Depressing Illusion


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Tae Seong-jae… he’ll take me home.

One day, ‘I’ transmigrated into the character Seo Seung-won in a BL novel given to me by my little sister without warning. As a result of transmigration, I frequently experience nosebleeds and hemoptysis, as well as other forms of pain. Since I realized that the calmer I was, the less pain I felt, so I desperately tried to empty my thoughts and maintain my composure, but I couldn’t stand it when the original memory of “me” faded away day by day. However, in order to escape from this terrible place and return to reality, ‘I’ aim at the end of the novel and do not lose hope. Following the plot of the novel, I become the lover of ‘Tae Seong-je’, get abandoned, and attempt s**c*de. For the sake of getting back home.

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우울한 착각
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5 Reviews

Hi I am neko
Hi I am neko
Dec 15, 2022
Status: --
This novel made me cry so much aiyoooo. I only read the google- translate version so I am so glad to see it picked up. Thank you to the translators ^^ will keep following it 👍

The summary is pretty accurate. Our MC tries to complete the novel to get back to the real-world while dealing with his novel-problems (his incompatibility with his novel body) and his real -world problems.

If you want angsty then this is definitely it. Storyline is simple, MC is likable and not an a- hole ml.

Will put... more>> up an edited review after I read again.

Guys please give this a read. Y'all won't regret it but keep tissues nearby. 🥲 <<less
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May 17, 2023
Status: --
I won't rate it yet since I haven't read the whole novel.

But here are some of my thoughts:

1. The translation is just an edited MTL. There are some parts which is confusing but you would still get the whole idea and understand the flow of the story.

... more>> 2. Once you start reading this you wouldn't stop.

3. The MC might get annoying at times but hey this is tagged with psychological so please bear that in mind while reading this.

All in all it is a novel worth to read.

(I am thankful that this has an MTL but it would be better if a better group translator would pick this up 🥲) <<less
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Aug 03, 2023
Status: c3
ch58 and I feel like tragedy tag should be there. Honestly I'm a little disappointed I feel like it had potential at first, but it started to gradually deteriorate since the appearance of ML.

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First comment here I hope it works well. It's kind of a brief summary of the released chapters and a note to myself to NOT pick this back up. If you want to read it I hope you enjoy. Also EN in not my first language pls bear with me.

At first the MC is pleasant to read ab, he is trying to cope with the transmigration, illness and missing memories in his own way. It's rare for a transmigration novel to include the internal conflict of the MC so it was a good start. The world which normally I would call childishly flat and unreal was working here too, bc it was a world from the novel - so it strangely cl**ked together - it made it easier to understand MC feeling out of place there.

What ruined it all was the ML. Their relationship was toxic and too unpleasant to read ab. At the same time it was MC's plan to finish this "novel" and go back home. He tried unrealistically hard for something that was in no way confirmed. It was 58 chapters of almost constant emotional abuse, it was too much for me. ML became the main reason MC was miserable and I feel like author sometimes forgets about MC's illness and only uses it when it's convenient for the plot.

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Oct 16, 2023
Status: c80

Honestly I think this should have a comedy tag I mean I'm on ch.80 right now and though it is a serious chapter, I just can't help laughing because it also isn't lol. ML is saying MC sounds like a mistress the way he's talking to him but the more I read I can't help thinking it's the other way around. The ML seems like a pitiful wife who wants her husbands attention 😂😂honestly I'm laughing so hard I feel a bit sorry for the ML in this chapter he even asked MC if he thought he (ML) was annoying at the end of the chapter😭.

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May 12, 2023
Status: c4
Honestly, I just read 4 chapters and it's boring.. The narrator, I don't know if he's going to be the MC, is laying his depressed thoughts and honestly, I don't know if it's the original works or the translation that's not good enough because it's hard to understand some parts. He's saying he's losing his memory of his life before transmigration but at the same time, be still narrates his ''past'' life big points.... And the main plot is not advancing much... Maybe if I find the courage to read... more>> more, I would change my rating. <<less
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