Didn’t Love You Enough


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This is the story about the rebirth of a little gong with a sweet steamed bun-like little shou.

In the past life, little shou, in order to help little gong block a poisonous blade, ended up dying due to blood loss.

After the little gong is reborn he proceeds to dote on the little shou endlessly.

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New Zinchimon rated it
June 15, 2022
Status: Completed
All about the children...

ML first gave birth to a boy then he gave birth to twin boys, and then a pair of boy and girl and at last a ger.

So the total number of children are six so why is everyone saying that there are only five children???????
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New izayaYY rated it
June 12, 2022
Status: Completed
MC Crown Prince gets reborn into his younger self and grabs this chance to fix his past mistakes and spares no effort to protect, help, pamper and ultimately seduce ML, an adorable and obedient little ger. It's evidently a cliché story, meant for fans of the genre, like me. I especially liked that both protags come from warm and affectionate families, making this a light and relaxing read. Yes this is shota (there is a shota tag duh!), so if your morals cannot handle it, please stop reading like the... more>> mature adult that you are, instead of complaining s*upidly. The translator locked the last 30+ chapters, so I read the rest at mtlnovel <<less
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anggr291 rated it
July 9, 2019
Status: --
I'm.... so many things.... first of all.. ... more>>

u fell in love with a BOY U r*peD. u dont even know him... he died for u and all u can do is sit there and draw pedophilic pictures and romanticising him.. you say u love him (for 30 years! after the MC's death! wow! but u didnt even know he existed :)...)

He probably only loved the idea of him unconditionally loving him and dying for him... POS brings the gullible and naive MC back into the palace to f*ck his life up... entitled ass prick...


I'm thinking I guess I really cant deal with emperors plot stuff if they have like.... Like okay, the ML has children with his other concubines.... His responsibility as a king *gag* "oh no, we must have other people in the harem cus thats... politics!" while the supposed lover of the emperor just gotta sit there grit their teeth and endure this f*cked up plot honestly... poor little MC please run away you'd find a better life in a simple home somewhere...

my most minimum condition to a good romance is... at least let the ML be decent... the formula is mentally ill and crazy in love! NOT just the mental illness......... <<less
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byunnie rated it
January 23, 2020
Status: --
The emperor is super gross and his reasons for loving the LJB is just utter bull* he doesnt know sh*t about him basically filled in his idealized person on the ljb after his death then called it love.

Brought him back to the palace just to make him go through sh*t again because he "loves" him.

Poor ljb probably had stockholm syndrome the first time and had to be trapped again
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tomr1 rated it
April 6, 2021
Status: -
i like how the synopsis bravely proclaims that there's "no abuse" in this story while the 'r*pe' and 'r*pe victim becomes lover' tags are right there for everyone to see.

one star for bold face of whoever wrote the description.

you know how sometimes there are little things about the MCs that you happen to dislike, but tolerate anyway, because overall they're good/well written/nuanced characters?

... more>> not the case, for this story! If I ever met the MC of this novel irl, I would probably commit crimes. Violent ones.

there are very few cases (because there are very few stories, where the themes are this disturbing) where, I feel the need to 'protect' the ML.
usually, authors try to balance powers, dynamics, and give solid foundation to their main CP, right? But here the main motivation of the MC is pure and plain obsession for the man he once r*ped.

high key, the ML would be so much better off being single than being with this creepy sort of MC. <<less
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LostMySoul rated it
June 1, 2020
Status: Completed
So, the Emperor actually does not love the MC at all. Just the idea of him. I bet if the

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Empress back then hadn't revealed the traitors in the harem which was literally ALL of them EXCEPT MC


the Emperor wouldn't fixate on our gullible MC. There's also the fact that mc's family poses no threat to the emperor so less trouble for him, really. He does stay true to his words tho. He dotes on the MC. So there's that, I guess.

I actually kinda like the MC but let's face it, his type wouldn't survive in a true ancient chinese harem political arena or whatsoever. He also feels like one of those white lotus in rebirth stories that you can't help but hate lol he's too gullible and submissive but he does try his best, really.

Basically, after reading this novel, it just felt like I was reading about the Emperor raising his favorite pet or something. Would've been more interesting if it was the MC who was given a second chance. But eh, with his character, he'd still be a white lotus through and through. He'd have to have a change of character for it to be at least interesting. <<less
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DhiVhi rated it
June 3, 2019
Status: Completed
sweet... sweet... sweet

I like the way the prince prepare for Lin Jiabao to become queen. He didnt deliberatly opposed his father & mother, but he shows with his cleverness how he didnt need help from harem to stabilize his throne. He also knows how to protect Jiabao from harm eventhough Jiabao is someone who is brave & firm in urgency times. Jiabao is also such a cutie, he is somewhat naive & (too) kind but he knows how to protect his loved one. Jiabao also not a virgin mary, he... more>> is not someone who always forgive everyone who do harm to him.

All in all, this is such a sweet royal palace story. <<less
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Aneel rated it
November 20, 2020
Status: c15
Would give this zero stars if I could. The ML is a terrible person and completely unlikeable. I was willing to give him a chance, maybe the author intends to have him grow as a person and learn his lesson, but...


He basically just committed genocide and I'm sorry but there's nothing the author can do to redeem him now. Dropping this like a hot potato.

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Boba rated it
August 27, 2019
Status: Completed
Alright! This is SWEET ? (omit 1 star cause I don't really like the Gong)

Truly you would not know what treasure (ayyyyy.... Look at what I did) is until you lose it.

This story is filled with Gong redemption journey towards Shou (read: pampering shou until you have cavities) the problems are solved rather quickly and no heavy dog blood angst.

Rec for a light reading when you just get tired of dog blood stories
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Fisukisuki rated it
January 24, 2022
Status: c45
I'm just going to say, I personally think the low rating was because the Shota tag. I mean, sure ML is young, and he already introduced to Sexuality in his 14 years old age. But MC still waiting for ML's certain age to be on Full Base with ML. The Certain Age is the Appropriate age in Ancient Time where they can bear to get pregnant. If you can't handle a 'Teenager' in CONSENSUAL Sexual Relationship in ANCIENT TIME, WHY THE F DO YOU READ THIS NOVEL OR ANY HISTORICAL... more>> NOVEL IN THE FIRST PLACE??!!!

Anyway, other than that, the story so far is Pretty Nice. MC and ML have a Good Character. ML and MC also has Great Parents and Good siblings. MC treat ML very well. The first chapter, the start of MC's regret and yearning... Emotional. And this novel is the Journey of how MC going to change things for the Better, and Especially to Care and Loving ML so much and no one can ignore that.

Pray so hard the rest of the story is as Good and as Satisfying and as Loving as the Author promise us!!! 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏 <<less
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takame rated it
November 26, 2020
Status: Completed
Like, IDK I am probably being dumb to fail to understand how other readers were able to draw a lot of theories about the Gong-MC's affection to the shou with that one whole paragraph...

So am I going to question MC's feelings based on that measly word count that totals to at least 1% of the whole story? Uh. Tbh I don't want to bother myself making criticism on such a small part of the story when the entire 99% is spent on MC coddling and protecting ML from the... more>> green tea b*tches of past and present. As I see it, (pre-rebirth) MC is a good emperor but as he is naturally unfeeling, he thoroughly neglected his backyard (harem) thus snakes run rampant behind his back. The wake up call came thru death and he suffered alone for a few decades. His first love came too late. Again, this backstory is told in just one chapter meaning it was not the main point. I like how the entire story is spent with MC doing the do and never allowed any slip ups to happen again and paving the way to make the shou his only one. Gong really did make full use of his second chance.

Perhaps before rebirth MC got moved from the shou's sincerity that started his affection but Rebirth gave them chance to fall deeply in love for real with each other.

Overall the story is very sweet and all kinds of dog blood were prevented before it happens which I appreciate. The chapters might seem few but one chapter is really long. I enjoyed reading MC's preemptive strikes and verbal taichis whenever he goes against the tradition. <<less
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Lea168 rated it
August 29, 2021
Status: Completed
5.0/5* RECOMMEND!!!

This story totally gave me diabetes!! FLUFF, FLUFF, FLUFF

Premise is like The wife is first and Sharing rain and dew, but with added sugar. Royalty and palace setting. The shou dies in his first life when he saved the Emperor.

ML (shou) is simple, innocent, pure hearted, normal level handsome and a Ger. Not OP nor overbearing. Not totally sure whether he counts as naive as well? He seems so oblivious to schemes etc, but his reaction is always top notch as he always asks himself (if a schemer asks... more>> for favors) 'does this hurt reputation of hubby or is it against rules?'. If so, he will directly refute.

ML lives a truly blessed 2nd life, without knowing that MC (gong) has taken all obstacles away. ML never needs to face slap, as MC has already done it for him without ML knowing. ML rise from a normal palace attendant to become the Crown Princess and later the Empress.

I loved that the shou came from a loving, caring family!! Totally fits the story and MLs character.

MC (gong emperor) is cruel and ruthless, but soft towards his siblings and parents. And is a super doting hubby.

SMUT!! Yes, there is actually explicit smut in this story, though descriptions are short and not super vivid, but do expect hand jobs, blow jobs.


  • The shou is 14y when he marries the gong (20y old). They have s*x (hand, oral), but not all the way. That is saved till the shou was 16. I think it is fitting for this historical setting and didn't mind at all. It was kinda kinky in a good way.
  • The gong already had other kids, also in his 2nd life, but straight after rebirth he only loves and touches the shou.
  • The r*pe tag is only in the 1st life. The shou was a palace attendant. The Crown Prince (MC) r*ped him when he was drunk. ML shou became a little concubine that in the end died whilst blocking a blade for the then Emperor. In the 2nd life there was no r*pe.
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Tetra rated it
July 30, 2021
Status: Completed
I came back to reread and rate back to 5⭐ bcoz this is really a good one for me and the rating is relatively low. Though the NSFW part is still pw protected and not working. I mean it should be fine but kinda awkward to read with some parts missing and ruined the mood tsk tsk tsk

My review for the story:

I can't wait so I mtl it.

I am actually quite sad with the rating becoz this is very well written. Just not sure if it's becoz we... more>> have different tastes in novels but if you like pampering, doting, doting family, heartwarming story then this is it mah frends! Hahaha

To point out the age, goodness this is the ancient times! ANCIENT mah frend! Lol! My mom was not even born on the ancient times but married at 15! Imagine that! Also even 14 year olds or (younger?) nowadays has been rolling on the bed with their bf/gf grrrrr lol

Next, yes Jiabao is definitely not suited for harem intrigue which was why he died in the first life right? Right? He is not clever and omnipotent. He is a very cute and innocent little ger. He had not even thought of entering the harem, he cried really hard.

Now, since ML was reborn of course he has the advantage. And he promised that he will do everything to protect his baby. He can do everything so why not? Right? Right? He arranged for his harem to be cleaned, arranged for Jiabao to enter the Royal Kitchen at first and protected him. So what else do you want? Lol

If I can do it too I will do the same. And I would want to be pampered too. If someone can clean all the intrigues and obstacles for me and live a happy and comfortable life then damn! As a reader just thinking about all the intrigues and scheming in a harem, grrrr that is very tiring.

Yes, Jiabao without protection can't survive in the harem alone. But he has the crown prince so I did not find any plot holes.

Fluff fluff fluff! If you like fluff and a heartwarming light read give it a try! <<less
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ImaginativeN rated it
July 9, 2021
Status: Completed
MC (fantasy ancient Chinese emperor. Not modern educated gentleman) is in the category of scum gong but given another chance, he became a pampering gong since he got obssesed with MC whom he lost without knowing how sincere he was to him untill it was too late in his first life.

I like how charmingly pure and kind his little ML (story setting is fantasy ANCIENT China where people are married earlier. 14 year old is OLD ENOUGH to have a partner) is and with this slice... more>> of life genre, the novel is a smooth sailing read. The antagonist (whose braincells aren't on par with us modern people) are easily and cleanly dealt with without wasting time and letting them create more havoc.

MC wants a second chance with ML and their children... and MC did spent it well. I think at first, he only felt guilty and greatful to the only person in the harem who liked him without calculations, but as they interact MC fell deep to ML and sincerely loved him and his children. It is a fluffy read all through out. <<less
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February 13, 2022
Status: Completed
Easy read that is full of fluff and not much drama. I will admit there were a few parts that bugged my moral compass but it didn't ruin the story.

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My biggest complaint is the ML age. I don't like how young he is in the beginning, I get that it's to be realistic for the time period but the whole story isn't realistic so why stick to making him only 12. The MC doesn't complete the deed until he is basically 16 but there is some heavy petting starting at 14. As for the r*pe tag it's from the first life while the MC was drunk he came across the ML and took him, then left him after he miscarried. ML is absolute scum in his first life.


If you can get through that then the rest of the novel is basically the MC doting on the ML, treating him as a treasure.


MC doesn't take anymore concubines and by the end the ML is the empress. He gets rid of all his harem except 1 concubine who keeps to her self, the one he has had since he was young. The princess consort is delt with early on same with the one he favored. He kills the princes consort but the favored one hangs herself after being sent to the cold palace. The Yu one lasts until near the end until she tries to kill the first son at the double full moon celebration, then is killed


The novel isn't deep by any means but I liked it for what it was. I MTLd and feel like I missed a lot but I was impatient. FYI: The translated chapter 46 actually equates to mid chapter 23 in the main text. Really dislike it when translators break up the chapters but number it sequentially. Why can't they use 1.1, 1.2, 2.1 2.2 etc, seems so deceptive *sorry rant over*


also they have 6 kids by the end. The first son, then after 3 years twin boys, then 3 more years dragon phoenix twins, then finally a ger when the oldest son is 18.

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lourdes rated it
October 27, 2021
Status: Completed
Sweet and fluppy... 😍

No stress. Good for light reading. No heavy drama. Just flup and pampering. 🥰

Love it. ❤️
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Kthp rated it
May 23, 2021
Status: Completed
This is a very fluffy, easy read. I will remember it for the loving families and in laws. So refreshing!!! The love MC’s parents and siblings have for him is so heartwarming.

MC and ML kinda jump into their honeymoon stage right away and stayed there forever - which I enjoyed.

I disagree with the reviews that criticize ML for not really loving MC. IMO, ... more>>

ML mourned MC for 30 years in the first life, and fell in love with him after learning his life story through others and retracing his steps. He doesn’t impose any expectations on MC.



Serious warning about AGE GAP While acknowledging that 15 was a normal age of marriage, it is impossible to ignore the “grooming” in their relationship. ML (~20) is intimate with MC (~13). And MC actually has the maturity of a preteen.

if you want the main example:

It is not explicit- the head maids teach MC about s*x and how to please ML using his hands and mouth - since he is too young for penetrative s*x. On their wedding night, ML reiterates that MC is too young for penetrative sex, but should use his mouth to show what he has learned. The story is censored, but you know what is happening.


There is always a power imbalance when ML is the Emperor, but MC’s naïveté is more blatant than in other stories. Of course, his innocence, straightforwardness, and kindness is his charm. <<less
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Erudite.Cielo rated it
February 2, 2021
Status: Completed
I thought this would be a boring slice of life story... boy, I'm wrong.! (´∀`) this is exciting!! The MC and ML were able to be together and have children but their journey is not easy either. The conflicts and contradictions in the story made this more worth it. (∩_∩)

P.s. I absolutely adore the ML.. so kawaii.. (。・ω・。)
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anotherworld20 rated it
October 1, 2021
Status: Completed
This story is full of love,
About a lifelong regret who got a second chance.

This is one of the novels where ML (shou) gave birth to quite a lot of children,

he gave birth to 5 kids


I love that the story doesn't make you anxious, their problem is solved quickly and the characters that die all deserve it

Give it a try if you want a light love story
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msbwhy rated it
September 13, 2021
Status: Completed
I really love this I mtled the whole novel :) don't mind the bad reviews! If you're in for some sweet fluffy dog food, then u should try this! MTLing this is kinda bumpy ride bcs it's not that readable but u can still get the point. BUT! The main point is, the gong & the shou is so cute, adorable, loving, and pampering. And the most important thing:

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they are blessed w 5 babies lmao


PS. The translation (from Vanilla Muse) is actually divided into several parts but the translator isn't numbering them (like 6.1, 6.2, etc), so the 30ish chapter is actually around chapter 10 in the actual novel. <<less
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BeneathAHibiscusCanopysWarmth rated it
May 25, 2021
Status: Completed
Story Quality (Plot/Characters/etc.) : 1/5

Entertainment Value: 4/5

I really enjoyed this story. In fact, I enjoyed it so much I MTLed it whole. It's very sweet, very fluffy, and my heart just swells at the sheer amount of pampering 💕💕💕

However, the reason why I gave the Story Quality a 1/5 is because of 2 specific problems. Without these problems, I would have given it a 3/5 for being an average novel.

1. MC's AGE

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I am the kind of person who sees fictional characters as completely separate from real people. Here, the MC is only 14 years old when he is taken by the ML as a male bedservant. Although they wait until 16 to have penetrative sex, the MC has been romantically and sexually (oral, hand) involved with the ML since he was 14.

Personally, I can ignore this as this as I don't think this novel will convince actual 14 year olds to have romantic ties with grown men, nor will it serve as a justification for grown men to think that it's fine for them to date minors.

Neither do I believe that any of this novel's readers will apply its plot to real life in the sense that they will honestly think that it is not unhealthy and immoral for a real grown adult to predate upon and seduce a real minor just because a fictional 14 year-old character was taken advantage of by a fictional grown man who, because of rebirth, either genuinely loves him or at the very least will stay faithful and loving to him in a novel where their relationship does not end up as tragic and toxic because this is a fantasy story world where apparently, trauma just DOES NOT exist.

HOWEVER, I do acknowledge that some readers do not think this way. And personally, I think that the MC's youth is not needed for this story to work. Yes, 14 WAS a suitable age to marry in Ancient China, but this is already an unrealistic story. Gers exist, for goodness' sake. And the plot itself is not really realistic either (a servant with no meaningful connections becoming an Empress without meeting the disagreement of EVERYONE just because the Crown Prince really really likes him? ABSOLUTELY IMPOSSIBLE in any real Chinese dynasty).

I would prefer for the author to simply raise the MC's age. Say that 18 is now the age of marriage. Just extend the recuperation period of the poison that the ML takes and extend its harmful effects to also hurting gers, so that he will have a reason to wait two years if that waiting time is truly vital to the plot. ML can still tell his mother that only gers will be unaffected, but this time it'll be a lie. This lie will further cement the ML's affection for MC, as he is willing to lie to his parents for MC. This will also work because neither the Empress nor the Emperor ever bother to consult ML's physician or have ML go to a different doctor to further confirm his illness. They just take his word for everything.

Although, I do acknowledge that while this may be alright for me, this may not sit as well with Chinese readers, the audience that the author actually keeps in mind. It's very common for Chinese novels, movies, and series based on Ancient Times to feature 14 year-old characters as Romance leads regardless of the historical accuracy of their plot, although they do cast older actors for those roles. It seems as if Chinese audiences EXPECT that age no matter what, and that is why those characters are never aged up. Thus, I don't assume that the author is just a shotacon and that's why they made MC underage.

All in all, while I ignored it and pretended as if the MC's an adult so that I can continue indulging myself in all this novel's sugar, I acknowledge that the MC being only 14 IS an issue among readers that CAN very much be solved easily, and I hope that I'm not wrong in assuming that no one will truly apply this novel's plot in their perception of what is alright to do and what is not alright to do in the real world.




Cannonfodders and White Lotuses are the bread and butter of Chinese webnovels, it's almost impossible to find a book that doesn't include or mention them. Sadly, both of these archetypes rely on those aforementioned cannonfodders and white lotuses to have an IQ lower than -10000.

The MC is kind of a doormat in the beginning of every conversation he has. He does say 'no' and understand how to use logic eventually, but his guard is ALWAYS lowered. It only goes up when the person he's talking to says something that will OBVIOUSLY work against him, after which he will reject his conversation partner, although after their conversation his guard against that person will immediately lower again.

He fails to grasp the subtleties and traps in the words of others. He fails to see other people's intentions. One time, he made the only servant following him return to the Dowager Empress' Palace to get back an item that he left there. While alone (he still has shadow guards that he's unaware of, tho), he meets a crying maid who tells him that her mistress is dying, and he just FOLLOWS HER. The crying maid. Who he DOES NOT KNOW IN ANY WAY. He never stops to wonder why the maid cannot approach any other servant, which, if he does think about, will inevitably lead to him thinking about the identity of the maid's mistress, and whether that woman is someone he would be able to help without getting in trouble. He doesn't even stop to wait for his servant to come back. HE JUST FOLLOWS HER. AND THEN HE BELIEVES THE WORDS OF THE MAID'S MISTRESS. WITHOUT QUESTIONING HER INTENTIONS.

That is only the beginning. The protagonist shows the same blind trust to others and always nearly gets harmed for his trust. Like most White Lotuses, he gets really irritating when he does this.

His s*upidity may be attributed to him being a relatively spoiled 14 year-old, but he doesn't really get that much better even as he ages.

The ML's overconfidence about the death of Li Qinwang is also a little dumb, but it can be attributed to the fact that he's reborn and roughly knows what may happen. Although as someone who had already been Emperor, that change is still kind of impossible.

What the ML is REALLY dumb for is his total lack of suspicion for his harem. The author tries to excuse this as him being too busy to pay attention to his women. But the thing is, MANY emperors are like that. But still, any emperor with a normally functioning brain will wonder why he can't conceive any sons or why every woman who he does get pregnant and up miscarrying. BUT NO. ML doesn't. Because the magical author wand took all of his braincells away.


Basically, the story needs to proceed and have drama somehow. The author, who we can assume only aims to write a casual sweet novel, doesn't really write anything that will make the plot's unravelling seem like a logical progression of actions and decisions, she just goes with the easiest route, which I don't blame her for since she may be just writing this casually.


All in all, really sweet and enjoyable novel full of pampering. Everyone has a negative IQ, which may really take away from your enjoyment of the book as a whole. The MC's age may also put you off. <<less
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April 8, 2020
Status: c4
I just don’t like the gong. The shou as a character is so flat and boring. These two combined are basically the perfect example of a typical shoujo couple which I loathe
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