I really love how the MC is really determined to go home (but is literally struggling due to his unwilling growing affections with the ML) and the fact that the author incorporated his memories from his past life is such nice touch. Specially tons of isekai tend to literally forget or even don't care anymore for the MCs past/real life

I can't help but to wonder whether the MC realy came from another world or if it has something to do with his mentality

First comment here I hope it works well. It's kind of a brief summary of the released chapters and a note to myself to NOT pick this back up. If you want to read it I hope you enjoy. Also EN in not my first language pls bear with me.

At first the MC is pleasant to read ab, he is trying to cope with the transmigration, illness and missing memories in his own way. It's rare for a transmigration novel to include the internal conflict of the MC so it was a good start. The world which normally I would call childishly flat and unreal was working here too, bc it was a world from the novel - so it strangely cl**ked together - it made it easier to understand MC feeling out of place there.

What ruined it all was the ML. Their relationship was toxic and too unpleasant to read ab. At the same time it was MC's plan to finish this "novel" and go back home. He tried unrealistically hard for something that was in no way confirmed. It was 58 chapters of almost constant emotional abuse, it was too much for me. ML became the main reason MC was miserable and I feel like author sometimes forgets about MC's illness and only uses it when it's convenient for the plot.