire [ie. Her look/getup when she wakes up (clearly flirting in the FL side because she did not do that to past bodyguards), everytime FL clings to him he felt her "curves" but "reluctant" to push away because she looks "sad" and only wants to be "pampered, " aware the she is not yet fully develop but has a "charm" etc]. Well maybe I am cynical in that way since I never had experience in relationship but for me the mere fact that you view the opposite s*x (or other people) as someone you can have a desire and not do anything to stop or stay away from it really leaves a bad taste.

For me this novel is like painting a love story of cheating couple in a fluff way or making it look good. Hahaha. You might say that its not cheating cause they did not have s*x and only kissed, but hello straying thoughts can eventually lead to a stray action.

And if you are okay with that then, kudos to you. <<less
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earlgreyt rated it
March 12, 2019
Status: c7
This story is quite simple, though not my cup of tea. Maybe it's because I've read a lot of other CN poking holes into white lotus characters, but the MC's actions didn't struck me as pitiable so much as manipulative.

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Maybe it's because the author frequently describes how pitiful yet ultra-attractive she looked to the ML, from her eyes/her exposed body/her skin/etc., but it really struck as more "pretending in order to win pity" than something genuine from her upbringing.

Also the MC is a legal adult (18), yet acts like an 8 year old. I could understand her desperation/loneliness and ultra spoiled naivete up to the point when she touched the ML when he was sleeping and tried to keep him with her after confessing to him--when she knew that he had a girlfriend already. That was a turning point for when she went from pitiable to manipulative.

Of course stuff like this can happen in real life. I'm not blaming the MC for trying it because she was desperate, and I'm not blaming the ML for falling for it and remembering it (since he fell for it, he definitely felt something for her and feelings can't be forced). But like I said, that's why this story is not my cup of tea and why I don't feel much pity for the MC.


In the end, this is a story about two people who I don't care much about, who will inevitably get together. So DNR at 70%. However, I do have to give the author kudos for telling a pretty realistic story with realistic outcomes for exes. Great translation! <<less
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Haruna89 rated it
January 29, 2019
Status: Completed
This type of story is totally my type! Thumbs up to the translator for picking this novel up and good job for the translation.

I really like that the novel only have few chapters as it is easy to read but with a good plot. I love how the ML later on realise his feeling towards FL. Just can't get enough with the spicy romance between them.

Hope I can read more novel like this in the future.
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Novelplease rated it
May 1, 2020
Status: --
Contemplating between giving it 3 or 4, I settled with 4. I like how well this novel was translated. I also like the fact that this was well-written, it brings out a lot of negative emotions towards the reader. The tragedy and agony the FL felt was well conveyed thru this piece. I like the over all premise of the story.

One thing I didn't like is the character development. Sure they have matured at some point and change drastically, but can we really call that development? Especially the ML the... more>> way he handle the things at hand is too insensitive and forceful.

I really enjoyed the first part of the story. But the second half was very anticlimactic. I read one of the comment here that the ML chased FL halfheartedly and I kinda agree. Author also focused on physical intimacy rather than figuring out how the FL can get out from depression. In my view ML didn't provide her much emotional support.

Overall this is good read just if you don't delve on the FL mental issue. <<less
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ElianaDiana rated it
January 18, 2019
Status: c8
As expected of author Sugar, this novel just tugs you at heartstrings! ??? Just enough for a heartache, a lil bit for a spicy romance, and the drama inserted would make me waiting each day for translator-sama to upload the rest of the chapters.

Owh how I wish there were a mini real life sketch/movie for this novel! ???
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SnowdropLily rated it
March 29, 2019
Status: epilogue
This story is so my type. I just wished that the female lead could have made it harder for the male lead. Plus, the male lead hasn't really told the FL that he loves/likes her. It's like, he's obsessed with her but only for her body. Yes, the story included how the ML felt when the FL was with Mr. Jiang but ML didn't know that, that feeling was jealousy. So, I felt like it didn't really count. Was he really jealous out of love? Or only out of... more>> lust? <<less
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Treotera rated it
May 22, 2021
Status: --
Thank you translator. I love the translation. But I really hate both character. Sorry for the rating but I really can't. This is a story about as*hole guy who cheated with his girlfriend with a rich pampered b*tch. His mentality is what a cheaters are. The bit*h is weak and helpless in danger whatever it is so I need to protect her. So s*upid. The guys is an as*hole cheater. He cheat but he did not admit and give reason as his girlfriend is pampered and stubborn. Just say you... more>> cheat bro no need to get defensive and give cheap reason. Cheating does not need you to have s*x with the other person. On chapter 3 you already are cheating. S*upid mf. <<less
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Peppyfox rated it
September 19, 2020
Status: epilogue
I have to say that the characters are humans who have flaws and done mistakes. They are realistic and easy to relate.

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FL is really pitiful, she acts spoiled and arrogant because she wants attention of her family and ML. Even thought she knows ML has a gf because of her loneliness and her wanting to cling to her last hope, she acts wilful (tags along on dates, calls him and makes him come back in middle of dates and even tries to seduce him) and finally break them apart. As I said she is pitiful but that doesn't mean she needs to be forgiven.

I am touched that ML remembers FL after their separation. Everyone round him including his ex gf knows he loved the FL for eight years. But then again, even tho he loved her, he didn't think of finding her for eight years because he didn't think it was love.

The FL accepts the ML even tho he abandoned her and wasn't by her side when he was needed (when her family abandoned her) . He had broke her heart in a cruel way. He was really cold. (I personally think he ran away because he was scared of falling in love with FL and that if he had at least said some good words to her she wouldn't have ended up with such painfully low self esteem And wouldn't have become such a empty shell). As FL was very young, he should have used gentler methods. I understand he had his dilemma over his gf and FL but being so near her he could have understood why FL became like this.


I hate FL's family. They don't deserve forgiveness


Her parents don't care abt her only shower her with money. Her mother wanted a divorce but her father doesn't except it. She tries many methods to force him including giving the password to their house To gangsters and scaring FL with them. I mean FL has a mental breakdown after it. Father doesn't divorce her cause he wants resources. And grandfather regrets spooling her mother so doesn't give lover to FL. They all abandon her. She gets punished for their crimes. She leads a life without love and full of loneliness.

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berryberry rated it
August 6, 2020
Status: Completed
Such a sweet novel! The perfect afternoon read.

It's short (I read it in just over an hour) but it doesn't feel "empty" like so many other short novels do. Given the length of the novel, there's enough character development and insight into detail.

I also found the ending quite satisfying!

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Of course, who doesn't love a good wedding and a couple of cute buns, but I think the way the epilogue ended was just right. And we still got to see some cute bun-related fluff, with Tang Tang and MC's adorable relationship.


Also, am I the only one who actually enjoyed the MC and ML's dynamic in the latter half, when they meet again and he pursues her?


He may not have outright said he loved her, as other reviewers have pointed out, but it's very much implied and shown through his actions. I think it's very in line with his character. He's not the type who says sweet, mushy words of love, and I like that about him.


I just finished reading this and I feel very content. &Lt;3

Also BIG shoutout to the translator, Miumiu. She did an amazing job! Also loved reading her little notes about her thoughts on each chapter. She's the reason so many of us have the opportunity to read this wonderful novel <3 Thank you for all your hard work, Miumiu! <<less
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annieyongannie rated it
September 23, 2020
Status: epilogue
This is a romance driven plot about an emotionally broken girl and an overbearing man.

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Shanshan was such a pitiful child. All she ever wanted was attention from her family and the new guy who entered her life. And so, she did whatever she felt would attract their attention. She was unreasonable, and honestly, I also didn't like her at that moment, but she was not annoying. Every rich, spoiled and lacking love would probably act this way, after all she was still a child at the time.

8 years later, we find Shanshan again, totally different from the past. When I got to peek at her inner thoughts, I couldn't help but tear up and my heart bled. How could such a child survive the family drama that caused her emotional turmoil? I find her emotionally broken beyond repair. No amount of doting from Xiang Yu would rid her of the shadow that lived in her heart for many years. Everyone she loved left her, including him, at the time when she needed him the most.

I'm not satisfied that Xiang Yu never fully considered her state of mind at first. He never understood why she was a different person now and selfishly wanted the old Shanshan back. I'm just glad he never voiced it to Shanshan and never forced her to change back. And at the end, I was moved and comforted that he told Shanshan that he understood why she was insecure in the relationship, and that he would wait for her until she could fully trust him again.

My only regret was that the story was short and so the emotions weren't fully explored. But overall, it was a nice short read.

Thank you, Miu Miu for the translation.

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apple227 rated it
January 31, 2019
Status: Completed
Thanks to the translator for picking up this short novel! Just finished reading it and I was touched at how the ML showed his love and dedication to the FL, especially towards the end. I also like the insight that the translator gave every few chapters, it really helped me better understand the actions of the characters.
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Ren1511 rated it
January 31, 2019
Status: Completed
This is one of the best romance novel that I ever read...

Seriously, although the story is kinda short, it still managed to deliver its plot...

There are still some unsatisfied part for example, about Song Yu Shan's family... It makes me frustrated and angry when reading that part and there is no back story about them... Well, it is understandable as this is just short story...

Anyway, both MC and ML are likeable. The story actually just narrated about their love story...

Just wish there is more~~~
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joellyanne rated it
January 31, 2019
Status: Completed
The story for me is rather too simple and boring. It is just between a bodyguard/CEO with his former charged then his lover. Nothing complex and very very predictable. Not too bad, but not that entertaining either.
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chande rated it
April 29, 2022
Status: Completed
After reading this story till the last chapter, I still couldn't bring myself to like both ML and FL.

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ML was a terrible boyfriend, at least to Shui Xin (his ex). I'm not defending Shui Xin here because I know she had her own fault too but I also know that sometimes woman had their own instinct regarding her boyfriend's wavering attitude and that's exactly what Shui Xin felt. She could feel that ML was no longer with her emotionally and that's why she often threw a tantrum at ML.

If ML really loved Shui Xin, he should give her some sort of security and comfort but he didn't do any of that. He treated Shui Xin coldly and made the situation worse. I don't know why he just didn't ask for a breakup if he no longer loved her.

He also ruthlessly left FL but it was understandable at that time because he still had a girlfriend and he didn't want to make the situation worse. But then 8 years later, long after he broke up with Shui Xin, he claimed that he always missed FL. It's a bit laughable though. If he really missed her, why he didn't try to contact her during those 8 years? It's not like they're in ancient times where communication was hard. And then after he met FL again, he forcefully invaded her life again without asking her opinion.

It's also hard for me to like FL. She knew that ML already had a girlfriend but she still tried to seduce him. When ML was unyielding, she threw a tantrum and begged him without any dignity. Fast forwarded 8 years later, when ML came into her life again, she easily accepted him like he never ruthlessly left her. He also wasn't there when she needed him the most. He didn't even confessed to her properly and straightly took her to bed. No wonder she always felt insecure about their relationship.

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Suka Novel rated it
December 9, 2020
Status: Completed
I truly & really enjoy reading the relationship between Xiang Yu & Shu Yan. 💖💖 They're a cute & great couple.
I plan to reread it again very soon.
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Dayang_Dyan rated it
September 27, 2020
Status: Completed
Really good. It was too emotional. I pitied the FL so much. And I'm a bit annoyed at the ML. The plot and emotions was realistic.

I feel that the novel was too short especially the interaction of our leads but having it too long might override the important point of the plot.

Thank you for translating this. I enjoyed really well.
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magicboots023 rated it
September 18, 2020
Status: c9 part1
Not really worth reading. The story is pretty rushed with no character development and no real plot or attention to individual character design. The is no real love story here with the ML basically saying he just is interested in her body and the 'allure' of an innocent young woman. I think its a little heavy on the drama when we aren't involved enough with the characters to really feel concern or emapthy for them. It was okay but I have 2 chapters left and probably won't finish it. I... more>> got this far because I was bored and needed something short to read, however I've just lost any interest I did have. I dont know the characters well enough to feel for them when things don't go as planned and honestly it feels a bit sexist to me the way he's basically only interested in her because he's physicallyattracted to her. Wasn't that worthwhile from start to.. Where I am not. Its short tho so try it out for yourself and see what you think. I'm not planning to finish it. <<less
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Isabelle rated it
July 16, 2020
Status: Completed
It's probably one of the best Smut-With-Easy-Context that I have ever read.

TL-sama is also great, living comments at the end that help us to have empathy with the characters.

It is just perfect to read before sleeping :)
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Bookworm_Sueweetie rated it
June 12, 2020
Status: Completed
This is a good read for a short novel. It only 10 chapters but so much had happened.

At first, I really don't like the FL... she's spoiled, arrogant, whiny and white lotus who clinging to someone who already got a gf... but later on, her attitude and behaviors were well-explained and I understood where she's coming from. I sympathized her bc of her loneliness and miserable life despite luxury. Her changed in character in the later years made me sad for her.

The ML despite being cold, emotionless and jerk at... more>> times... he also redeemed his self in last few chapters and the way he worked hard to woo the FL.

All the characters have flaws but I like it. The time skip and second chance made the story good. All of them was given a happy ending. <<less
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