Didn’t Love You Enough


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This is the story about the rebirth of a little gong with a sweet steamed bun-like little shou.

In the past life, little shou, in order to help little gong block a poisonous blade, ended up dying due to blood loss.

After the little gong is reborn he proceeds to dote on the little shou endlessly.

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miumiumiu rated it
July 9, 2019
Status: --
I'm.... so many things.... first of all.. ... more>>

u fell in love with a BOY U r*peD. u dont even know him... he died for u and all u can do is sit there and draw pe*ophilic pictures and romanticising him.. you say u love him (for 30 years! after the MC's death! wow! but u didnt even know he existed :)...)

He probably only loved the idea of him unconditionally loving him and dying for him... POS brings the gullible and naive MC back into the palace to f*ck his life up... entitled ass prick...


I'm thinking I guess I really cant deal with emperors plot stuff if they have like.... Like okay, the ML has children with his other concubines.... His responsibility as a king *gag* "oh no, we must have other people in the harem cus thats... politics!" while the supposed lover of the emperor just gotta sit there grit their teeth and endure this f*cked up plot honestly... poor little MC please run away you'd find a better life in a simple home somewhere...

my most minimum condition to a good romance is... at least let the ML be decent... the formula is mentally ill and crazy in love! NOT just the mental illness......... <<less
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tomr1 rated it
April 6, 2021
Status: -
i like how the synopsis bravely proclaims that there's "no ab*se" in this story while the 'r*pe' and 'r*pe victim becomes lover' tags are right there for everyone to see.

one star for bold face of whoever wrote the description.

you know how sometimes there are little things about the MCs that you happen to dislike, but tolerate anyway, because overall they're good/well written/nuanced characters?

... more>> not the case, for this story! If I ever met the MC of this novel irl, I would probably commit crimes. Violent ones.

there are very few cases (because there are very few stories, where the themes are this disturbing) where, I feel the need to 'protect' the ML.
usually, authors try to balance powers, dynamics, and give solid foundation to their main CP, right? But here the main motivation of the MC is pure and plain obsession for the man he once r*ped.

high key, the ML would be so much better off being single than being with this creepy sort of MC. <<less
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byunnie rated it
January 23, 2020
Status: --
The emperor is super gross and his reasons for loving the LJB is just utter bull* he doesnt know sh*t about him basically filled in his idealized person on the ljb after his death then called it love.

Brought him back to the palace just to make him go through sh*t again because he "loves" him.

Poor ljb probably had stockholm syndrome the first time and had to be trapped again
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LostMySoul rated it
June 1, 2020
Status: Completed
So, the Emperor actually does not love the MC at all. Just the idea of him. I bet if the

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Empress back then hadn't revealed the traitors in the harem which was literally ALL of them EXCEPT MC


the Emperor wouldn't fixate on our gullible MC. There's also the fact that mc's family poses no threat to the emperor so less trouble for him, really. He does stay true to his words tho. He dotes on the MC. So there's that, I guess.

I actually kinda like the MC but let's face it, his type wouldn't survive in a true ancient chinese harem political arena or whatsoever. He also feels like one of those white lotus in rebirth stories that you can't help but hate lol he's too gullible and submissive but he does try his best, really.

Basically, after reading this novel, it just felt like I was reading about the Emperor raising his favorite pet or something. Would've been more interesting if it was the MC who was given a second chance. But eh, with his character, he'd still be a white lotus through and through. He'd have to have a change of character for it to be at least interesting. <<less
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Fisukisuki rated it
January 24, 2022
Status: c45
I'm just going to say, I personally think the low rating was because the Shota tag. I mean, sure ML is young, and he already introduced to Sexuality in his 14 years old age. But MC still waiting for ML's certain age to be on Full Base with ML. The Certain Age is the Appropriate age in Ancient Time where they can bear to get pregnant. If you can't handle a 'Teenager' in CONSENSUAL s*xual Relationship in ANCIENT TIME, WHY THE F DO YOU READ THIS NOVEL OR ANY HISTORICAL... more>> NOVEL IN THE FIRST PLACE??!!!

Anyway, other than that, the story so far is Pretty Nice. MC and ML have a Good Character. ML and MC also has Great Parents and Good siblings. MC treat ML very well. The first chapter, the start of MC's regret and yearning... Emotional. And this novel is the Journey of how MC going to change things for the Better, and Especially to Care and Loving ML so much and no one can ignore that.

Pray so hard the rest of the story is as Good and as Satisfying and as Loving as the Author promise us!!! 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏 <<less
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DhiVhi rated it
June 3, 2019
Status: Completed
sweet... sweet... sweet

I like the way the prince prepare for Lin Jiabao to become queen. He didnt deliberatly opposed his father & mother, but he shows with his cleverness how he didnt need help from harem to stabilize his throne. He also knows how to protect Jiabao from harm eventhough Jiabao is someone who is brave & firm in urgency times. Jiabao is also such a cutie, he is somewhat naive & (too) kind but he knows how to protect his loved one. Jiabao also not a virg*n mary, he... more>> is not someone who always forgive everyone who do harm to him.

All in all, this is such a sweet royal palace story. <<less
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Aneel rated it
November 20, 2020
Status: c15
Would give this zero stars if I could. The ML is a terrible person and completely unlikeable. I was willing to give him a chance, maybe the author intends to have him grow as a person and learn his lesson, but...


He basically just committed genocide and I'm sorry but there's nothing the author can do to redeem him now. Dropping this like a hot potato.

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Boba rated it
August 27, 2019
Status: Completed
Alright! This is SWEET ? (omit 1 star cause I don't really like the Gong)

Truly you would not know what treasure (ayyyyy.... Look at what I did) is until you lose it.

This story is filled with Gong redemption journey towards Shou (read: pampering shou until you have cavities) the problems are solved rather quickly and no heavy dog blood angst.

Rec for a light reading when you just get tired of dog blood stories
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takame rated it
November 26, 2020
Status: Completed
Like, IDK I am probably being dumb to fail to understand how other readers were able to draw a lot of theories about the Gong-MC's affection to the shou with that one whole paragraph...

So am I going to question MC's feelings based on that measly word count that totals to at least 1% of the whole story? Uh. Tbh I don't want to bother myself making criticism on such a small part of the story when the entire 99% is spent on MC coddling and protecting ML from the... more>> green tea b*tches of past and present. As I see it, (pre-rebirth) MC is a good emperor but as he is naturally unfeeling, he thoroughly neglected his backyard (harem) thus snakes run rampant behind his back. The wake up call came thru death and he suffered alone for a few decades. His first love came too late. Again, this backstory is told in just one chapter meaning it was not the main point. I like how the entire story is spent with MC doing the do and never allowed any slip ups to happen again and paving the way to make the shou his only one. Gong really did make full use of his second chance.

Perhaps before rebirth MC got moved from the shou's sincerity that started his affection but Rebirth gave them chance to fall deeply in love for real with each other.

Overall the story is very sweet and all kinds of dog blood were prevented before it happens which I appreciate. The chapters might seem few but one chapter is really long. I enjoyed reading MC's preemptive strikes and verbal taichis whenever he goes against the tradition. <<less
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Lea168 rated it
August 29, 2021
Status: Completed
5.0/5* RECOMMEND!!!

This story totally gave me diabetes!! FLUFF, FLUFF, FLUFF

Premise is like The wife is first and Sharing rain and dew, but with added sugar. Royalty and palace setting. The shou dies in his first life when he saved the Emperor.

ML (shou) is simple, innocent, pure hearted, normal level handsome and a Ger. Not OP nor overbearing. Not totally sure whether he counts as naive as well? He seems so oblivious to schemes etc, but his reaction is always top notch as he always asks himself (if a schemer asks... more>> for favors) 'does this hurt reputation of hubby or is it against rules?'. If so, he will directly refute.

ML lives a truly blessed 2nd life, without knowing that MC (gong) has taken all obstacles away. ML never needs to face slap, as MC has already done it for him without ML knowing. ML rise from a normal palace attendant to become the Crown Princess and later the Empress.

I loved that the shou came from a loving, caring family!! Totally fits the story and MLs character.

MC (gong emperor) is cruel and ruthless, but soft towards his siblings and parents. And is a super doting hubby.

SMUT!! Yes, there is actually explicit smut in this story, though descriptions are short and not super vivid, but do expect hand jobs, blow jobs.


  • The shou is 14y when he marries the gong (20y old). They have s*x (hand, oral), but not all the way. That is saved till the shou was 16. I think it is fitting for this historical setting and didn't mind at all. It was kinda kinky in a good way.
  • The gong already had other kids, also in his 2nd life, but straight after rebirth he only loves and touches the shou.
  • The r*pe tag is only in the 1st life. The shou was a palace attendant. The Crown Prince (MC) r*ped him when he was drunk. ML shou became a little concubine that in the end died whilst blocking a blade for the then Emperor. In the 2nd life there was no r*pe.
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Tetra rated it
July 30, 2021
Status: Completed
I came back to reread and rate back to 5⭐ bcoz this is really a good one for me and the rating is relatively low. Though the NSFW part is still pw protected and not working. I mean it should be fine but kinda awkward to read with some parts missing and ruined the mood tsk tsk tsk

My review for the story:

I can't wait so I mtl it.

I am actually quite sad with the rating becoz this is very well written. Just not sure if it's becoz we... more>> have different tastes in novels but if you like pampering, doting, doting family, heartwarming story then this is it mah frends! Hahaha

To point out the age, goodness this is the ancient times! ANCIENT mah frend! Lol! My mom was not even born on the ancient times but married at 15! Imagine that! Also even 14 year olds or (younger?) nowadays has been rolling on the bed with their bf/gf grrrrr lol

Next, yes Jiabao is definitely not suited for harem intrigue which was why he died in the first life right? Right? He is not clever and omnipotent. He is a very cute and innocent little ger. He had not even thought of entering the harem, he cried really hard.

Now, since ML was reborn of course he has the advantage. And he promised that he will do everything to protect his baby. He can do everything so why not? Right? Right? He arranged for his harem to be cleaned, arranged for Jiabao to enter the Royal Kitchen at first and protected him. So what else do you want? Lol

If I can do it too I will do the same. And I would want to be pampered too. If someone can clean all the intrigues and obstacles for me and live a happy and comfortable life then damn! As a reader just thinking about all the intrigues and scheming in a harem, grrrr that is very tiring.

Yes, Jiabao without protection can't survive in the harem alone. But he has the crown prince so I did not find any plot holes.

Fluff fluff fluff! If you like fluff and a heartwarming light read give it a try! <<less
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HuangDoudou rated it
January 9, 2024
Status: c45
This story feels like g*ooming. An emperor was betrayed by everyone in his harem except one ger who sacrificed his life. The emperor goes back to when he was still a crown prince and vows to protect the ger who saved him.

However, by this point, the emperor has lived a full life once already. He r*ped the ger, but this is a story set in ancient china and he is the emperor, so I guess that's how things were. The ger gave birth for him, but the child became a... more>> casualty in the harem politics. Then the ger was basically isolated. The emperor didn't know this ger at all until after the ger had died. Then he became obsessed with the only person who didn't betray him, but you can't fully understand someone after they've died. At best, he is constructing a fantasy in his mind around this poor ger.

Then, the emperor becomes a crown prince and strategically puts this ger into a position where he can marry him. The ger starts at 13, and the crown prince keeps an eye on him through shadow guards until he can take him as a concubine at 14. He sneaks into the ger's room at night to kiss him, and makes sure to set up frequent run-ins. Then when he finally takes the ger as a concubine, he doesn't have an*l penetrative s*x, but he does do a lot of touching, kissing, and some blow jobs. It is basically s*xual g*ooming to get the ger used to touches and intimacy.

This is all while the ger only knows him as a crown prince with near ultimate authority. Never does the prince/emperor really try to understand his ger's thoughts and feelings. He conducts background research, and just assumes from there. He never asks the ger directly what he wants. While he does dote on the ger, it almost feels like he is keeping a pet, not a living human being with thoughts of his own. This little ger basically exists to please the emperor.

The power imbalance is far to strong both with the age and with the face that one is a royal, and one is barely a servent. The author does nothing to rectify this imbalance or at least try to make them equals in any way. Because of this, this relationship is in no way consensual.

Again, this is set in ancient china, so the dynamics are different, but I can't read this as fluffy, which the author clearly intends for it to be, without taking into consideration all of this periphery. Even if you ignore the rebirth, this is still a royal taking advantage of an unbelievably innocent and naive ger.

All of this is not to say that I liked the character of the ger much. He is essentially a door mat. Had he been a real person living in ancient china, he culould not survive anywhere, much less the emperor's harem. <<less
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Silvina rated it
July 22, 2022
Status: c1
I got carried away by the comments and I didn't want to read the book, the truth is very good, what they say that ML is cruel I think they haven't read novels with the silent Lover, Nirvana in fire (it's not bl) they are novels of times of emperors, but in those times women were hardly worth more than for exchange goods for the parents, I think this is one of the softest novels I read from ancient times, give it a chance...
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Moongodess76 rated it
July 7, 2022
Status: Completed
Don't pay attention to the low ratings, even though I respect their opinions, I have to disagree. It's a good story, there are enough face slaps and intrigue to keep you interested, but there's also lots of fluff and love. I specially like that both the MC and the ML families don't have any type of jealousy or hate, just love within their members. I read that a reviewer wrote that the gong just loved the idea of the shou, maybe it started like that, but he ended up... more>> loving the shou to death, holding him like a precious treasure, just like his name. <<less
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Zinchimon rated it
June 15, 2022
Status: Completed
All about the children...

ML first gave birth to a boy then he gave birth to twin boys, and then a pair of boy and girl and at last a ger.

So the total number of children are six so why is everyone saying that there are only five children???????
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February 13, 2022
Status: Completed
Easy read that is full of fluff and not much drama. I will admit there were a few parts that bugged my moral compass but it didn't ruin the story.

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My biggest complaint is the ML age. I don't like how young he is in the beginning, I get that it's to be realistic for the time period but the whole story isn't realistic so why stick to making him only 12. The MC doesn't complete the deed until he is basically 16 but there is some heavy petting starting at 14 (MC is 19).

As for the r*pe tag it's from the first life while the MC was drunk he came across the ML and took him, then left him after he miscarried. MC is absolute scum in his first life.


If you can get through that then the rest of the novel is basically the MC doting on the ML, treating him as a treasure.


MC doesn't take anymore concubines and by the end the ML is the empress. He gets rid of all his harem except 1 concubine who keeps to her self, the one he has had since he was young. The princess consort is delt with early on same with the one he favored. He kills the princes consort but the favored one hangs herself after being sent to the cold palace. The Yu one lasts until near the end until she tries to kill the first son at the double full moon celebration, then is killed


The novel isn't deep by any means but I liked it for what it was. I MTLd and feel like I missed a lot but I was impatient.

FYI: The translated chapter 46 actually equates to mid chapter 15 in the main text. Really dislike it when translators break up the chapters but number it sequentially. I understand chapters being too long to translate in one go and am not opposed to them being split, but why can't they use 1.1, 1.2, 2.1 2.2 etc, seems so deceptive *sorry rant over*

Their kids:

also they have 6 kids by the end. The first son, then after 3 years twin boys, then 3 more years dragon phoenix twins, then finally a ger when the oldest son is 18.

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ImaginativeN rated it
July 9, 2021
Status: Completed
MC (fantasy ancient Chinese emperor. Not modern educated gentleman) is in the category of scum gong but given another chance, he became a pampering gong since he got obssesed with MC whom he lost without knowing how sincere he was to him untill it was too late in his first life.

I like how charmingly pure and kind his little ML (story setting is fantasy ANCIENT China where people are married earlier. 14 year old is OLD ENOUGH to have a partner) is and with this slice... more>> of life genre, the novel is a smooth sailing read. The antagonist (whose braincells aren't on par with us modern people) are easily and cleanly dealt with without wasting time and letting them create more havoc.

MC wants a second chance with ML and their children... and MC did spent it well. I think at first, he only felt guilty and greatful to the only person in the harem who liked him without calculations, but as they interact MC fell deep to ML and sincerely loved him and his children. It is a fluffy read all through out. <<less
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lourdes rated it
October 27, 2021
Status: Completed
Sweet and fluppy... 😍

No stress. Good for light reading. No heavy drama. Just flup and pampering. 🥰

Love it. ❤️
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Kthp rated it
May 23, 2021
Status: Completed
This is a very fluffy, easy read. I will remember it for the loving families and in laws. So refreshing!!! The love MC’s parents and siblings have for him is so heartwarming.

MC and ML kinda jump into their honeymoon stage right away and stayed there forever - which I enjoyed.

I disagree with the reviews that criticize ML for not really loving MC. IMO, ... more>>

ML mourned MC for 30 years in the first life, and fell in love with him after learning his life story through others and retracing his steps. He doesn’t impose any expectations on MC.



Serious warning about AGE GAP While acknowledging that 15 was a normal age of marriage, it is impossible to ignore the “g*ooming” in their relationship. ML (~20) is intimate with MC (~13). And MC actually has the maturity of a preteen.

if you want the main example:

It is not explicit- the head maids teach MC about s*x and how to please ML using his hands and mouth - since he is too young for penetrative s*x. On their wedding night, ML reiterates that MC is too young for penetrative s*x, but should use his mouth to show what he has learned. The story is censored, but you know what is happening.


There is always a power imbalance when ML is the Emperor, but MC’s naïveté is more blatant than in other stories. Of course, his innocence, straightforwardness, and kindness is his charm. <<less
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Erudite.Cielo rated it
February 2, 2021
Status: Completed
I thought this would be a boring slice of life story... boy, I'm wrong.! (´∀`) this is exciting!! The MC and ML were able to be together and have children but their journey is not easy either. The conflicts and contradictions in the story made this more worth it. (∩_∩)

P.s. I absolutely adore the ML.. so kawaii.. (。・ω・。)
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